A Rare Love Volume 2 # Love that Left Behind

Five months later. Kurt still suffered pain, loneliness, and sadness. Every night he used to think about Nadia, if she’s okay or not. He always calling of her name. And spending his times to the bar. Drank himself and get into trouble. Carrie, used to take care of him but he didn’t even listen. Because he know that Carrie used to it because she want to forget Nadia and focus on her anymore. He love Nadia than Carrie. He finds true happiness to Nadia not her. He always spit it when Carrie approach him every time and make her get mad and hated. Kurt used this way to throw Carrie away. He booked her flight already but he need to wait two weeks for the vacant flight. While waiting his two weeks, he spend his time out of the blue. In fact, he didn’t used to find another woman that can express his feelings and emotions. He committed his tasked and duties on his work. The director warned him already, if he can’t use to go back in Hansang Prosecutor Office, he will be terminated. Because of Carrie, who force him at least give time on his task as a prosecutor. He was forced to go back to work. But still, in work. He wasn’t on appetite to work on. His assistant and secretary worried about him. Almost three cases, he rejected. And others are complaining about rejecting of it. “Sir, to all due respect. We almost wasted our time to find justice on my daughter was being raped.” A woman who keep on following him. Since he was walking to the parking lot to get his car. “Ma’am, I’m busy today. I have my investigation to go after. Please, keep calm and wait for me.” he said and slam the door of his car and leave. An incident happened in Roque International Airport. A murdered occurred, two men who died in the comfort room getting wet on their own blood and laying on the floor. Some rumors, said “Someone intended to kill them.” And they didn’t trace up of what really happened. Prosecutor Kurt was on his way to investigate this case. In the area where the incident happened, it was all crowded and covered by all cops. They didn’t touch the soulless body unless Kurt will come. Two minutes, when Kurt came. He started to investigate it. He checked every parts of the body and found the two shoot of a bullets. And one was injected by venom. A complicated case that he need to report and prove. It needs to be prove and process within a long time for more than a week. But he will leaving after within two weeks. How he can leave? Carrie and Mia have their shopping. Carrie bought a present for Kurt. Since she can live with Kurt alone. They didn’t receive any information about Nadia of what happened to her already. Carrie believe that Nadia is already died but Kurt didn’t believe on it. Because he believe that Nadia is alright. It made them into conflict. That’s why she need buy some present for apology. Though an apology with flirt. “Mia, I want to prepare dinner for us tonight. Not just a gift.” She said while choosing ingredients on the chiller were she can use to cook. Mia just stood up behind her sipping juice. “Can I eat with you?” “No, you can’t. But you can serve foods for us. Means you cater everything tonight. You need to help me for preparation since we need to finish it before Kurt will arrive.” “Where we can prepare?” “Don’t worry, I have my duplicate of the keys on his house. We can get here, whatever we want.” “What if he will get mad?” “Don’t worry, Mia. I can handle everything. Just trust me. Kindly, don’t ask me anymore. And please help me to choose that is suited for our dinner and motif.” “Okay.” Mia irritated. Exhaustion. Kurt felt this way after the investigation. He gathered all the information about the murdered case. Yet, he didn’t use to study and research about it since his time is not enough. Carrie call for him repeatedly, but he didn’t answer and he always hang it up. He directly went to a bar. He drove his car around eight o’clock in the evening, since he wasn’t able to leave as earlier because of his investigation. The bar is crowded by many, and it’s a private bar. Where only personnel and VIP are allowed to get in. Since it is the bar where s*x are allowed and not prohibited but in a private room. Boys and Girls are allowed. He went there not because to have s*x with another woman but to take a relief. He directly went to the wine server and ordered wine. “One glass, please.” Together get his wallet. “Here sir.” Together serve the wine and put the lime on it. He seated on long legged chair fronting the wine server. “Thank you.” The surrounding is noisy, too loud of disco music. Some are dancing in the center together with a beat. And some are kissing in the corner caressing their every individuals. He glance around him and just nodded. “How much you earn a night?” he asked to the receptionist. “I think, a gross of millions.” Kurt is the Prosecutor, and he can use to arrest this bar by trespassing and s****l harassment. But he use not to do it since not too sexually intercourse. This bar has their business permit even it’s private. And they pay taxes and fees for license. “A million? How often others doing s*x?” “I think every night. But we use to minimize it already since we are running out of room. We have only twelve room but it is not enough. We planned to make another room, at