DEAD ALIVE

LADY ELIZABETH

"Nadia!! Nadia!!", i ran out of the kitchen to go see what was happening and who was yelling this early morning.

master and the kids were still sleeping while Loretta and i were busy fixing there breakfast in kitchen when my name was suddenly loudly called out.

I stop stop running and i almost cried at the sight of lady Elizabeth what was she doing here and so early my goodness.

she hates me is the only valid reason for why she's here I ran to her taking her bag from her while welcoming her in to the sitting room.

"lady Elizabeth, it's good to see your again", I lied smiling at her while she sat and i dropped her bag by her side.

master had rush down in his shorts and shirtless to see what the commotion was all about, he is so stupid.

"my goodness Robert what are you doing, go put on something please", she said angry at Robert.

"what are you doing here this early mother and why are you screaming to loudly", she said angry.

"just to put on something before talking to me", she said looking away from him.

"and you go get me something to drink and stop looking at him like that my goodness", she said throwing something at me and i quickly ran to the kitchen I wasn't even looking, so embarrassing there was nothing to look at there.

"who was that", Loretta ask as I entered the kitchen. "that's lady Elizabeth the master's mother she's evil stay away from her", I said carrying a tray of water out to the lady.

"here you go ma'am",I said handing her the glass of water while smiling, she loves it when people adore her.

"grandma", the kids said running to there grandma she might be a torn in the flesh but her grand babies still loves her.

they ate their breakfast quietly only the click of their cutleries could be heard making the atmosphere tense.

"Nadia come with me", she said getting up and I followed behind her obediently making faces behind her.

"clean up all this rooms, make it sparkling, change all the sheets fix the bath in this room I want fresh flowers everywhere by Saturday", she said making me groan in by head but smiling and nodding for her to see.

"what is happening here mother", master asked standing by the door with his hands in his pocket.

"your bride would be here by Saturday son we are just getting ready for her arrival we don't want her to think this house is hunted now do we", she said smiling walking out making me and master to follow behind her.

I have never seen her smile before but she was smiling so widely today she really was excited about this bride of hers, I can't wait to see the look on her face when master breaks the news to her that he didn't want to get married.

"Nadia, take this out and replace them with new ones", she said referring to the curtains.

"mother really is all this necessary is not like she is a queen or something", he making her laugh, ok this keeps getting weird lady Elizabeth never laughs.

"wait until you see how pretty she is then you tell me if she's a queen or not", she says walking down the stairs after showing me what needed to be done up stairs.

"Robert I need this whole place redecorated and presentable by Saturday", she said making roll his eyes.

"come on Nadia let's go you are so lazy", she said making me cry in my head where are we going now.

I followed her outside when Andrew helped her into the carriage i was about getting when she gave me the nasty look.

"where is the shopping basket, how stupid are you", she said and I ran back to go grab the basket, how was i suppose to know that she was going to the market square.

I sat as far away from her as possible in the carriage, it was a miracle that she even let me ride in today i would usually walk following the carriagewith her constantly calling me lazy.

I was already dreading this day, she would spend the whole day in the market saying hello to all the white people and talking about how lazy negros are.

its past noon now and we were still roaming the market, we were at a perfume shop I stood outside because i wasn't allowed in I dropped the basket to rest for a while before she finish buying her perfume.

I was looking around the market amaze at all the beautiful things that were hanging in the market.

I never got the opportunity to come to the market often as master would always have everything we needed send to the house every single day.

this is the only moment that I have to visit the market whenever lady Elizabeth was around, I spotted Ceaser in the crowd helping a white lady with her shopping basket she was saying something to him and the both laugh.

I felt my blood boil at that, I felt jealous to my bones he was here laughing with a white lady in public just because he looked like a white man, stupid.

I was so hungry and tired that i could eat a horse alive but lady Elizabeth wasn't ready to get home yet as we kept roaming around the market.

I sat down on the kitchen stool feeling so tired and hungry as i watch Loretta preparing dinner. I couldn't wait to eat.

lady Elizabeth had gone back to her own home after dropping all the gifts and decorations items that we bought at the market, I was so glad that she wasn't sleeping over.

