DEAD ALIVE

FAMILY

I stood in my usual corner attending to all their needs as the family ate their breakfast while talking, they look happy master was happy with his new life, this made him happy even though he didn't want it at first the lady was clearly making him happy.

If master was happy then so am i, he have stayed away it was like a dream a beautiful dream, my stomach was growling i was hungry and there was no food left, I have been eating less since the lady and her companions arrived with lady Deborah constantly in my business.

She was everywhere, she made things even harder i have never seen anyone as nosy as she is, the only time we were safe from her was when she was sleeping.

Master hardly ever leave any leftovers for me this days he does even care how i survive without food, the only time i ate was when i escaped to mama jess house or when i wake at night to make something for my self.

This is what i was afraid of, a lady coming into the house and stealing all my prevailges, I wasn't free to do things at my own time and pace again I hated my life write now.

"Get me some more", Lady Deborah said handing me her cup i went to grab the cup from her when it fell she intentionally let it drop, I picked it up with a smile on my face while going to get her more water I didn't even bother to rinse the cup.

I clear up while the kids went for their classes with lady Elisa following behind them to bid them good bye even though they weren't leaving the house.

I didn't need to bathe they kids anymore since lady Deborah was taking care of all that, lady Elizabeth was beyond pleased.

"I think that i might be pregnant", Loretta said making me gaps while closing my mouth with my hand, I fear that master had gone down on her.

"oh my God Loretta I am so sorry, is it master's", I said with my voice low I didn't want that nosy fat lady to hear this Loretta would be in big trouble if that happens.

"oh my God Nadia, what are you talking about i am a married woman how could you even think that it's masters baby, I have nothing to do with him I am not you", she said hurting my feelings i didn't think she had it in her.

"sorry", i said minding my own business, its true she wasn't me i was so caught up on in my own world to think that master was also raping her, I didn't even know that she was married she never mentioned it, I suddenly felt ashamed with the way she said she wasn't me, was i that bad.

"I didn't mean it like that", she said and i just nodded my head not wanting to talk anymore as i just wanted to be on my own right, I felt like a w***e.

I did my work not speaking with Loretta despite her attempts to engage in a conversation with me, i wasn't mad I just didn't want to cross the line.

"Nadia look", Henry said running in to the kitchen showing me his hand which had a little blood on his middle finger he was about to cry when i knelt in front of him.

"what happened to you big boy", I said cleaning his tiny wound, I wonder where his father was or the lady.

"There, I fell", he said pointing to where he fell. "it's ok now, sorry", I said kissing his hand.

"do you want to stay here", I asked and he nodded his head, I put him to sit on the table while I got started with dinner.

"Henry don't do that again", I said getting mad as he kept throwing things around there was onions and tomatoes everywhere on the kitchen floor i was about to go get him when i was smack with a tomato on my face.

"Henry!!", I said a bit loud and he laughed making me to smile even though i was mad at him he was too adorable.

I tickle him and he giggles as i drop him down. "off you go", I said tapping his tiny butt and he ran off, I shook my head at his silliness.

"why were you yelling at him", lady Elisa said entering the kitchen making my smile fall she must have misunderstood what was happening here.

"sorry my lady but you must have misunderstood what had happened, Henry was misbehaving i was just trying get him to calm down", I said smiling at her she looked really pretty today.

I held my burning cheek as she smack my face her ring cutting my cheek it was a small cut but it was bleeding anyway, I didn't expect this I didn't think that I had done anything to warrant this punishment.

"what makes you think that you have the right to discipline him you ugly monkey, this is his Father's house and he can do whatever he pleases". she said spitting on me.

oh okay now I know where i stand, I wasn't by any means trying to be mean to Henry or trying to hurt him, I was just trying to correct him but maybe I over stepped.

Henry hid behind her legs as she scolded me i kept my head down but i noticed when master came in the kitchen, I would know his smell from miles away.

He didn't say anything as lady Elisa kept scolding me and throwing harsh ugly words at me, i didn't even feel like crying maybe because I am so use to this same old thing, this is my first confrontation with the lady, i got to see her real colors now i know how to deal with her.

