Loving you I lost myself

Chapter 14

Elaine's POV

At around 3am Friday morning we head back to Amy's and Owen is holding my hand, but this feeling isn't the same as the feeling between me and Noah.

On our way back I think about everything I had found out about Noah and I want to stay away from him, but since we met the chemistry we have isn't easy to just ignore.

I decided that no matter his past I was going to trust him and believe that he isn't the same since he came back.

I decide I'll tell Owen how I feel the moment I get a chance.

When we reached Amy's everyone passed out in the lounge so me, Amy and Owen head to her bed room.

And to my surprise.

Amy asks about me and Owen, not wanting to be swayed by his feeling, I jump the gun and tell her how I feel.

when I look at him and he gives me a smile I'm relieved knowing he understands.

I lay next to Amy and I fall asleep.

I didnt know if Owen had left or not but I didn't care.

I had a headace from the loud music and alcohol a few hours ago so it just slept.

I should haveade sure he was gone to his room before falling asleep.

When I wake it is like a warzone in Amy's room.

Owen was laying agains the side table blood oozing from his mouth and infront of me was Noah.

His eyes were dark and what I saw was the same look I saw in Trich's eyes years earlier, it was extremely frightening seeing him like that.

Before any of us could react he was dragging me out the room, in a panic I freed my wrist from his and and retreated into the nearses safes arms I couldn't find, not caring that at this moment that was Owen's arm.

I clutch his shirt in my hands resting my face in his chest, all the horrible memories flashing through my mind.

Its been so many years but I remembered every detail about the way Trich had treated me when I was still small and I hated having to recall it all at this moment.

I hear Noah's voice scream at someone and him storming out, at that moment I knew I had to catch up to him.

What if he misunderstood me.

I ran to Amy's window and watch him slam his car door and speed away.

I need to stop him.

I start running like a lunatic out of the room grabbing my bag and keys.

I head for the still open door.

Amy tries to stop me but I can't let anything happen to Naoh.

When Owen puts his arms around my shoulders also trying to stop me I feel a sudden surge of energy through my body and with all my might push him against the wall.

I can hear him groan as he hit the wall but I didn't care, all I needed to do now was find Noah.

Before it's to late.

Getting in my Dad's car my hands are trembling.

I manage to keep my cool and head after Noah, not long after I leave Amy's I see a black Land Rover on the side of the road.

I knew immediately its Noah's.

I park behind his car and get out to see if his still inside but what happen next shook my whole world...

"Ahhhhhhhhhh...."

I hear someone screaming and when I look down at the beach I see who it was.

It's Noah.

His on his knees, his head flung back as he scream at the top of his lungs.

This sends chills down my spine.

it's heart breaking and unbelievable seeing him like this.

He looks so strong, and his personality is equally strong.

I never expected to see him like this, and knowing I caused this state of his was overwhelming.

I leave him there knowing he needs to be alone.

I head to the car and head home.

When I get home I feel relieved no is home.

I hang the keys and head up stairs, in my room I can't stand anymore and my legs give way.

I crash to the ground now crying my heart out.

So where in between all the crying I must have passed out.

I wake up and it already very late.

I realized I'm lieing on the floor where I had collapsed earlier.

I get up and head to the bathroom not know whether Noah has returned or not.

I looked in the mirror.

My eyes were swollen.

My head was a mess.

I wash my face and head down.

I only see aunt Lin and Dad in the kitchen.

I walk to the fridge not saying anything take out a bottle of water before head back up.

I'm about to head out of the kitchen.

I see Noah walking in, I feel relieved but I can see his eyes are swollen, and red he had really cried alot.

We looked like a matching pair.

He doesn't look at me and goes straight upstairs, I stand there frozen before I hear his door slam shut.

I stand there for a few more seconds before also heading up.

I stand in front of my room looking at his door hoping to hear something, anything would be fine, but the silence is so deafening it's killing me inside.

Laying in bed I feel like I'm suffocating.

I remember my phone was off so I get up and reach for my bag finding my phone I switched it on,

As soon as it's on there are 20 missed calls and a dozen of text, I notice one text is from Noah, I feel relieved but when I see the date I realized it was two days ago when that stripper was here, I read it and feel upset, than I look at the missed calls and again 5 are from him and it's from Thursday night.

I see that Amy, Jason and Owen also tried calling me but I don't care right now.

I decide to check my i********: and see Amy's post were I was also tagged, than I see another tag and it Owen but the captions on these pictures make my stomic turn.

I noticed they were posted just a few minutes before Naoh's missed calls and now the pieces fall into place.

I wonder if Owen did it deliberately and If Amy did the same.

But why would they want yo do this, isn't Owen Noah's friend.?

I shut my eyes, I don't want to think about this now.

When I realized why Noah was upset I felt sad, but annoyed as well.

I mean if he didn't trust me before we got together he won't trust me after as well.

I place my phone on my side table and try to sleep.

The next few days are bad, Noah left early Saturday morning only returning late at night.

When he went to shower I saw him before he went into the bathroom and when I looked at him I couldn't tell what he was thinking.

He abruptly went into the bathroom and shut the door. Sunday he also went out but came back a bit earlier.

He avoided all contact with me not even looking at me, acting like I did not exist.

It was hard but I made sure not to clear up his misconception about me and Owen because I wanted him to ask first but by monday that still didn't happen.

As I'm about to head out to go buy the things I need for the part on Friday is see Owen, Amy and Jason heading up the drive way and Noah is standing on the portch...

Here comes a s**t wave...

I rush into the kitchen and before I can even look away,

I see Owen swinging a punch at Noah and Noah falling down.

In complete and utter shock I rush out to Noah's side, he is surprised to see me cupping his face. I turn around and start cussing at Owen...

"You f*****g asshole, how dare you hit my Noah, what's your f*****g problem?!!"

But to my amusement they are all laughing, even Naoh had a stupid smile on his face and I am left dumbfounded.

what just happened?

Owen reaches past me helping Noah to his feet

" Now that we are even I don't think with Elaine's reaction just now I need to explain anymore."

They are all looking at me and I seem to understand that without telling Noah how I actually felt I just inadvertently made it clear.

I feel Noah's strong arms around my waist and then his lips crash onto mine.

His kiss is passionate and I know instantly that was what he had been waiting for.

I lean into him deepening the kiss...

Those few seconds feels like the world had stopped.

I hear Amy's laughter and I realized they are still there... Slowly pushing Noah away I look at them and than at him.

He has the most beautiful smile on his face and I can see the sheer happiness in his eyes, he doesn't let go just yet but on hearing our parents behind us we both jerk.

Instead of seeing two fuming adult the look as satisfied as we feel at this moment.

Noah grabs my hand before inviting everyone in.

We watch a foorball game and went to the beach Amy and Jason stayed the night.

Owen who was smiling the whole evening but looked sad as he left.

Me and Noah spent the night in my room, we held onto each other not leaving any space between us.

I woke up this morning, still tightly wrapped in Noah's arms.

But just then

I felt something poking agains my ass.

I lift the duvet and see a massive b***r through Noah's boxers.

I smile and look at Noah's sleeping face knowing what he must be dreaming about and I can't help but wonder when last he had s*x.

Laying in Noah's arm feeling his d**k press against my core I aslo start feeling wet.

I decided than and there that on his 21st I'll give him the most precious gift ever.

Something that means everything to me.

My Virginity.

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