Reaping Me Softly

Chapter 55 - His Feelings

Sometimes you have to let go and accept the fact that you're not going to be able to reverse what you did in the past. It was something you can't change, but we have every day to do things that we knew, we won't regret in the future. A decision that would bring you nothing but happiness. A choice you'd make that won't let you feel dumb for choosing that certain option. 

Because you have learned from past mistakes. It makes you wise in time, and remember that making blunders were part of the human race. Lapses were what makes you grow, and it certainly not define who you are. 

If I was given a chance to change a certain event in the past, I wouldn't touch any of them. Without those mistakes, I wouldn't be strong as I am now. I wouldn't be wise... I wouldn't have built the better version of myself I failed to developed before. It contributed, a lot, to my life. 

"So, you're planning to stay here for three months?" his mother asked. A hint of doubtfulness crossed her voice. 

"Yes, Mommy... It has been years since we came here, so we wanted to make the best out of it. Also, after three months, we'll go back and who knows when we're going to have a vacation here again?" Alec stated. 

I nodded in agreement. "He was right, Mommy..." I uttered. 

"Gosh... You just came here but we're talking about it. Let us all stop and enjoy lunch. I prepared a lot of food... As we knew you preferred home cook than restaurants, dear."

My heart fluttered. They do remember every single detail about me. Something my parents never did. My husband's mother really is the sweetest and he sure was lucky to have her. I wanted to be like her in the future... I wanted to raise my children just like their father, Alec. 

However, he was lazy as f uck. 

"Eat a lot, baby. Don't worry about getting fat," he whispered before I sat on the chair he pulled for me. 

A pinch was given to his side after. "Shut up, Alec."

There were just four of us at a table. His father was smiling but has never said a sentence. Well, at least I knew he was happy for us basing on how his eyes twinkling whenever his mesh landed on us, especially on his wife. It was so genuine and also, it was mesmerizing to know that there are still people like him, and seeing those genuine stares reminded me of how Alec look at me.

It was so beautiful.

We started eating. 

"Where do you plan to stay?" Mom asked. "Your bedroom upstairs was still doing fine, Alec. You two can stay there if you want."

That was something I don't have any idea about. Honestly, we never really plan about this vacation. We just go on and never really plan a thing... And now that we were asked, I don't know what to answer as I don't have properties left here in the country. I have sold it before I left as I don't have plans on settling here down. 

"I bought a condo year ago, Ma. So, we'll stay there for a while."

Or so I thought...

"I didn't know that..." I whispered and I felt his hand on my leg, squeezing it tight.

But he didn't say a thing. 

It was not a big deal though. However, we both agreed, at least, to informed each other if one purchased something that requires a lot of money. We're married, of course. One has the right to know. But what was done is done... I can't really do a thing about it knowing that, surely, he used his own money.

"Oh, alright..." she sounded a bit disappointed. "But do please visit us sometimes. I'll be sad if you don't."

She made that sad face and every one of us let out a chuckle because of her cuteness. She was too sweet! 

"Ma, we'll visit, of course... Lia, here, even wanted to see you every day only because of your food."

Blood rushed to my cheeks. 

"Then, why don't you stay here?"

"For privacy," he simply answered and I guess my cheeks burn more. 

Privacy. Why does it give me the impression that it has something to do with bedroom activities? Seriously... Like alright... We did it before but it didn't turn out really good maybe because we did it at times when we were too emotional. After that, we didn't try to do it again. 

It has been, I think, three years since that night... I'm surprised that Alec can hold onto not doing it for years. Of course, every man has needs. Yet he never really bring it up, nor even thought of doing it with someone which was never really a big deal for me before. 

Although I told him that it was fine as long as he won't get caught. But he said he was willing to wait and I do really appreciate it so much. 

He was so rare these days. I lost counts but again, I won't get tired of thanking Him for giving Alec to me. He was the least person I didn't expect to come.

That day, we stayed in his parents' house as we don't think we could still drive and finish everything that needed to do in his unit after the long a ss flight. 

"We clean his room, dear. Don't worry about bugs, there's nothing in there..." Mom assured. 

I don't know how many times I felt embarrassed in front of them because of Alec. He has been telling them what I hated the most and that includes bugs!

"Thank you, 'mmy..." I smiled genuinely. 

The moment I entered his room, I immediately glared at Alec who was smirking at me, sitting on his dark gray king-size bed.

"I hate you. Alec..."

"What did I do?" 

Rolling my eyes, I walked towards the bed and laid there lazily. 

"I felt embarrassed the whole day..." I expressed, slowly closing my eyes. 

The room filled with silence. It was just a minute when I felt his lips on mine and smiled upon hearing his voice.

"Good night, baby... I love you."