DEAD ALIVE

LADY OF THE HOUSE

one more day until the lady Elisa finally arrived, was the first thing that i thought as i got out of bed my lips was swollen so badly due to tje cut i had gotten from master last night, my right eye was also swollen shot, looking at it just made me cry.

I wash up trying to look presentable before going out to the kitchen to go start with breakfast, they kids were free today as their teacher won't be coming today.

"oh sweet lord, what happened to you", Loretta said covering her mouth with her hands, this action only made me feel sad and self conscious.

"I look horrible then", I asked grabbing a knife to continue from where she stop.

"What no, you don't look bad, what happened?" she asked coming closer to get a closer look at the ogre.

"what do think, please let me be", I said stepping away from her as she tries to touch my face.

"oh sorry Nadia, sorry you got hurt", she said looking at me with pity, making me angry I hated the way she was looking at me.

"oh my father look at Nadia", Sara scream as i was about serving their breakfast my heart beat increase.

"don't look it's scary", she said covering Henry's eyes with her tiny hands as he struggles to see what she was speaking of

I quietly return back to the kitchen handing Loretta the tray to serve the food its a good thing that she was here.

I look at my reflection on the steel pot and burst in to tears, I didn't blame sara for the way that she had reacted I did look hedious.

I quickly wipe my face as i heard footsteps approaching, I busy my self with the dishes putting my head to avoid any conversations.

I knew it was him by the scent of his cologne, I didn't look as i kept scrubbing one pot, angry tears fill my eyes but I didn't let them drop.

I wince in pain as he grab my hair tightly forcing to turn back so I could look at him, he examine my face while I stood still with my eyes close.

he pressed down on my cut lips drawing a whimper out of me, it hurts so very much, I let my tears fall to his feet because i couldn't hold them in any longer, I felt so helpless.

"don't scare my kids", he said tightening his grip on my hair making me cry out as i couldn't hold it in anymore, we stay like that for a while before he let go walking away.

I cried silently as i kept wiping my tears that won't stop falling away, I hate that beast of man.

I sat in the kitchen all day trying my best to stay clear of the children I didn't even get to learn anything today.

"Nadia!!", I could lady Elizabeth calling out for me I didn't want to go out there and scared her with my awful looking face but I had no choice as i drag my self out I didn't want her to think that i was disrespectful, its a good thing that they children were in their play room.

"good gracious why does she look like a horse", she said turning to look at the master while asking me to stay back with her hands.

"you bride would be coming in tomorrow do you want to scare her off with this hedious look thing", she said referring to me, I could feel my tears begging to be set free but i was stronger than that.

"get out of my sight, so ugly", she spoke harshly and I ran off leaving her and her son to it.

I clearly was not needed here so I grab my veil from the kitchen floor before running off with Loretta calling after me but I didn't stop I just kept on running as fast as I could until I got to the river.

I got out of my dress before jumping into the river I didn't care that I couldn't swim thankfully I wasn't on the deep end I could easily get out.

"I went under the water until i felt like dying before i quickly got out breathing hard with water coming out of my nose hole it hurt so bad.

I sat there for hours feeling sorry for my self i didn't care if lady Elizabeth or anyone needed me, they could get use to Loretta its a good thing that she was pretty, pretty enough to well the queen when she arrived.

it was evening and it was getting that when i walked back to the quarters pushing open mama jess room with out knocking, she wasn't around so i went straight to the couch curling my self trying to get comfortable..

"what are you doing here, its to soon to be back here", she said clearly thinking that i would only come here for an abortion, it hurts but I didn't say anything.

she gaps as i sat up showing her my face she was quick to grab something from her table of herbs.

"it's barely been a week and you look like this already", she said while dapping my face with a rag that was wet with herbs it stung and I burst out crying, I was crying because I missed being here and not because of my wounds I have been through worse.

she let me cry while hugging her for the first time without pushing me away, I sat on the floor with mama jess as she ate her food.

"are you sure you aren't hungry", she asked and I shake my head no, I haven't eaten all day and I still don't feel like eating.

I have barely said anything since I got here I didn't feel like talking I just wanted to be here to feel the warmth that the environment offers.

