An Alpha and Luna's Diary

2 - Confide In Your Mate

Bradon’s POV

Sunday 9th September

Dear Diary

I know, I know, I only had to do this in my first year. I have to admit, there is something therapeutic about putting my thoughts down on paper, and now I’m in my last year, why not keep it going?

Anyway, back to the point at hand. You know what I said, Elly was starting to trust there was no agenda? OK, you know there was. Mum and Dad wanted me to keep an eye on her because they got word she was going to school with bruises on her. That’s why they paid for her tuition and called it a scholarship. Anyway, it was clear she did have bruises when she refused to take her sweater off and participate in gym class on the first day of our freshman year. It never changed as the year progressed. She was still wearing clothing to cover her body, but dad said he couldn’t stop anything because there was no proof. I call bull s**t.

Fine! There was more than keeping an eye on her too, but there was nothing I could do about that. At least she accepted the fact; I wanted to get to know her again, or I thought she did. I’m not sure what’s going on with that.

Enough about that and more about me. Over our summer break, something happened. I got my wolf; a red wolf called Oscar. I grew another 4 inches too. In total, I’m now 6-foot-7. I’m not sure if Elouise got her wolf. She was supposed to. Anyway, I hope so because I’ve found my mate, and I want her to experience finding hers too. I just feel bad, because she would have gone through her first shift alone.

She didn’t message me at all over the summer, not that she messages me, but I was hoping. When I got back to school, I tried to give her a hug. She burst into tears and pushed me away, running to her dorm room. She’s sharing with Chelsea again and I asked her if she knew something was wrong, but she said she didn’t.

It’s been a week now and, apparently, Elly’s cried herself to sleep every night. I may have to ask Victoria what she knows, but I don’t really want to. I’m going to take one for the team and find out. I’ll keep you informed.

I put my diary in the top draw of my desk and walked out of my dorm room and headed to the cafeteria. When I got there, I scanned the area for the blonde in the crowd. “Victoria” I called as she beamed a smile at me when I moved towards her. “How was your summer?”

“Boring” she cooed as I gave her my most winning smile. “I had to spend it at home with Smelly.”

I stopped myself from growling at the stupid nickname Victoria started in our freshman year for Elouise. I could tell she hated that it had caught on and everyone started calling her that. I would never and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get them to stop. “So, nothing interesting happened? Didn’t you get your wolf?”

“Oh, yeah,” she giggled, placing her hand on my forearm. “Her name is Petra.” I know there are only a few months between Victoria, Elouise and me. I was born first, at the beginning of June. Elouise was born in early July and Victoria mid-August.

“I haven’t seen Elly and thought I would ask her if she got her wo…” “Why do you keep asking about her? I’m ten times the she-wolf that slut is. What’s so special about her?” Victoria screamed as I raised my eyebrows at her. Is she really comparing herself with Elouise?

“Relax, Vicky. I was only saying, I hadn’t seen her and was wondering if both of you got your wolf. I’ll ask her when I see her next” I answered as Victoria smiled again. Damn she-wolf is going to give me whiplash with her mood swings. “Anyway, nice chatting with you.”

I went to move out of my seat when Victoria pushed her lips to mine. “What the f**k do you think you are doing?” I screamed as I pushed her away from me. The smirk on Victoria’s face wasn’t directed at me, but someone over my shoulder. I turned around to see Elouise bursting into tears and running out the door.

“Oh, come on baby. Don’t be like that” Victoria cooed as I turned back to glare at her while taking a step back. Just because I’m not with anyone anymore, doesn’t give her the right to kiss me.

“Don’t ever do that again” I screamed, making sure I released my aura and watching everyone around the cafeteria bare their necks; Victoria included. “Do I make myself clear?”

“Y… Yes” Victoria stuttered as I turned and ran after Elouise.

“Go to her”, Oscar said, coming to the forefront of my mind.

“What the f**k do you think I’m doing?” I screamed as I sniffed the air to chase after her citrus scent. It was a mixture of oranges, lemons and limes. I followed it out the door of the school building and to the wooded area out the back. “Did she shift?”

“No” Oscar answered as I continued to follow the smell of citrus.

“Elly” I called as I saw her deep red hair going around a tree. “Elly, wait; I want to talk to you.”

“f**k off, Bradon” Elouise yelled as I reached her. She had been crying and all I wanted to do was put my arms around her, but the last time that happened… I needed to know what was going on. “Go be with Victoria, that’s what you want, isn’t it?”