"I would deal with her", master said kissing her cheek as she walked out with Henry holding his hand leaving master and i.

"i wasn't hurting him", I said before he said anything I didn't was this to attract any punishment especially not sexually.

"No one likes you around here, you just can't seem to stay out of trouble no one is hurting your friend over there", he said referring to Loretta.

"stay out of trouble Nadia", he said holding my jaw forcing me to look up at him he almost sounds as if he cared.

"Maybe I should return back to the plantation master", i said pushing my luck since he seems to be in a good mood today.

He didn't say anything he only pushed my face away almost getting his fingers in my eyes, he wipe my blood on my dress intentionally pushing me back by my breast so I fall, he walked out leaving me on the floor.

Lady Deborah walked in right after master left giving me the nasty look before coming at me she grab a glass of water before slowly pouring it on my head.

"you snake", she said before matching out like an angry dog, I didn't know what that was all about why was she angry at me for, crazy.

I waited for everyone to fall asleep before sneaking out to the quarters, I was sitting by the fire enjoying the warmness most people have gone to bed so there was no longer singing and dancing.

Mama jess had gone to bed right after eating the cake I stole for her, she love cakes, I didn't want to be around those people so I just stare at the fire since i wasn't meeting Ceaser today.

I wanted to roll my eyes when i saw Anna heading my way but she was crying, she sat beside me putting her head my shoulder as she cried i didn't anything but let her cry it out.

"What's wrong with you", I asked after she had stopped crying, she nodded her head nothing answering.

"Clearly something is up with you and you can tell me now or i will leave, I was just about leaving anyway", i said trying to stand up when she grab my hand.

"please stay, Nadia", she said pulling me down and I sat looking at her waiting for she has to say.

"I am pregnant Nadia", she said crying making me confused, i waited for her to finish crying before I spoke.

"OK you are pregnant but why are you crying, I am sure that your boyfriend must be very happy", i said knowing very well that he had rejected her already.

"he doesn't want the baby, he even threatened to kill me if i don't get rid of the baby", she said crying.

"he doesn't even want to see me until I get an abortion he is really mad at me", she said and i tried my best to not laugh right now at how stupid she sounds, why was he mad at her when they in it together she was still to blind to see.

I let her cry on my shoulder because I know what it felt like to be pregnant and alone, I actually felt sorry for her she trusted him so much that she fought with everyone who loved her and tried to warn her.

"what are you going to do now", I asked her as she wipe her tears, "I will get an abortion you know that i can't keep it". she says and I nod in understanding.

"sorry you have to go through this but this is a cross that you must carry on your own, I promise to help you in anyway i can", I said pulling her in for a hug.

"I am really sorry I hurt you Nadia, I was just angry", she said and I nodded, "its fine", I said meaning it, I have forgiven Anna it was all in the past now but i can never trust her ever again with my troubles.

"I missed you very much, there is so much i have to tell you", she said making me laugh. "I miss you too".

I told her all what have been going on in the masters house and how lady Elisa had slapped me earlier for doing nothing, I told her about nosy Deborah and how fat she was.

" You be careful with fat nosy people they are the worst", she said making me laugh, we talked about different things for a long time and for a minute there we forgot about our problems.

"I don't know what to do my mother won't even speak with me, she's really mad at me", she said shaking her head.

"just give her time she did try to warn you about this you", I said but she said nothing as she began crying again.

"I feel like a fool, he lied to me now i am pregnant and he doesn't want me anymore", she said and was itching to tell her I told you so but this was not the time to be insensitive.

"everything would be alright you just have to trust in that and you will be fine I promise", I said not believing what i was saying. I wanted to tell her that abortion was a bad idea and that she might die of pain and guilt but she has a lot on her plate already i didn't want to add to her worries.

"he doesn't love you Anna I really hope that you can see that now, if he loves you he would have accepted you and your baby no matter what the punishment might be, he was only using you sorry to say", I didn't mean to make her cry but she needs to know the truth, Anna truly fell in love with that beast she was hurting very much and it was clear to see, I held her close until she had calmed down.