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Chapter Fourty-Six

SIENNA'S POV

By the time the movie finished Ethan was asleep in the chair. Everyone else looked just as exhausted.

"Right, you home to your wife and my nephew." I say pointing to Sid before then pointing to Charlie and Harry saying "And you two share a cab home as well.

"Mum, Dad you two can go on home or even give these lot a lift since they can't drive. I will tackle getting Ethan to bed" I say.

"Are you sure?" Sid asks. "Yeah, I don't mind helping you" My dad says.

"It's fine. I can sort everything here you all get some rest" I say.

"Okay, but me and you are catching up tomorrow" My mum says. I give her a hug as I say "Of course, I wouldn't have it any other way.. I'm so glad I'm home even if I wish it was a little different im still glad to be back where I belong".

"Good, because you ain't ever leaving again" My dad says as he holds him arms out for a hug and I give him a hug to.

"What about us?" Harry asks pouting.

"Oh, I'm still not done with you three after this morning.. but that's for a different place and time" I say going to give Harry a hug.

"I knew She would be mad. I told you Sid we shouldn't of gone over for that chat" Charlie says.

"Well, I had to make sure she wouldn't get Ethans hopes up. I'd rather not tend to a broken heart on top of everything else he is going through" Sid says quietly.

"You little s**t, who are you to mess in others loves lives" my mum says giving Sid a clip around the ear.

"Hey, no need to get voilent. Even you should agree Sienna needed warning to not get Ethans hopes up unless she was sure she would stay" Sid says.

"Move, now we will discuss this in the car. Sienna ignore these fools" My mum says and I just shake my head at them all as they leave. I watch until here all out of sight but I can hear them still leaving the actual front door as I turn around to look at Ethan to my surprise he is actually awake as he looks at me.

"Did we wake you? Everyone else is just leaving. I was going to get you up to bed before leaving" I say.

"No, I wasn't even asleep i was just resting my eyes whilst thinking" Ethan says

"Do you want to talk about it?" I ask

"Not really, but did Charlie, Sid and Harry actually show up to yours to warn you stay away from me?" Ethan asks.

"Hmm, seems there not the only ones. People Either warn me go keep my distance if I'm not planning on staying or are thrilled I'm back because it means marriage and kids are next" I say

"Is that what you want?" Ethan asks.

"I think this should be a conversation for a different day" I say

"Who else had words with you? It wasn't my mum was it?" Ethan asks

"No, your mum had Harry bring me here for you" I say.

"Then who?" Ethan asks.

"It doesn't matter. I should be heading home as well" I say

"Just stay a little longer.. Please" Ethan says standing up.

"Your not tired?" I say

"Do you want to leave?" Ethan asks back whisky walking towards me..

"This isn't the time or place to discuss whatever will or will not be between us" I say just as Ethan wraps his arms around my waist and looks down at me as I raise my head to look him in the eyes.

"You want me as much as I want you" Ethan says

"Its not that simple.. I can't just be with you without telling life choices I've made. You have a right to choose for yourself what type of life and relationship you want. And the conversation isn't right to be held just right now" I say

"I don't care what life choices you have made, So long as I have you anything else I can go with or without. Tell me you don't love me or want me right now and I will leave you to live your life how you want" Ethan says staring into my eyes as if he is searching for answers. Whilst I battle in my mind how to keep this from going south. I don't want to upset Ethan by telling him right now I won't ever have children but I also know its not the right time after the news he had about Amy today.

"See you can't deny it, so just give us a chance" Ethan says before playing a kiss on my forehead.

"Ethan" I start to say but then my lips are claimed as Ethan claims my whole mouth kissing me as if his last breath counted on it. I can't help myself as I kiss him back winding my own arms around his neck.

"I don't care what it is so long as I can finally have you" Ethan says breaking away from the kiss as he looks me in the eyes with a seriousness.

"I don't want any children" I blurt out.

