Loving you I lost myself

My name is Elaine Michaelson I live in California, with my dad, Dan Michaelson and my new mom, Lin Woods. I grew up in a very unhappy home, my real mother Trich Michealson AKA b***h left us when I was six. From what I can remember... She and my dad always had long non stop fights. They couldn't agree on anything, not even me. He was always away from home on business and she spent her days drinking and parting leaving me with a new nanny evertime. One stormy evening... She came home drunk while my dad was overseas on a business trip. she was so drunk she didnt even bothered to check on me when she returned. She just went straight up to jer room and passed out. Meanwhile... The 16 year old nanny she hired had left me lock up in my fathers bathroom the wholeday. And than she left... I was waiting for anyone to come and let me out , But no one did. I had slight autism so I had hardely learned a few words. I never made a sound thus I was never noticed. And that was nealy the cause of my death... I remember... I sat in the shower coner tears running down my face. I was scared. I was alone. Whats worse... I spent more than 3days in there before my father finally found me unconscious. The docters told my father that I had a very big head injury. That goes figure... I was also severely underbweight and had malnutrition and that's why I fell unconscious, they couldn't say when i would wake up... But finally... I woke up a week before my 7th birthday which was 7months since that fatefull day. A few days later I went home... From that moment on everything changed. My father left his company and started looking after me full time. That was the end of my unhappy home. My dad spent all his time with me and never left my side. Even while he was doing some work from home, he had me sitting just a few meters away. Like a real helicopter parent. But I didn't mind. When I was 10 my dad brought home a female friend he knew from his previous company. She was my new mom Aunt Lin. She was so beautiful with big brown eyes, long brown curly hair fair skin and cherry red lips. She was a very sweet and kind person from the moment we met I felt safe with her, although I still didn't speak much she would always sit with me and tell me the most beautiful stories.... 3 years passed. Every summer break we would head to the beach house. And I loved it so much there it became my second home. I spent more time at the beach house than I ever did at home. One evening as we sat on the front patio swing I was staring at her. She was staring into the sunset. "W-w-what is au-aunty think-ing about?" I said in my broken stuttering speach. She looked at me her eyes full of sparkels... "do u see how beautiful the sky is? " can u see the different colors all blending into each other as the sun is setting, together with the sound of nothing but silence...? "yes" I replied. "all this is you" She said with a bright smile on her lips. I was kind of confussed and she looked and me than aunt Lin continued... "you are like the sun set, your personality is like different colors all blening together perfectly, even without a single sound or word, you are so beautiful you leave the world breathless, in awe as they can only look at you as you are about to leave." She keeps staring out at the sunset. What she said was a little bit confusing but sounded true. She and my dad was the only people I ever spoke to When I was at school I never spoke and had no friends at all. I spent all my school days alone and even now in my last year of high school I was still as labeled a "MUTE". Now in my final year of high school, I often sit here on the patio swing thinking about those words she said. The summer break is a week away and after this I would no longer be a child but a young adult. What will change in a few more months? What was the meaning of young adult? Maybe this summer will be able to give me some insight on this topic. *********************************************************