DEAD ALIVE

w***e

Nadia have never felt like she was feeling right now, being raped by master was horrible but totally different than both of them forcing their shaft in her mouth taking turns.

she had throw up twice already she couldn't get their taste off her tongue, the saltiness was making her sick, her jaw was hurting badly.

she never thought that she would be in the position to pleasure two men at almost the same time.

they were out for her, master Robert had given her a painful slap when she tried to use her teeth once again, he ears rang due to the force of the slap.

he held her hair so tight while he was deep in her throat Nadia couldn't properly breathe because master didn't give her much space to breathe.

her eyes burn with tears but he didn't care as he kept going deep in her throat before he finally let go of his thick salty warm liquid in her mouth, Nadia quickly pull away from him running to go puke her stomach out.

she wash her mouth about a million times while crying, she made a promise to her self to kill master, his friend and then her self.

Lawrence sat on his sit laughing at Robert reaction, today was very fun for him he should invite himself for dinner often.

Robert has got balls after all he never thought that his friend could be this raw and cold. he was impressed truly.

"that was amazing", he said roughly hitting Robert shoulders before leaving for his home with a smile on his face.

Robert went to bed with a smile on his own face he was happy with himself today, he didn't embarrass himself he took charge of the situation like the man that he was.

Nadia had cry so much which was a good thing because she was now very afraid of him and she would always do as he says, her mouth was so warm and accommodating, he wanted more.

Nadia found her self back at the slave quarters she didn't want to share this with anyone but she would die if she kept it to her self.

Anna listen without saying anything as Nadia told her everything from the very beginning not leaving any part, she felt a weight lifted off her shoulders as she finished with her story.

Anna thought that Nadia was a hypocrite she didn't even know how to comfort her now.

"Nadia i am sorry that this happened to you but you should know by now that, that's the way things work around here and there is nothing that you or anyone can do about this", this only made Nadia to cry more, why did she even tell Anna anything surely Anna would never see things like she did she was in love with a white preist, she should have gone to mama jess instead of coming to Anna.

"I wish I could help you, you just need to keep your stubbornness aside and do as he says maybe that would cause you lesser pain, you know by now that there is nothing that you can do to escape him, he is never going to stop maybe giving in would make everything less painful for you",

Anna says holding her friends hand attempting to comfort her, maybe Anna was right stubbornness have brought her nothing but pain but the thought of giving in to her master just doesn't sit well with her after everything that he and his nasty friend had done to her.

she didn't feel like a person anymore shame was all that she felt she was suddenly missing lady Elizabeth had she been here then no of this would have been happening to her, lady Elizabeth really was her protector.

she was suddenly praying for the day that lady Elisa would move in he would be so occupied with his new wife to even notice her.

she wipe her face while telling her self that this would be over soon, the lady is coming to rescue her.

"can you please not speak to anyone about this", Nadia asked looking into Anna's eyes to let herknknow that she was serious.

Anna nodded her head asuring Nadia that this was between them.

"especially to your brother please, he would hate me forever", she said thinking about Ceaser and how he would react if he somehow finds out about this unholy act that she was involved in.

"you should tell him Nadia, it won't be long before everyone knows about this, he better hear it from you"

Anna says making Nadia head to spin what did she mean 'everyone would know'.

"are you planning to tell this to anyone Anna, what do you mean it won't be long before everyone knows", Nadia said panicking.

"Anna please i beg you to not say a word about this to anyone please Anna i trusted you that's why I told you", Nadia said tearing up again.

"relax I promise I would not say a thing, I don't even know why i said that forget i said anything", she said smiling at Nadia pulling her in for a hug.

Nadia wasn't convinced with Anna's smile at all she knew that she have made a big mistake by confiding in Anna.

Anna was a big mouth and she was probably itching right now to tell somebody all that Nadia had told her.

Nadia cried softly in Anna's arm she was going to be shamed and shun by everyone, she should have kept her worries to her self.

Nadia wondered around in the cold night alone she sat by the river side with her legs in the freezing water.

she felt so alone she had no one to turn to, she thought that it was safe to speak with Anna about her problems but clearly she was wrong.