least a small room.” He glance again, and he look at the woman who is coming for him. She flirty walk to him. She wink and bite her lips. “Hi, sir. Want some fun?” A woman who caress his buttocks. A woman who wear tiny short and almost she expose her private property. A big boobs and big butts. Though, she is beautiful and yummy but she is a prostitute. “You can do whatever you want. Ten dollars is enough for me. You look handsome maybe it’s okay for me to make it free.” She caress again, and her hands almost going down to his belly. “Sorry, miss. I am here to drink, not to have sex.” He complain. “Sir, at least this night.” “No.” he irritatedly leave the bar. And he not use to finish his wine. The woman stared at him too badly, instead she drink the remaining wine of Kurt on his glass. He went to the parking lot, to get his car when his phone ringing and its Carrie who’s calling for him. He answered it since it’s already twenty missed call started earlier. “Hello, Kurt? Where are you? I called you twenty times but never answered it. I was worried about you.” “You don’t have to worry about me. I’m not always fine. I’m on my way home.” “I’m here in your house. Preparing for our dinner. Because it’s been a long time we don’t have our dinner. And don’t worry I have my surprised.” “Dinner? How did you get inside in my house?” “No need to answer that. Go home now, and I’m waiting for you. Please, just this night.” Kurt hang up the call. He throw it in the passenger seat. When he try to slam the door, Luke block it and he wasn’t able to close it. Kurt surprised when Luke look after him. He went out on his car, and talk to Luke. “What are you doing here? Is there information about Nadia?” he asked. “I don’t have. But I was worried about his condition. Actually, she asked me to look after you before it was happened.” “What? Did you even hide about her illness?” “No. And it’s for your sake. Actually, her mother was looking for you. Her mother is already awake. And she want to see you. But she didn’t know yet of what happened to Nadia. Let’s hide it to avoid complication.” “Luke, it’s been a long day I have waited to see Nadia in Australia. Two weeks remaining, I can go there already. This time, I am excited to see her mother. I want to meet her before I’m leaving.” He smiled. And tap Luke’s shoulder and leave. Kurt went to the hospital where Nadia’s mother is. He want to see her for the first time, and talk to her. Her mother didn’t know his face yet. He feel excited to know her mother personally. He opened the door widely and he found out her mother sitting on the wheel chair and staring at him. She smiled and he smiled. “Are you Kurt, my daughter’s boyfriend?” her mother asked with a smile. “Yes. I’m Kurt Joaquin. Nice to meet you ma’am.” He come closer and take a shake hand of her mother. “Why Nadia is not with you? Where is she?” she asked and it made him keep in silence. “She is busy and she can’t go to see you. She said, she will find time to meet you.” Luke’s voice from behind him. And he look at it. “I’m very proud to my daughter, because she work hard for her sake.” She smile. An old lady who make Kurt be interested. “Hope, Kurt you will take care of my daughter. Promise me.” “Promise.” He smiled back. Carrie bumped herself on the couch while waiting for him. She already get mad and feel irritated. It’s been an hour she’s still waiting. All foods on the table she prepared are getting cold. “Gosh, my efforts are useless.” She thought. Suddenly, the door opened and it’s Kurt who’s coming with a haggard face. She come after him but Kurt never mind her. “Kurt, what happened? Are you feel tired?” Carrie asked with a sad face. “You didn’t even asked permission to come here. How?” he said, and bumped himself on the couch and turn on the TV. “Kurt, I’m here to asked apologize by having a dinner. And giving a surprise. Please, take it for granted. I just waste my effort and time if you just reject it all.” She feel upset. “I don’t have appetite. I already eat. You can throw it or you can eat alone.” “No.” she shouted. “Kurt, how I can get over from this. You even reject everything. Please, I beg your acceptance just this time. Please, listen to me. Nadia, will not coming back. I am here for you who will not leave you.” she cried innocently. “I’m willing to change it you will give me a chance.” She continue on sobbing. “What do you want? Maybe you want this— He pulled Carrie close to him and kiss tightly. Carrie trying to get over from him but Kurt hold him to hard. She’s getting hurt already. Kurt, use to take off her dress but Carrie stopped him. “You want this, right? Well, I will forgive you so you can get lose after.” He kiss again Carrie. “Let’s have s*x, to satisfy your wants.” He added. The incident is consider as r**e. Carrie cried a lot of what Kurt did to her. She tried to push Kurt away from her. Until she pushed him hard and made Kurt bumped on the couch. “Sorry, Kurt. It is not Carrie anymore from the past. I change already because I realize it is not easy to take revenge. I tried to stop myself and be good to you. But you didn’t even listen me that’s why you didn’t know what I am doing and what I am right now.” She sobbed. “Sorry, Kurt if I hurt you so much and make your relationship to Nadia broken. I regretted that I made