"can you be any faster", i ask Loretta as she sloy dice an onion i just wanted dinner to be over so i could go sleep my feet were hurting from all the walking and standing.

Henry was making my life a living hell as he wouldn't sleep it was late and Sara had gone to bed but this little man was still running around, I sat on his bed to tired to even chase after him.

"Nadia come on please let's play,I don't want to sleep now, I slept all day", he said jumping on me almost knocking me down.

"I promise to play with you tomorrow but i really need you to sleep now, your grandma would be coming to check on you soon", i said and he pouted his lips before hugging me, his actions made me smile and I hugged him back.

he didn't want to let go so we just held on to each other i told him his favorite story about a prince and how he was going to be a prince one day if he remains a good boy.

he hugged me until he fell asleep, I put him down slowly as not wake him up, looking at him gave me peace the peace that i so desperately needed, he is so cute and innocent.

I sat on the dinning with my head on the table as I slept a little waiting for master to retire for the night.

I went to my room throwing my self on my bed after getting meow out of my bed and to her own next to mine, she always slept on my bed but i can't promise to not sqush her today i was to tired to sleep like a lady.

it felt as though i was dreaming as i kept feeling meow on me only that she was very heavy i felt very uncomfortable and was unable to move.

my heart sunk as i was fully awake and aware of what was happening I couldn't see but i knew that master was on me.

I wanted to cry as i was sure that he wouldn't be coming back because of what he had seen back at the quarters but I was solely mistaken.

I manage to push him off me and quickly turn the torch on while standing away from him I watch him carefully as he sat on my bed.

"come here", he ordered but i didn't move a bit i don't want this can't he see that, can't he just let me be for goodness sake.

"Nadia__come here", he drag out my name clearly warning me tears fill my eyes as I slowly walk to him still keeping my distant.

"closer", he said making stamp my feet like an angry child.

"I have been in the market all day, master and I am very exhausted if you don't mind please leave", i said feeling very proud of the woman that I am becoming.

"since when do i care about your daily activities and how you are feeling", he said getting up and i back in to the wall, he was now standing so close that his breath fan my face.

"I was pregnant and I almost died because of you", I said tears threatening to pour but I held it in.

"again since when do i care about you, if you live or die it means nothing to me you are replaceable", he said and I let the river of tears to pour t freely.

"you almost died but so are here now and your carelessness got you pregnant and not me", he said slowly taking my dress off from my shoulders.

I didn't fight him because it was pointless this animal has no feelings he could kill me right now and that would be that.

I close my eyes thinking about the warmness in mama jess room as he ramp inside me it didn't hurt as it use to but it was still uncomfortable s*x is totally pointless.

he was grabbing on my breast so hard that it hurts but i try not to think about it as I imagine my self on mama jess couch wrapped in my blanket eating meat.

his was groaning like an animal as his hold on me tighten and his pace increase in an animal like manner, I was familiar with with this changes i know what was about to happen so I began trying to get away.

"I don't want to get pregnant", I cried trying to escape but his large hand was around my neck keeping me in place as his movement got wilder.

I close my eyes tight as he pour his stickly disgusting warm liquid on my stomach while hissing in satisfaction, he was a monster i didn't want to see the look of satisfaction on his face so I kept my eyes closed until he got off me.

I ran to the bathroom to go wash out his touch and smell from my body leaving him there to wear his pants and get out of my room.

I hate it when he pour his disgusting seed on my body but at least it wasn't inside me and the risk of getting pregnant was low.

I was angry to see that he was still here what did he want from me again i have given all that I have to offer what more does his want.

"I am not done with you yet", he said grabbing me forcing my hands behind me in a painful manner with my face in the mattress and my naked behind to him, I felt so exposed this was so humiliating.

I could feel him in my stomach as he went in and out of me, it hurts I hated this position more as I had no control what so ever over my body.

my cried out in pain as he held my arms tighter behind me going at an animal like pace again I prayed for this to be over soon as my arms were about to be dislocated.

he went on for a minute more before i felt his warmness on my back a minute more and i would've loss my arms.

he let go of me and I fell with my face on my bed, I could hear him leave as I tried to get up my legs were shaking badly as i manage my way to the bathroom only to find that there was no water.