"you should take care of yourself", mama jess said as i stood to leave I didn't say anything back as i walked out of her room i could feel her eyes on my as I walked away.

I know that the kids would have finished dinner by now and had gone to bed so they didn't have to see the ogre, I wasn't sure if lady Elizabeth would be staying over since her gold would be arriving tomorrow.

she definitely wasn't around i would've felt her presence master wasn't around either and Loretta had gone home the house was so quiet.

there was left overs every where but I didn't even bother to eat I still wasn't hungry food was what got me in this situation any way.

I busy my self with cleaning and arranging everything that was left unkept while waiting for master, I prayed that he would be back soon as Ceased would be waiting for me at the river side today.

I heard him come I and went to welcome him with a heavy heart, I took the bag from Andrew's hand while following behind master as he asked me too.

I dropped the bag fill with decorations items and flowers in lady Elisa room and began decorating the room as master directed me.

I wish he would leave it was very uncomfortable with him watching my every move especially with my face looking like that of a monster.

"put that on the other side, are you dumb", he said referring to the flower vase, nothing I did was ok 'why don't you do it yourself', I was tempted to say but I know better.

The room looked really pretty and smelled very nice but apparently it wasn't enough as he kept asking me to change the positions of things and adding more scented flowers and perfume to the room.

I straighten the sheets for the fourth time my back was hurting and I was starting to feel hungry.

I was startled to see master directly behind him he was just standing by the door now, i tried moving away but he wouldn't let me. he kept staring at my face making me self conscious not because I care what he thinks about my appearance but because i hated the way he was looking at me, it was as if he wanted to hurt me again.

"open your mouth", he says trying to push his thumb in my mouth i didn't like where this was going the last time he did this I ended up on my knees with his shaft in my mouth, that was the worst feeling ever.

"open your mouth girlie" he said putting pressure on my bursted lips I drew back in pain licking my lips I could taste the fresh blood.

he pulled me closer and I opened my mouth sucking on his thumb still tasting the metallic taste on my tongue.

I didn't cry though I badly wanted to as I got on my knees, he asked that i unbuckle his belt and i did just that he was going to do as he pleases if I fight him or not, I hesistated when he asked me too stroke him but i eventually complied.

I stroke his length until he got hard while looking away i didn't want to see that unholiness, that disgusting looking thing that kept producing white sticky liquid making it more disgusting and torturous for me.

he was standing tall and angry in my face as i dared to look at it i immediately regreted my decision to look at that sinful thing, I have never took my time to look at it before, it was long and fat with thick angry veins surrounding it, its no wonder it hurts a lot, I quickly look away.

"Need i tell you what to do with it?", he asked grabbing my hair and guiding my face to his shaft, I wanted this to be over i needed to get away from him I wanted to go be with Ceaser, I close my eyes tight as i put my lips on his tip I quickly withdraw as the awful salty taste invaded my mouth.

I hate this i was so close to crying as i tried again but i couldn't do it, I was tempted to use to teeth on his since I figured it cause him immense pain but I remember what happened the last time I didn't want him getting master Lawrence involved in this.

I tried my best to do what he wanted me to do but I simply couldn't bring myself to do, he became frustrated as he sent several blows to my head making me cry even though I had promise my self to not cry at his cause again.

he threw me on the bed slapping my face before proceeding to tear off my dress and getting between my legs.

I held on the sheets tight making a mess of the well made bed as he torn me apart he was out for blood, I was bound to bleed if he keeps going like this, i was tired very tired as I pray for this to end.

"ahh please stop please", I cried pounding on his back with my fist as i couldn't take it anymore it was simply unbearable, my knees were push back to my head something I thought was impossible yet here i was.

I felt him in my stomach as I tried my hardest to make him stop, the flower vase beside us fell due to the force he was using shattering to pieces but that still didn't stop him until I felt his warmness inside me.

I cried because I know what it meant i was at high risk of getting pregnant, he was aware of that but it didn't stop him he did as he please, he didn't care what happened to me as long as he was satisfied, it was like he said i was replaceable.

he left after exhaling and smiling sweetly at me, he had mange to ruin the well decorated room and bed in just minutes, the very room that his bride would be sleeping in tomorrow, I felt sorry for her.