"Done, no children but your be mine right?" Ethan says.

"You can't just decide that without giving it much thought" I say.

"I can, I have and you can't change my mind on it" Ethan says seriously.

"Take time to think on it. When I know you have had time to think it over I will then give myself to you to us willingly forever. Until then we can be friends still like always and I won't go anywhere so long as you need me" I say.

"Okay, just let me hold you for a while. Please" Ethan says with a pleading look.

"Fine, just for a little while" I say which was all the answer Ethan needed as he lifts me up as he hugs me closer.. I tighten my grip around his neck a little so I don't fall. As Ethan cuddles his head into the crook of my neck he says "Don't worry I won't let you fall, and I certainly won't turn into an acholic. I couldn't do that to you".

"I know you wouldn't hurt me" is all I respond and we stay like that for a few moments just enjoying the cuddle.

"I want to show you something" Ethan says suddenly placing my feet back on the ground. Ethan then takes my hand as I say "What do you want to show me?"

"I will show you, its upstairs in my room here. I think your like it" Ethan says.

"Okay, lead the way then" I say even though Ethan already is leading the way.

"I don't get much down time anymore so I took up a new hobbie" Ethan says as we reach the hallway.

"Whats the hobbie?" I ask.

"That's what I want to show you.y new hobbie, everyone was shocked when I started it saying they never in a million years thought I'd take a hobbie that doesn't involve sports" Ethan says.

"I can agree, you do like your sports" I say as we reach upstairs.

Ethan leads me into a room and walks straight over to a shelf saying "I made all these"

I look to see so many different pottery items made from people to even sport objects like footballs, sports team badges and even signs with sayings on.

"They are really cool" I say.

"I know, I'm surprised as much as anyone else. They are cool, especially since I did them" Ethan says.

"Whats your favourite one?" I ask.

"Its not on show, I will show you one day. But I'm not ready to show anyone it just yet" Ethan says

"Okay, I look forward to the day I see it" I say.

"I do as well" Ethan says going to sit on the bed.

"When did you get into this?" I ask taking a seat next to Ethan on the bed.

Even wraps a arm around me bringing me closer to his side as he cuddles me saying "When I first learned mum was ill.. I couldn't bare to be away from her much, but I also got bored easy. Mum loves I've got a new hobbie. We even become so much closer. I wish I made more of a effort with mum before she got ill. I can't bare the thought that she could lose her life to this tumour. I can't accept it, I don't want to and I'm not ready to accept it" Ethan says.

I take Ethans hand in mine as I gently squeeze it and I say "Its okay to feel like that, but at least you showed up when it counted. I'm sure your mum isn't mad you didn't see her as much beforehand. I'm glad you see each other more. There's still time to be spent together with many more memories to be made. Make the most of it, its no use be angry right now when you can try to be as happy as can be together as a family"

"I know, I just wish all the women I love in this world would stop trying leave me" Ethan starts to say as my phone starts to ring. I See Tilly is video calling me.

I answer the phone saying "Tilly, I'm with Ethan is everything okay?".

"Uh, we need to talk in private. Sorry Ethan you don't mind to you?" Tilly says smiling sweetly.

"I'm sorry Ethan I won't be long, its probably regarding the baby's we operated on just before I came back.. I need to know there okay" I say and he looks at me as he says "Its okay, I understand. I will go downstairs so you got the room to yourself" With that he kisses me on the forehead and gets up and leaves me and Tilly alone.

"Do you need to be telling me something?" Tilly asks.

"Nothing like that, if he has his way though which i think he may just do then there will be something to tell" I say.

"I told you, you need to stop worrying he still seems crazy about you if he kissing your head after a day being back" Tilly says.

