Mate of Fate

Pondering

Alice POV



Finally I had a moment to myself again. I know it was neccessary if I had any hope of making any kind of decision about whther or not to accept this whole situation, or just give up and let go all the same. I felt like I was in some sort of haze, desperately trying to process everything that had transpired so far, while still attempting to fully grasp the overwhelming grief I felt from the loss of my step siblings, not to mention the rest of the population on earth. Of course I didnøt know every single human on earth before, but the

feeling of being the only one left was terrifyingly hanuting. I must have spent the first two days of my solitude in the mansion by pacing the halls back and forth while unable to create any coherent trail of thoughts. I cried, sreamed, howled and broke down entirely so many times I lost count. All of this was just so must, maybe to much.

After I had finally cried out my last salty tear, I collapsed and slept a whole day on the living room floor. A dreamless sleep, deep and peaceful. I had needed that desperately, because the moment I woke up after my slumber it felt as if at least some of the fog in my mind had lifted, making room for more coherent and rational thinking.

As I ate some bread and tried to drink some water I reflected on all the questions I had asked Gabril and Zadkiel, and how willingly they both answered. They had actually sat down with me, peacefully and in that moment noone would have ever guessed they were rivaling brothers. Nonetheless I had to keep my mind sharp and rationel about them, just because they succeded in sitting with me togehter in harmony once it didn't mean it would be as easily obtainable again. I had so many doubts, from the fact that it felt a bit hypocritical to spend my life with the very men that ripped away all other humans, including my siblings. How could I ever forgive that, could I ever forgive that.

Let go

I took a long steamy warm shower, washing away all of my tears and envisioning all of my sorrow running down the drain alongside the water. I remembered the simplicity of mortal existence, the warmth of human connections, the comfort of familiar routines. Yet I couldn't deny that even though I had been overwhelmed by grief and despair amidst all of this, it had never yet felt unbearable, not as long as I felt both Gabriel and Zadkiels heartbeats intertwine with mine. I could feel the steady beat of Gabriels heart echoing within my own while I showered, and I felt Zadkiels wild beats of life in the same way. I missed them. I shouldn't. But it was undeniable, they had left a mark within my soul that I couldn't deny or forget, I doubt I could even run from it if i tried. As I finished showering I put on my favorite maxi dress that ascentuated my curves perfectly and was so very comfortable to wear. After my hair and make up was done as well I had made my decision. I knew what to tell Gabriel and Zadkiel. It would be difficult. Each offered a path that resonated with her in different ways, Gabriel's presence offered her stability and security, a sanctuary from the tumultuous world around her. His love was a steadfast beacon in the midst of uncertainty, promising to shield her from harm and support her every decision.

Zadkiel's guidance beckoned to her adventurous spirit, offering a glimpse of potential and purpose beyond anything she had imagined.

And then, there was the possibility of choosing both, embracing the complexities of their intertwined destinies, navigating the intricate dance between light and shadow, protection and guidance.

I called out their names softly to the nightsky hoping they would hear me, but unsure if it was even possible. I had to believe in my heart that they'd respond to my call for them.

No? Yes? Maybe?

Like two bolts of lightning they landed heavily infront of me, Gabriel looked tired and weary, his shoulders slumped with the weight of what my answer would be. Zadkiel stared at the ground. None of them uttered a word to each other or me for that matter, they hardly dared make eye contact. Not even Zadkiel, who had already left me with the impression that he was a proper bad boy who didn't seem to care about much but his ego and ability to get what he wanted. Perhaps the decision weighed both of them down as much as it did me.

I took a deep breath and asked them to come with me inside of the mansion and sit down before it was time for me to enlighten them to what my decision had become.

My resolve had hardened and I was ready to have one final conversation about this with Zadkiel and Gabriel.