The moonlight outside the window was unusually bright, streaming into the living room through the window and dimming the lights, while Mi Cai's beautiful and refined face dimmed the moonlight.
I just stared at her, her face full of tranquility, which made me more anxious. Perhaps my attachment to this house could not touch her "cold" heart.
After a long time, Mi Cai finally spoke to me: "You love this house very much?"
I nodded seriously: "I love it very much, very much... There is no one in this world who loves this unremarkable house more than me."
Mi Cai smiled and said, "That's not necessarily true."
I looked at her in surprise: "Are you the one who loves it more than me?"
In fact, I have always been curious why Mi Cai bought this house with Lao Li. Although I can imagine it as a kind of performance art of the rich, the real answer is probably not as simple as I imagined.
Mi Cai did not answer my question, but asked me, "How long do you plan to live here?"
"Are you agreeing?" I asked with some excitement.
"Zhao Yang, can you face the question first?" Mi Cai's words were a bit dissatisfied.
I smiled and said, "So you know my name!"
Mi Cai frowned again.
I gave an embarrassed smile, fearing that she would change her mind, made an apologetic expression, and said repeatedly, "I'll answer the question first, I'll answer the question first. I plan to live... for another month, is that okay?"
Mi Cai was silent for a while, and finally said, "It's okay... but you have to promise me two conditions first."
"Sure, as long as you don't drive me away, it's all good, I'll definitely do it," I said, patting my chest.
"Don't make promises you can't keep, wait until you've done it," Mi Cai retorted.
I gave an awkward smile again and said, "I know I have no credibility in your eyes, so let me put it this way, I will do my best to meet your requirements, okay?"
"Okay," Mi Cai paused and then said, "First, you are not allowed to go to nightclubs in the future, can you do it?"
"Ah!" I exclaimed subconsciously, I didn't expect Mi Cai to make this request.
Mi Cai looked at me, waiting for my reply.
Although I was puzzled why Mi Cai made this request, considering that women's thoughts have always been unpredictable, I didn't want to ask the reason, first to settle down is the top priority, without considering I nodded and said, "I can, what's the other one?"
"During your stay here, you are not allowed to enter my room, and you have to return the key to my room to me."
"This request is reasonable," I said, taking out the key from my pocket, finding the key to Mi Cai's room and placing it on the coffee table in front of her.
Mi Cai stood up from the sofa and finally said to me, "Remember what you promised me, if I find out you can't do one of them, you should move out consciously."
...
After washing up, I returned to my room. This should have been a night to settle down, after all, I could stay here for the time being, but I still couldn't help but think wildly.
There are still 4 days until the wedding of Fang Yuan and Yan Yan. As friends who have been through a lot together, their marriage is impossible not to stimulate me. In fact, I am not a non-marriage advocate. If I can meet a woman who is in harmony with me, I also long for marriage, but my material conditions are indeed poor, and what I can give to marriage is also very little, so the desire for marriage can only be an unrealistic fantasy for me, temporarily shelved.
I thought of Jian Wei, on the day of the wedding of Fang Yuan and Yan Yan, we will definitely meet. If she brings her boyfriend or if she is already married and brings her husband, am I going to collapse again?
I shook my head and laughed, if I really collapse at a friend's wedding, then this collapse is really gorgeous!
...
The next day, I arrived at the company on time, and Fang Yuan had also rushed back to Suzhou from Shanghai. The two met at the coffee machine in the break room.
We each held a cup of coffee and chatted, I asked Fang Yuan, "How is it going? Is the Gucci counter project done?"
Fang Yuan said with a sense of relief and laughter, "It's done, if there is no accident, the entry contract will be signed next month."
"Great, a first-line brand like Gucci can enter our department store, you are indispensable, the future of the young comrade is limitless!" I patted Fang Yuan on the shoulder and said with a smile.
Fang Yuan, however, said to me seriously, "Zhao Yang, do you have any ideas about your work, I can help you fight for it."
I still smiled and said, "You don't have to worry about me, if I have ideas, I will fight for them myself."
I know Fang Yuan is anxious for me, but he has just been the head of the planning copy group for half a year, and his experience is still shallow, and the company's water is deep, plus our well-known friend relationship, it is not good for him.
"You're kidding, we've been working together for two years, when have you ever fought for yourself?" Fang Yuan's tone was displeased.
I laughed heartlessly, "That's because I have no ideas, I think it's quite good like this, at least the work is easy, even if the sky falls, it will hit you guys who are desperately trying to climb up first!"
Fang Yuan was left speechless by my words, and after a while, he sighed, "You're really something! Two years..."
I immediately interrupted: "Alright, stop with the nostalgia, tell me about yesterday. I spent the whole day shopping with your wife yesterday. You have to compensate me for my hard work today."
Fang Yuan nodded: "Let's have dinner together after work."
As they spoke, they walked towards the office with their unfinished coffee cups from the break room. Just before entering the office, Fang Yuan suddenly stopped me, causing coffee to spill on my cuff.