it. But for now, if it is better to leave you and don’t reveal myself to you, I will do it. For you sake. Please, I only beg for your acceptance.” She get her bag on the table and leave while crying. Kurt shut hi mouth and didn’t even react. He was affected of Carrie’s confession. He realize that it was his mistake not her. He drop his tears down on his face. He feel on how Carrie feel tonight. He get hurt on how Carrie get hurt. He want to go after Carrie but something holding him to stop. Because of him, everything gets complicated. Kurt walked on the hallway to his office. He doesn’t feel good today. He went to his office never minding all the people around him. He didn’t even replied every greetings to his colleagues. “Sir, I need to get the hypothesis regarding to the case you have investigated last time.” Sec. Erica asked. “You can get it later. I use to finalize it. Just wait.” He replied. “What happened to you sir? Is something wrong happened?” “Nothing. You can leave me now. Please, I want to be alone.” “Okay.” Late night, someone calling for him. It’s from the police station. He answer it to know the updated. He took a deep breathe before he answered it. Since it’s important: “Hello, it’s from Boulevard Police Station. The prisoner named Kylie Gaston, run out from the jail, a minutes ago.” “What? You need to look after her. We need to put her back on the jail before she can’t hurt someone.” “Yes, sir. We’re now on our duties.” “Good.” Luke settle down Nadia’s mother before he leave. He walk on the dark parking lot. He stop when heard some footsteps coming to him. He glance around him but he didn’t see anything. He walk fast through his car. When he tried to opened his car, someone holding his back. He acted to punch it, but he stop when he see Kylie’s face. “Kylie?” a shocking reaction from him. “Luke, please help me. I escape from the jail. I want you to hide me from them because the look after me. I came here because I know you are the only one who can help me.” “How did you escape?” still the shocked is on him. “Let’s talk about it later. Promise I will not hurt you. I am your friend. Please.” “Come inside in my car. Let’s go home.” They quickly get inside the car and start the engine too fast. When they are on their way they meet three Police Car who run too fast. Luke lock the door. And make it sure no one who see them. He bring Kylie inside on his house. He give a clothes to her to change since she’s wearing a detainee shirt. And he give water. “What happened?” “I killed one cop who always bring the key. Fortunately, it was successful. I escape, to take revenge. I need your help.” She smiled evilly. “What? No, you can’t do that.” “You can’t tell it to the police, right? That I am here in your house. Or else both of us will put in jail.” “No, Kylie stop it before it’s too late.” He’s get mad. “It’s not too late, actually. Luke, don’t you dare to fool me or else I’m going to kill.” “Kylie, you don’t have to treat me like that. I will not doubted to report you in the police that you are here. I want to keep you in jail so you can’t ruin and destroy everything.” “Do it. If you can’t, goodbye.” She smiled evilly. He run to get his phone and call the police. He dial the emergency number. Suddenly, Kylie run out on his house. Hello—the voice from the telephone. He turned it off and run after Kylie. In the road, he didn’t see Kylie anymore. The surrounding are silence and dark only the post light the way. Some dogs are barking. He take a deep breath and glance around him, to see Kylie if she is hiding on the dark. Every day, Kurt received complain and reports regarding on the different cases. He never mind the all cases he handle this time. Every day, another case but he didn’t use to investigate it. He has his problem this time, not only to Nadia but as well to Carrie. He think how he can ask apologize to Carrie, especially he didn’t receive any news about Carrie. In short, he was worried to Carrie. He feel concern to Carrie this time. He spend his time on the beach, for refreshments. He use to go there alone, wearing his summer suits and sunglasses. He walks on the sea breeze, feel the cold of water. Suddenly, he bumped a woman who bring a surf-board, wearing a two-piece and sunglasses. He didn’t recognize it first but when he take off his sunglasses, he recognize Carrie. “Carrie?” Carrie stood up, fixing herself and get her surf-board on the ground. She didn’t even smiled. She didn’t even surprised. Like she didn’t know Kurt. Like it was their first meet. “Kurt, what are you doing here?” she smiled but not exactly. “Are you okay?” he try to hold Carrie’s hand but Carrie use to step backward. “Kurt, you don’t have to do this. I have to stay away from you. The game is over. I don’t want to meet you anymore. Sorry.” She walked to leave Kurt, but Kurt hold her left hand that made her stop. Carrie, surprised as Kurt did. “You don’t have to go. I find for you because I want to say sorry.” “I accept your apologize, so please let me. It is the only way to avoid you. Because I don’t want to hurt myself, to hurt you and to hurt Nadia. I know she will wake up soon.” “Carrie, you don’t have to avoid me. I regretted everything, I have done to you. I realize that it was my mistake. Promise I won’t hurt you anymore…..Please don’t leave