“I… What… No…” I stumbled as she turned to glare at me and I took a step closer to her. “I didn’t kiss her, she kissed me and I pushed her away. I told her never to do that again. I won’t let her do that again. I don’t want her. Goddess, this is frustrating…”

“What do you want, Bradon?” Elouise seethed as I moved toward her, and she took a step back. She looks scared. Why would she be scared of me? “Just go, Bradon.”

“I can’t do that” I said as she folded her arms across her chest. “What’s happened? You’ve never backed away from me before. I just…” She shook her head, backing away again as I took a step closer. “If you can’t confide in your mate, who else can you confide in?”

“Mate?” Elouise scoffed as I stepped closer again, and she pushed her back into the tree behind her. “Mates don’t shove their tongue down her stepsister’s throat.”

“I told you, I didn’t kiss her” I groaned, wrapping my arms around Elouise as she tried to squirm free. Why is she struggling? Can’t she feel the mate bond? Can’t she feel the… Unless she didn’t get her wolf. “Did you get your wolf on your birthday?”

“Wolf?” she whispered and stopped squirming, giving me the opportunity to pull her to my chest as she pushed me to get away. “No, I didn’t get my wolf. My stepfather stopped that.”

“What? How?” I asked as I tried to put my arms around her again and she side-stepped away from me. “Don’t pull away, please. Oscar needs to know you are alright.”

“Oscar?” she murmured as I nodded my head.

“My wolf. Please let us help…” “Help?” she scoffed, cutting me off and taking a few steps backward. “Where was your help when I was dosed with wolfbane and Goddess knows what else before being raped and then pimped out by my stepfather? Where was your help when I was trying to scream, fight, anything, but couldn’t move? If I am your mate, I’ll make it easier for you, since I’m now damaged goods. I, Elouise Janet Emerson reject…

“Don’t. Please” I pleaded over the top of her as she stopped abruptly with a tear rolling down her cheek. “I’m not going to force you to be with me, but please don’t reject me.”

“Why?” she murmured, falling to the ground as I sat down next to her and pulled her gently to my chest to let her cry. We sat there in silence as she sobbed. Her stepfather did the unthinkable, and I’m going to make sure Jamie Fitzpatrick is a dead wolf for putting his hands on my mate.

“I’m fine now. I should go” she said abruptly, trying to stand up, but I didn’t allow it, and kept her held tight to my chest.

“Do you have to?” I asked as she nodded her head, not moving from where she was sitting. I hope my presence is a comfort for her, at least. “Maybe we could talk. Get to know one another.”

“What’s to know, Bradon? You’ve been stalking me since I got to Gold Meadows High School” she laughed as I nervously chuckled with her.

“I wouldn’t call it stalking” I said as she flinched when I moved my fingertips up her back. “Sorry, I won’t do that again” I sighed, moving my hand to lean it on the ground next to me. “I remembered playing with you when we were pups and I wanted to get to know you again. That’s all.”

“You said that before” she said as I nodded my head.

“And the answer is still the same”, I told her as she rested her head on my chest again. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long, and now it’s here; I won’t be letting her get away. “But this time, I want to get to know my mate.”

We sat in silence again as I took in her citrus scent; “Bradon,” “Hmm?” I murmured, hoping it was enough for her to continue. “Am I really your mate?”

“Yes” I whispered to the top of her head. I won’t tell her how crazy Oscar went, when she pushed us away when I tried to hug her on the first day back at school. Or how I wanted to be with her the moment I saw her on our first day at Gold Meadows High School.

“Can we not tell anyone?” she whispered as I pulled back to gaze into her brown eyes. She doesn’t want people to know? Why the hell not? “At least not at school. I don’t want Victoria to know, and I need time to process everything. Process what I want.”

“You don’t want to be my mate?” I asked as she shrugged her shoulders. I wasn’t expecting that.

“I haven’t had the best role models when it comes to mates. Ever since Dad was killed, Mum’s been high, drunk or both and Jamie…” I let out a growl, cutting her off at the mention of her stepfather’s name as she jumped. “Well, I think you get the picture. I will promise you I won’t reject you. But I will accept the rejection when you reject me.”

“Not going to happen, babe” I laughed as she shook her head and I pulled her to my chest again.

“Don’t call me that” she seethed, catching me off guard.

“Not going to happen” I whispered again, leaving the babe part off.

“Maybe” she murmured, snuggling further into my arms.