"Oh there's been a few hot passionate kisses to. I'm so weak, damn it Tilly, I said I'd not allow such behaviours until i knew he was happy not having children. I need saving" I say and Tilly just laughs before she says "I can't save you until I've saved Amy, Which is what I'm ringing about. We need to move quickly if the tumour grows much more even i won't be able to save her. As it is now I want you to pack ger back here so I can fly in and save the day if Amy will allow me to. Are you still with Amy? I need her approval quickly so I can start making preparations" Tilly says

"Yeah, let me go wake her up" I say getting up and hurrying put the bedroom and straight into Amy and Bens bedroom without knocking.

"Ben, I need you to leave a second I just remembered something important and I need to speak with Amy urgently" I say waking them up by turning the light on.

"Its okay Sienna if we have the answers you and Tilly where hunting for earlier Ben may as well stay, I'm sure it won't change anything though like I said" Amy says sitting up.

"Your wrong, I can remove it all. Your need a round of radiotherapy afterwards as a precaution and regular check ups but I'm confident I can get it all.. we need to move quickly though before it grows to a point even I can't remove it. I want to be on a plane quickly though. So if your happy to go ahead I need Sienna on a plane coming back here like now so I can fly over and have you ready to operate on in the next few days" Tilly says

"Your sure you can do this?" Amy asks.

"Yes, trust me.. are you willing to let me help you?" Tilly asks.

"She is the best" I say.

"Okay, then let's beat this thing. Tilly I swear if you succeed I will forever be in your debt" Amy says.

"No need, its already been paid in advance by Sienna for doing the same for my family" Tilly says.

"But we ain't related to Sienna" Ben says confused.

"Hush, thats rubbish the way Sienna talks about you all whilst here you could tell there was a lot of people who were not blood related but just as much mentally related as her actual family.. she has so many sets of parents its unreal" Tilly says

"Oh, well I don't know what to say to that" Ben says

"Your an i***t. Thank you Sienna and thank you Tilly, I can't wait to meet you in person" Amy says

"Make sure you rest and stay away from people as much as possible especially of there ill I want you in as much good health as possible understood?" Tilly says

"Understood" Amy says

"How quickly can you get back, I know you want to be there but I can't leave the baby's here without one of us to hand and you know that" Tilly says

"I will book the next flight out. I'm borrowing your wardrobe as well if I don't have a chance to pack" I say.

"Go ahead, I will have my parents get the room ready for you" Tilly says

"Thank-you, I will ring you in a minute once I'm all booked up" I say

"Text it to me I will have dad meet you at the airport with some luck I can be on a plane around the same time you land" Tilly says

"Okay, speak soon" I say

"Bye, see you soon" Amy says and with that Tilly says "Bye Amy, remember to rest up ready" with that she hangs up the phone.

"Amy, Ethan isn't going to like I'm going again. I swear I'm coming back its just" I start to say but Amy ends it saying "you wouldn't forgive yourself if anything happens to the babys".

"That is it, there the youngest i worked on since I lost mine, Tilly begged me for days and promised to stay on until there discharged" I start to say but this time Ben cuts me off saying "I will handle Ethan, just make sure you do come home the second you can".

"Ben, I need a minute with Sienna, you go on and tell Ethan the good news" Amy say whilst patting the bed for me to take a seat next to her.

"I need to book a flight" I say

"It can wait two more minutes" Amy says and Ben heads out the room to tell Ethan. I take a seat and Amy takes my hand in hers.

"Why do you look so sad?" Amy asks.

"Because everyone is going to think I'm running away again or putting some baby's before you all.. I just can't see anymore baby's die on my watch. I hate this" I say feeling myself get worked up.

"Don't you dare start doing that. I want you to gi make sure them baby's are okay and of anyone has a problem with it they will have me to deal with the way I see it your the reason I will get to love longer as well as them baby's. You do what's needed and let me deal with everything back here" Amy says

"Make sure Tilly facetimes me just before you go down so I can see you as well" I say.

"I can do that, now book them tickets before Ethan finds out and either trys to join you or stop you" Amy says and I agree he would do that so I get online and book the plane ticket.