me.” he said seriously. Carrie surprised of what he speak. Her heart burst its emotions. She can’t move as she stood up. “Kurt, it doesn’t mean I’m trying to flirt you. But it’s over, I don’t want to flirt you anymore. Kurt, I know you and Nadia are not yet married. I want to confess that I still love you and I don’t want to lose you. Hoping you’ll be mine.” She cried. “Carrie? Are you serious?” “Pardon. I never meant it.” Kurt pulled her close holding her both hands. Kurt wipe her tears. “You don’t need to cry. It’s been a long time I didn’t see Nadia. I tried to find information about her but no one can give. I feel tired and hatred, because we lose our communication. It doesn’t mean, I find another woman not to think of her. But I find another woman because I’m alone and can help me to get over from this. I think Nadia and me don’t have a chance to see each other.” He sobbed. “I didn’t force you to love me. I’m worried about Nadia, what if she will come back and search for you. Kurt, please wait for her.” “It’s been one month ago. And I lost my hope already. And I want to start again. It is hard and pain to break my promises to her but I have to because I don’t want to grow old alone.” “Kurt, maybe Nadia will coming back, maybe tomorrow or another day. Maybe she find time to reveal herself to you. And you should wait for her.” “I waited for her it’s already a long time. Carrie, listen to me. I’m sad and alone. Please, let me happy with you.” “You have to be happy with her not me. Sorry, Kurt.” She leave Kurt alone on the beach. Late in the evening, Carrie didn’t sleep yet. She can’t sleep because she always think about Kurt. She reject the chance that Kurt give to her. But for her it’s better because she will just hurt Nadia’s feelings if she use to accept it. She cried for no reason, she just shed her tears suddenly. She have a coffee with her. Mia is not around. She is just alone. The dorm is not too big, so she didn’t afraid. It’s been late in the night, someone’s knocking on her door repeatedly. She opened it slowly, and Kurt reveal himself. He is not drank, nor take some drugs. He pulled Carrie on his chest and kiss repeatedly. “Please, Carrie forgive me.” he locked the door. And bring Carrie on the bed while kissing. Carrie was force to kiss him. Since Kurt almost taking off her dress. Kurt beg for her. Since she love Kurt so much, she forgive it for just this night. They have their second-night stand.“I don’t want to expect more from Nadia, since she can’t sustain me anymore.” He thought. “Please, forgive me Nadia for I have sin. I have flirt your boyfriend. Don’t worry, I am ready to give him back to you if you still alive. If not, promise I can take care of him as you wish.” Carrie thought. The night never end without lust and romance. As what they did, they have romantic night. Kurt is not swallowed nor drank, he use to have an affairs to Carrie even if he knows what are the consequences. Carrie, knows about it. She already know how to get over from this. She just let Kurt express his emotions of loneliness. Carrie prepared foods for breakfast, while waiting Kurt who still sleeping. She don’t want to wake him up since he got tired last night. As she fix the table, she find out Kurt who’s coming to her. Kurt give a kiss on her forehead that made her smile. “Hmmm…I think it’s delicious because it’s smell so good.” Kurt said and seated on the chair to start eating as well Carrie. “I prepared it for us. Actually, later I’m leaving. I’m going to the beach for surfing. Someone recommending me as a model in their beach.” She smiled. “No worries. Actually, me also. I have my task to finish this time. Since I omitted lots of cases last time.” “Kurt, you have to focus on your work. You don’t have to omit it. Just focus and be confident enough. I know your work is not easy because you have to face the courts just to save and prove all innocents.” “Carrie, you have to take care of yourself. Since today is getting dangerous. Kylie who was convicted ten months ago was escaped from the jail last night. Maybe, he will find to take some revenge or to everyone.” “Who is Kylie?” she’s getting curious. “Luke and Nadia’s friend. Kylie the one who killed her own boyfriend. I was the one you convicted her. So, I guess she is coming for me to take some revenge.” Sip his juice. “Of course, I will. By the way, thank you for being here. I know it’s a big mistake but still I am ready to face any consequences. I hope everything will be alright.” “Even if I love Nadia so much, but I never realized that there’s someone who is deserving for me and that is you.” Carrie smiled. “You made me angry, every time when you and Nadia are together but I never mind it all. Actually, it was my fault.” “No, it’s not yours. Kindly stop complaining everything to yourself. You don’t deserve it.” “I know— Kurt piled all the documents that was scattered on his table. He wasn’t able to fix it last time since he is not feeling well. But now, he realize that Carrie is the relief of her loneliness and sadness. He mourn and weep because of Nadia, he didn’t even think about Carrie. Though, they have affairs together last night. For them it’s usual. Maybe Kurt has a plan for Carrie. Or else he will going to marry Carrie instead Nadia. But what if Nadia will come back? What