Anna had changed a lot she was no longer the girl that she was so fond of and the girl that she could trust with anything.

now she was stuck with master and maybe his friend while Anna was in love with a priest.

her stomach was aching from all what master and his friend had force down her throat.

the sun will soon be up and she needed to get back before she earned herself another horrible punishment.

she hasn't been in the house all night. she didn't get any rest because she couldn't.

she got in the house and immediately began cleaning not bothering to even go to her room for a quick nap.

she cleaned up the dinning room stopping as memories from yesterday invaded her senses, she suddenly felt like vomiting again.

she saw some of the fluid from both master and his friend on the floor and it pain her that she has to clean up after them.

she worn her big girl pants pretending that all is well as she made a big batch of breakfast with all they kids favorite included.

she got sara ready while listening to her speak all about her dolls and the school work that her teacher asked her to work on.

"can you read sara", Nadia asked while putting her hair in her favorite style.

" of course Nadia, I do know how to read a little though not very much", she says pouting her lips.

"I could help you study you know, i can help you practice to read", she said making the little girl excited.

Nadia knows nothing about books so she was never needed when it comes to their school work.

but she felt like she needed to do something other than cleaning, cooking and pleasing master.

she wanted to know why they weren't allow to be educated, she was curious and determine.

Henry threw a pillow at Nadia refusing to take a bath and was just being plain naughty, he was immediately calm after she mentioned meow.

they all ate breakfast while laughing and playing with their food while she stood by her corner lost in her own thoughts at least people around her were happy.

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"she is such a hypocrite, she judge and shame me for sleeping with you and now she goes and do the same with two white men", Anna said laying here head on the priest naked chest.

"hmm she's no good", the man said totally uninterested in what she was saying, he wish she would just leave the s*x was over already.

he seriously wanted to sleep and she wouldn't stop talking, "well who did she do it with it", he asked pretending to be interested in what she was talking about.

"with master Robert and master Lawrence of course", she said and this caught his attention he didn't care about Lawrence but he wanted to know more about Robert.

this could be news to the lady Elizabeth and could be a big advantage for him, he will be earning her trust even more and in doing so he would gaining more favors from the lady.

Anna told her lover everything that Nadia had told her and the priest listen carefully, she didn't think that telling her boyfriend means anything she was sure that he wouldn't mention a thing to anyone.

the couple made love again before he left for the church leaving her behind to take care of the house.

Anna went to her mother's with all the food that she had gotten from her lovers home.

"what you are doing will backfire Anna and I would be there to tell you that I told you so", her mother said and Anna rolled her eyes getting annoyed.

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The father discussed Robert with his fellow priest in the church as the got some work done, telling him all that Anna had told him earlier, the laugh and made jokes about how they men from the fernsby family can't do without n***o women it was the same with the grandfather, the father and now the son.

they negros that were working in the church cleaning up chairs and tables listen to the gossip as the work, they felt ashamed of Nadia.

Anna didn't exactly tell her so called boyfriend that Nadia was force to do the things that she did, and Anna had gone an extra mile with her story telling what wasn't the truth just to get back at Nadia.

They other negros knew Nadia as someone who Despises white people and with valid reason, she was always there to pick a fight with any of the girls that have willingly given their body to the white men for little favors and now she had gone and done the same, it was disappointing and embarrassing.

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Nadia sat on the floor as she watched Sara and Henry do their homework their father wasn't at home to help so she took the opportunity to pick a thing or two from their books.

she wasn't getting anything as her mind wasn't even there she was too busy thinking about master Robert and a way to get back to him.

they kids finish their homework and went for a nap with meow following behind them.

master wasn't going to be back soon as today was Monday and he would usually stay out all day and only be back for dinner.

she went to the woods grabbing what she needed before rushing back to get started with dinner.

she cried all through as she made dinner, she couldn't believe what she was about to do she set the table and serve the food before sprinkling something in masters plate, unbeknownst to her he was watching from upstairs, he had gotten home earlier while she was out in the woods.

he watch silently as she went back to the kitchen, Nadia wanted him dead he was impressed with her boldness it was unexpected.

it wasn't unusual, slaves have tried to kill their master by poisoning them most of which was successful, he was glad that he had a running stomach and he was here on time to witness Nadia poisoning his meal.