I sat on the cold floor crying my eyes out I wanted him dead he deserves to die he had no compassion what so ever.

I suddenly couldn't wait for Saturday to reach i desperately needed saving this man keeps getting out of hand as the day draws by, he was crazy.

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"what are you doing", I said annoyed at Loretta as she was getting under the table.

"trying not to get caught eating", she said making me roll my eyes and mama jess thinks I'm silly, Loretta can be very annoying but I am also very glad to have her here.

I barely do anything with since she was always here and ready to work, I barely got any sleep last thanks to master so I was still very sleepy and cranky.

"here you go Nadia", Loretta said putting a plate full of pasta in front of me, what would I do with this girl." sorry you didn't get any sleep last night", she said and i nodded with my mouth full.

"Loretta can please help me look after the kids while i rest for a bit", I ask pushing my luck with her.

"yea sure i would love to, I have nothing doing anyway", she said making me cry of joy in my head.

Master wasn't around so i am the master of the house for now, i change my sheets that was stain with master's liquid before getting comfortable on the bed while memorizing what i have learned today.

today was very exhausting as we were cleaning and rearranging all day in preparation for the coming of lady Elisa, it felt more like the coming of christ i was so exhausted.

I woke up rushing out to the kitchen to start with dinner before master gets back, I had over slept as always.

I was immediately at ease when I saw that dinner was ready, Ilike i said I am falling in love with Loretta.

"oh Nadia i was just about to go get you, everything I ready I would be on my way now", she said gathering the trash she was precious.

"thank you so much", I said hugging her and she hug me back longer than normal but I didn't say anything.

I followed her out excorting her a bit before coming back I felt refreshed.

"Nadia you promise to play with me today", Henry said lifting his hands up for me to pick him up.

"yes I promised", I said kissing his soft chubby cheeks making him giggle, "what do you want us to do", I asked running up the stairs with him causing him to laugh while holding me tighter. he loves it when i do that.

I played with Sara and henry until it was dinner time for dinner, they ate alone without their father.

"he promise to play with me today", Henry said pouting his lips referring to his father, this child loves to play.

"don't worry he would play with you tomorrow ok, he is very busy this days you know", I said making my self comfortable on the floor by his bed side.

"Nadia can i sleep in your room today", he asked making me laugh at his cuteness.

"No Henry big boys sleep I their own bed and in their rooms", I said tickling his sides making him laugh as to get his mind off things.

I left Henry's room after making sure that he was sleeping soundly, it wasn't that late so i wasn't expecting master to be back home anytime soon.

i ate again since there was more than enough and i was still hungry, I was glad that Loretta could make good food and that she was hard working even though she was slow.

I serve master his dinner and watch as he ate hungrily while drinking his wine, I wanted to taste what that wine he always had with his dinner tasted like I made a mental note to have a taste when he was away.

"here", master said pushing his left overs for me i wasn't hungry but I couldn't say no to him.

"sit there and eat it", he said as i was about to take the plate to the kitchen, this must be a trap, a trap that I would not fall for.

"I rather not master", I said trying to be meek bowing my head, he was looking at me with warning in his eyes so i picked the fork up and took my first bite while standing.

it would be very uncomfortable for me to sit on the same table with him looking at me like that.

my cheek burn as I fell to the floor with pasta all over me as master slap me hard, I didn't know what for.

my vision was a blur as master's finger had some how gotten inside my right eye, I clean the pasta out of my ear as I tried getting up, pain shot through my right hand as master's foot press hard on my fingers.

The pain I felt was unbreakable as he kept pressing hard while I tried to get away.

"please master, I am sorry please", I cried out as he wouldn't stop hurting me, i was in excruciating pain as the heel of his boot press on my poor fingers.

"Sorry for what", he asked but i had no answer so i kept screaming sorry until he took his foot off.

"what gave you the right to use our utensils he said smacking my face again causing my lips to tear open as my blood drip onto my dress.

So that's the problem, I completely forgot about that stupid rule but he didn't even let me go to the kitchen to go get mine.

"I am sorry for using your utensils", I said struggling in his arms as he grab my hair tightly while choking me.

"I won't be so nice next time you make a mistake", he said pushing me until i fell hard hitting my face on the table before landing hard on the floor.