will happened to them? Is Carrie ready to let go everything? Or Kurt ready to accept Nadia’s back? Kurt didn’t think of it, of what might happen to them if Nadia reveal herself. He just think on how he was relieve from pain and suffering. His sad face turn to a lovely face. He has his confident already to work on. As he piled all the documents on his table. Something caught his attention. And it is picture of him and Nadia who are in the beach. They have their picnic three months ago. As Kurt proposed to her. He seated on the swivel chair and stared the picture. “I never expect that I can see this picture. But, sorry Nadia I have to let you go. I’m really sorry, which I find my happiness to Carrie. Sorry for just using you. Actually, I regretted everything. Hope you will be happy if where you are right now.” He thought. And throw the picture on the trash bin. What a stubborn? Two cops who are approaching him. Bring a brown envelope and give it to him. “What is this?” Kurt asked while trying to open the envelope. “A records from Nadia King.” Kurt stop opening it, and he just stared to the cop who speak, instead. He give his gestures to know on speaking. “Nadia King, is already dead three weeks ago.” Kurt shocked when he heard the news from Nadia. He never expect everything. Like he want to cry and shout. He still affected of what happened to Nadia. He can’t imagine that it will happened. “Only your father who survive the surgery. According to the operation reports to both patients, they only need to save one patient. Because they will going to put the virus on the other patients and burn it up. Not to be able to spread the virus. Maybe your father will be coming, after one month because they need to examine him. Unfortunately, your father can’t walk anymore. His legs was paralyzed and he need to use wheelchair.” “What?” he just reply. He don’t know what to say. He fold his hands like he want to punch the wall. “You can leave now. Thank you for the information.” He added. When the cops leave, he use to open the envelope and read it with his eyes only. While reading it, his heart get numb, and he feel like he can’t breathe. Someone told him to regret it all. That is why he said his tears silently. He didn’t continue on reading. He get his phone and dial Luke’s number. He want to bring the news to Luke. He need to inform Luke of what happened to Nadia. Carrie and Kurt meet on the riverside. Having refreshment, since it’s the only place that has cold wind. They are both tired from their work. So they need to inhale fresh air. They only buy coffee and pie. Eating while they are taking. “She didn’t use to stay strong. She surrender without saying goodbye.” He sadly said. “I think, she just kill herself after knowing that you and me have an affairs. Maybe she get mad already. And I feel scared to it Kurt. What if her ghost body will reveal on me? To take revenge after fooling her.” “No, it’s not your fault. Maybe, she think that I love my father so much. And she sacrificed herself. If this is what happened? I am very proud and thankful to her.” “I feel conscience on her death. I can’t bring it on.” “Since, she’s already gone. We can start a new chapter together. Let’s continue the chapter where Nadia and me stopped.” “It doesn’t mean right, that you choose me over her. Please tell me, that it was not our fault why she’s gone.” Kurt front her and hold her hands. “Yes, of course. I was worried on how I’m going to tell it to her mother of what happened to her. Actually, we kept it secret as what happened to her. Just believe me Carrie. I can handle everything if don’t leave me. Stay on me and let’s work it together.” She hugged Kurt tightly. She feel the warm of his body. It covers on her whole body. Kurt used as her thick jacket and cover her from cold. “I love you so much.” She said, and kiss on Kurt chicks. Kurt gather all the memories that they created with Nadia together. All the pictures they have, the souvenir that they are together and put it on the trash bin. He bring it to the backyard and burn it all. “Sorry, Nadia. I have to bury all the memories that we have created. This is the only way to forget you. You know me already that I can’t handle myself if I have a problem. Hope you are happy to me right now. And both of us Carrie. Hope you will agree that me and Carrie will get married. Though, I didn’t asked her yet for married but I want to. Nadia, hope you will be happy there in heaven. I asked for your guidance for both of us. And I ask for you acceptance. Hope you will forgive Carrie as what she have done to you. She regretted it all. She want to ask apology but it’s too late already. I am happy if you are happy. Thank you so much for the time you have shared with me. For all the memories that we created each other. But I have to forget it all.” He thought. Putted the gas on the trash bin and fire it up. He burned all the unforgettable memories. He can’t stop his emotions. So he cried and sobbed. He went back inside on his house, after burning. He locked the door and went into his room. He bumped himself on his smooth and soft bed. Carrie is not around. She is with Mia on her dorm. They have to separate each other since they are not married already. He stared on the ceiling, on how the light of the chandelier winks and blinking.