he was going to deal with her so badly she would wish she had that poison in her system.

they all sat at the table ready to eat dinner their dinner Nadia stood at the corner shaking terribly she was scared they kids have started eating but master was yet to touch his food.

she was so close to pissing her self the moment that master grab his spoon she quickly grab the plate and rushing to the kitchen with it, she couldn't bring herself to be the cause of his death, she couldn't take another persons life.

she wasn't master and she never will be, she wasn't a monster and she can't believe that she had even attempted murdering master.

he was all that Sara and Henry had, and she almost took him away from them, their father was a monster but they didn't know that she would never have being able to forgive her self if he had eaten that poison.

"there was a bug in your plate master", she said after pulling her self together and coming out.

"I am sure there was", he said getting up to excuse himself to his room,he wanted to see how far she would go with her little stunt,she was shaking quite badly he knew that she wouldn't go through with it.

"the next time you try to poison me, your whole race will regret it",he said standing by the kitchen door.

she was shocked and ashamed,how did he even know that she had tried to poison him.

"sorry I tried to kill you even if you deserve",she said getting bold.

"I will let this slide just this once",Robert said so close to her face before walking away.

she really caught him by surprise there he wasn't expecting that he was expecting her to fall at his feet begging for forgiveness.

he didn't punish her because she didn't go through with letting him eat the poison she was a coward.

Nadia lay in bed waiting for master to come and get done with it but he never came so she went to sleep.

she made breakfast before going to get the kids ready,she wasn't sure how to behave around master as he stood behind her and watch creepily as she pour in water for his bath.

master didn't trust her anymore and with good reasons he always made sure she eats from his plate before he ate his meal and watch her every move.

"Nadia you don't play with me anymore", Henry said pouting his cute little lips.

"oh am sorry Henry,i promise I would play with you later today anything you want to do",Nadia said smiling at the sweet little boy.

"is it because of what grandma said,is that why you won't play with me anymore",Henry asked making her frown.

"Henry I have got a lot of work to do lately but I will play with you from on", she said playing with his hair.

" and what did grandma say again",she asked wanting to know what she had told the kids.

"that you have got a disease and we must not play with you because you will infect us",he explains making Nadia to roll her eyes.

"well your grandma wasn't feeling so well thats why she said all those things but its not true OK",she said making him nod happily.

she let Henry ride on her back as she ran down the stairs with him holding onto her tightly,he was laughing really hard he really loved it when she does that,Nadia makes him happy.

they ate breakfast before they kids went for their classes and master went to his office,Nadia sat on the kithen floor eating her breakfast.

she knocked on master door and entered after master ask her too. "may i please be excuse to take care of some things master",she asked politely while waiting for him to ask her to earn it.

"you are excuse",he said shocking her she couldn't believe it but she didn't wait around for him to change his mind.

Robert had more pressing issues to tend to,his mother will be arriving soon with his soon to be wife and he needed to find away to stop that from happening.

he wasn't ready for commitment right now he didn't want to get married especially not to some girl that his mom found.

"w***e"

"a disgrace"

Nadia was confused as to why everyone was giving her the nasty look and hurtful words.

until it dawn on her that Anna had let everyone on her secret "you are a disgrace to your people,what a hypocrite",an elderly woman spat at her before walking off.

her eyes fill with tears she was so embarrassed, how could Anna do this to her she thought they were friends,this was so heartbreaking for her.

she thought about Ceaser he must have heard about this by now she felt so humiliated,no one knows about this but Anna.

she angry, too angry as she match towards the father's house with smoke cominvg out of her ear,people kept passing nasty comments at her.

she knocks on the door and waited impatiently for anyone to answer the door Anna opened the door with a big smile on her face but her smile faded away when she saw the look on Nadia's face.

"I thought we were friends Anna,i trusted you with what I l fear and the most but you went ahead and told the whole world about it",Nadia sniff tears running down her cheeks.

"you trusted me with your secret and I have kept it safe between you and I,i hate you Anna",Nadia spoke in pain.

Anna felt guilty now looking at the look on Nadia's face and the pain in her voice, she open her mouth to speak but she was cut off with a hot slap to her face.