"What's the matter?" I brushed off the coffee from my cuff, asking in surprise and with a hint of discontent. I always felt that Fang Yuan was acting strangely, especially when he suddenly asked me if I had any thoughts about work just now.
Fang Yuan looked at me with a piercing gaze, paused for a long time, and said to me: "Jian Wei contacted Yan Yan by phone last night. At that time, she was already ready to board the plane to return to the country, and she should be able to arrive in Shanghai around noon!"
I was stunned for a moment, my head felt empty, and I didn't know what emotion to face this news with.
Fang Yuan patted my shoulder and asked in a low voice, "Are you going to Shanghai to see her?"
I was stunned for a long time and countered Fang Yuan, "You tell me, how do I go to see her, with a ridiculous ex-boyfriend identity?"
"If you feel awkward, just consider it as if I didn't tell you, but you always have to meet her."
Of course, I knew that the "always have to meet" that Fang Yuan mentioned was at his and Yan Yan's wedding. On that day, Jian Wei would attend, and so would I. But that kind of meeting was just a formality, not intentional. I thought: At that time, if I was open-minded enough to just treat her as a stranger I met by chance, there would be no need for small talk, no need for... heart-wrenching pain!
...
That morning, I continued to work in a distracted manner, doing my tasks intermittently. It wasn't until noon when all my colleagues went to the cafeteria that I lit a cigarette, closed my eyes, and leaned back in my office chair to smoke.
In the diffuse smell of tobacco, the face of Jian Wei the day she left lingered in my mind, refusing to fade away. I felt a bit of pain, a bit at a loss, but I didn't know how to dispel this pain that seemed like complaining without cause.
Two years ago, I already understood that the pain fantasized after the breakup was just meaningless self-t*****e. But "cheapness" is human nature. People would rather grit their teeth and bear the false pain,******"cheapness" to become enlightened.
Perhaps at this moment, Jian Wei is enjoying a leisurely afternoon tea with her family and friends, while I am sitting sadly in an empty office, smoking and filling the surroundings with a gloomy atmosphere.
I fiercely extinguished the cigarette, wishing I could slap myself, warning not to be too "cheap".
In the end, I couldn't bring myself to do it, only helplessly smiling bitterly. My indifference over the years, all kinds of unconventional behavior, at this moment, seems to be the sadness she left me, and I have been indulging in the unescapable past, hurting myself.
The smell of smoke gradually dissipated, and in the large office, I was still alone. The warm afternoon breeze brought a trace of inexplicable melancholy in through the open window, just like my mood. After sitting there for a while, I finally felt hungry. I put the cigarette in my pocket, preparing to go eat something.
After getting out of the elevator, my phone rang. It was a call from Luo Ben.
I answered the phone, and Luo Ben said to me with some apology, "Zhao Yang, I'm really sorry about yesterday. I couldn't help you out."
I smiled and said, "If we're brothers, don't say you're sorry. You guys are in a band. How can you take responsibility for a bar fight? In the future, which bar will dare to hire you to perform? Besides, teaching those unenlightened guys a lesson is my bounden duty as a good young man. You guys don't need to get involved!"
Luo Ben also laughed and said, "Alright, I won't say more. By the way, there's a fashion show at Su He Bar tonight, full of beautiful girls. I'm quite familiar with a few of them. If you come, I'll introduce you to anyone you're interested in."
"Sure!" I agreed almost instinctively without thinking.
"Alright, I'll treat you tonight. Let's have a wild time."
I was walking away from the office building with my phone in hand when I was suddenly enveloped by the sunlight, and my thoughts seemed to expand as well. I suddenly remembered that I had promised Mi Cai last night that I would not go to nightclubs again.
I stopped and thought about my various unreliable words and deeds towards Mi Cai these days. I decided to be a man of my word this time...
After a slight silence, I said to Luo Ben, who was still waiting for my response, "Oh... look at my memory, I have some private matters tonight, so I really can't make it."
"What kind of matter is more important than us having fun together?" Luo Ben asked jokingly, but he was also a bit surprised. In his eyes, I, Zhao Yang, have always regarded eating, drinking, and having fun as the top priority in life.
"Things have their priorities. Let's make it another day. It's really not possible today."
Luo Ben responded with a hint of disappointment, but he didn't insist and fulfilled my night that was about to be as plain as water because of keeping my promise.
After hanging up the phone, I walked on the road against the warm wind, and I was also a bit surprised at my own change. In fact, even if I had agreed to Luo Ben, it would have been fine. With my character, I could have told Mi Cai with a clear conscience: I just attended a company gathering and had some drinks; she can control the sky and the earth, but she can't control my legitimate gathering with colleagues, right?
So why didn't I choose to deceive her? I didn't quite understand...
After a while, I couldn't figure it out, so I simply understood it as: she is too beautiful, and men always instinctively want to comply with beautiful women.
However, this unfounded logic doesn't seem to hold up either.
So what is it because of? ... After a long time, I still didn't understand!