I cried for some time before I began arranging the room as best as I can before running off to meet with Ceaser after making sure that there was no trace of tears on my face, I didn't want him to worry.

I spotted Ceaser sitting on the grass waiting for me he looked back as i heard movement and relax knowing it was me, I sat beside him not saying anything just happy to be here, he stare at my face for a moment without saying anything thankfully.

I lick my dry lips as the silence grew heavy, i wanted to say something but I had nothing to say I was grateful when he spoke.

"I thought you wouldn't show", she said throwing stones in the water.

"I was busy, sorry", I said putting my head on his shoulders he only hum, "how are you", he asked knowing that i am not fine.

"fine", I said keeping it short. "yea you look fine", he said and we both laugh.

I told him about how hard i have been working for the past few days in preparation for the lady Elisa arrival, he had laughed at that saying how thankfully he was that a lady was finally coming into the house at least Robert would stay away from you, he said leaning his head with mine.

"I don't have time I need to leave", I said getting up to leave, he walked together in the dark holding hands as he excorted me back to the master's house.

"I am sorry", he said caressing my face and I kiss his palm. "goodnight", I said giving him a tight hug while he kiss the top of my head. "I love you", he said as we near the house i wave him goodbye as he watch me walk away.

I close the door quietly behind me before making my way back through the dark to my room i was exhausted so went to sleep straight away.

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I worn my best dress as to lady Elizabeth request before heading to the kitchen as there was lots of work to do today the queen would be arriving today. I felt happy i was in a good mood I was happy i couldn't wait to meet her, I would like to believe that yesterday would be the last of me satisfying master Robert.

I look at my reflection and was glad to see that i looked better, the swelling in my eye had gone down thanks to mama jess herbs and my lips too wasn't as swollen as it was yesterday. generally as didn't look as hedious as i did yesterday.

I met Loretta in the kitchen and I joined her in cooking and baking of the variety that lady Elizabeth had pen down on her list, there was going to be a big welcoming feast.

both Loretta and i were extremely tire we have manage to get everything done and ready before noon, I dress Sara and Henry in their best clothes as guests have starting arriving, they kids were excited they love having people around.

Master Robert and his family have gone to to recieve lady Elisa by the band to bring her home themselves.

I serve the guest that has arrived while we all waited for them to arrive everyone was eager to see master Robert's new bride, they all knew how picky he was when it came to women the reason he was still single.

Everyone in our plantation and the neighboring plantation was aware of today's event, the ruthles master was going to be meeting his future wife today.

Everyone was getting worried they ought to be here by now i guess they were running a little late, what do i care if they never come back.

"They are here", a voice said making everyone to relax with smiles on their faces.

I watched as their carrige rode into the compound everyone had their eyes wide open looking for the lady Elisa, she had her face cover.

Master drop down from the carriege with a smile on his face so I'm guessing that it's good news then.

"Everyone" he called getting all their attention "meet my beautiful wife to be, lady Elisa", he said helping her down the from the carriage she pulled the veil away from her face and every one clap cheering happily.

Lady Elizabeth smiled proudly patting her self on tje back for a job well done with her husband standing beside her. master Lawrence shook hands with master Robert while saying something in his ear and the both laughed, the other ladies went to greet the new lady pecking while introducing their selves.

They kids ran to their father, he picked Henry in his arms while holding Sara's hand he introduced they kids to lady Elisa and i watch as she brought out something from her tiny purse handing it to the kids while saying something to them and their faces lit up with a big smile.

We the slaves stood aside most of us not interested in what ever was happening, most of us couldn't wait for this to be over so they could return back home, I envy them I wish i have a home to return back, to i didn't like it here one bit, I look around looking for Loretta when I spotted her she was smiling she was the only n***o with a smile on her face, this made me laugh she was too good for her own good.

"Nadia", lady Elizabeth called asking me to show the lady to her room where she could freshen up and then back for lunch.

I lead the way without saying a word and they followed. lady Elisa and two other girls one white and the other a n***o I'm assuming that would be her personal slave. I smile at them when I showed them there room before walking away.