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Chapter Fourty-Three

SIENNA'S POV

The next morning I woke up my phone out of battery..I placed it on charge whilst looking at the time on my bedside table. I see it was just gone half eleven although it was nearly the afternoon I had already decided to go back to bed once I relieved my bladder which rudely woke me to start with.

Half asleep I headed for the bathroom quickly whilst thinking over all the events from last night.

It surely didn't go how I expected it to. There was me thinking Sid, Charlie, Harry and Ethan where who I needed to worry about which my sudden return yet it turned out to the that lola girl. I definitely didn't see that coming in my scenario's I had thought of beforehand I think to myself flushing the chain before then going to the sink to wash my hands. I look at myself in the mirror as I say out loud to myself "Even she can't stop me being happy to be home though. Time to get on with the rest of your life with everyone you love finally Sienna. You have got this" I can't help smiling wide as I think of how I'm grateful the lads have forgiven me so quickly.

As I head back for my bed I suddenly jump out my skin as I hear Sid shout up the stairs "Kettle is boiling. No need to hurry though".

When did Sid show up I wonder to myself as I change course of direction to head downstairs.

"Don't worry, I wasn't a dream and I haven't disappeared again" I say reaching the bottom of the stairs and heading for the kitchen where no doubt Sid will be I think to myself.

"That's good to know princess. Don't worry we didn't think you would run of again so soon" Charlie says and I see Charlie, Sid and Harry all stood in my kitchen with drinks in hand already. This must be some kinda intervention or something I think to myself seeing all there serious faces but I wonder where Ethan is.

"No I'm making sure I keep rooted this time. How come your all here?" I ask.

"Here take this" Harry says passing me a drink which I take as he kisses my cheek and Sid then says "Well we need to talk with you".

"Okay, let's get it over with. What do you need to know or want to know? I will say though once again I am sorry for how I left, but I really did need it".

"We know and we do understand as well as the fact we are not upset princess" Charlie says.

"Thats right, your forgiven for sure" Harry says but somehow I feel like maybe I'm not forgiven since there all stood with gloomy looks.

"Okay, so go ahead whatever you have to say I won't be offended" I say.

"Sienna, I love you. Your my sister and always will be. I also love these guys and Ethan you know that but first and foremost you are my sister and I would always put you first. I also see these guys like brothers as well as Ethan so we need to make sure your not going to get Ethans hopes up for a chance with you and then you disappear again. You say your okay but what's to say you won't feel different after some time back. We would understand so long as you kept in contact if that was the case but we need to look out for Ethan as well".

"Yeah, Ethan wouldn't be able to take that kinda heartbreak so we want to just stress to not go giving Ethan hope unless your completely sure your going to stick around for forever. We know you wouldn't intentionally hurt Ethan like he wouldn't you, but this is important" Harry says.

"Yeah, I will always have your back princess but I'm with these guys, stuff has happened in the time you have been away, stuff you don't know about and we just want whats best for you both so be sure you know what your doing and what you want with Ethan" Charlie says.

"Why are you all talking in riddles? what stuff has happened. Has something happened to Ethan? I ask feeling my heart pound a little faster in my chest with the thought of Ethan possibly being ill or hurt in some kind of way which I didn't know about. But I see him last night and he seemed fine I try to assure myself.

"Your find out by the right people. Them people is not us" Sid says.

"What people, did something happen to Ethan?" I ask putting the cup on the side ready to go to war of need be.

"Woo, no he is fine nothing happened to Ethan" Charlie says.

"Then is he ill or something? His business, whats going on?" I ask.

"No, its nothing like that... Ethan is in perfect health and his business is completely fine" Sid says.

"Yeah, we are just looking out for you both. Ethan is fine" Harry says sounding a little more confident this time.

"I will ask Ethan myself" I say turning around to go get my phone and I pray its charged enough for a phone call.

"Hold on, Ethan is busy right now. You should wait until he puts a message in the group chat. You should always just wait for him to tell you himself, he won't be happy of we tell you, he doesn't even know we are here. He even stopped mum and dad telling you to get you home sooner. He said he wouldn't be the reason you came back, you would come back when your good and ready. Much to our dismay but we also realised it wasn't our place to force it" Sid says.

"Yeah, even though he had us its not the same as having you here when needed. You keep us all grounded" Charlie says.

I suddenly have this feeling of overwhelming guilt because I know if my parents wanted to tell me it must be bad whatever it is.

"Okay, I will wait" I say.

"And your also be sure not to give him any hope for you two unless your certain will you? Charlie asks.

"No, I wouldn't do that" I say honestly.

"Good, I'm glad that's over with" Harry says

"Yeah, it's so good to have you home" Charlie says as of he is trying to change the subject.

"Fine, don't tell me. I will find out what's going on though mark my words" I say not being able to shift this gut feeling that something is seriously wrong and that I could of came home sooner. which just adds to this guilty feeling building up inside of me..

"Yeah, so tell us about Ireland and what you plan to do before you start your job here?" Sid says passing me my drink again.

"Well I thought I'd just catch up with everyone and have a few chilled days before I start work here. Ireland was amazing mainly because of tilly in the end she is like the sister I've never had" I say.

"You should of said I could of became your sister" Charlie says jokingly but I see they all hurt expression weather on there faces or in there eyes that they quickly covered.

"No, don't take it like that. I mean in the sense of doing girly things and being best friends at work helped. Tilly wasn't like a therapist or anything like that. She just treated me like normal and when she did find out she didn't push me to talk or anything just carried on being Tilly. But she also kinda understood a little part of it from a bad experience she went through. I helped her as much as she helped me just being friends and normal with each other. I won't go into the details because its her story to tell. I think we found each other and understood each other when we needed it the most. now we just thrive of each other. You all mean the world to be and I know your all love Tilly, don't see her as the enemy because I swear she couldn't do a better job than you lot. She reminded me of you lot in her strengths" I say rambling on until I decided it was no use i already upset them all again.

Just great I think to myself as Harry says "It's okay, by the sounds of what you said she could understand you in a way we couldn't by sharing some kinda trauma".

"Yeah, we do. So please be nice to Tilly when she comes over. she doesn't know anyone here except me and Maria and mum and dad. Here family took me under there wing like a daughter and sister ect. I hope your all do the same for Tilly here" I say

"Well, sounds like its owed back at the least. I understand and of she already won round mum and dad and Maria I'm we will all like here as well" Side says.

"You know me, I don't judge i get to know people personally before making my mind up on people" Charlie says as Sids phone starts ringing. He looks at the caller I.D before answering saying "Hey Dad".

"Any friend of yours is a friend of ours" Harry says to me and I feel a little better knowing they don't seem offended anymore and understanding.

"Thankyou" I say just as Sid says "Don't worry, we are on our way" Then he hangs up the phone and says "Sorry princess we all need to go. You have a nice day, we will catch up soon.. Charlie, Harry we need to go now". Sid says this with a sound of urgency and as he already heads to exit the kitchen.

"Whats happened?" I ask as Charlie says "Catch ya later princess" followed by a quick kiss to my cheek as he goes to follow Sid.

"Nothing for you to worry about" Sid says and Harry then gives me a quick hug as he says "So glad your back".

"Sorry, we really have to go" Sid shouts heading for the door and Charlie and Harry hurry behind me shouting bye whilst I'm left confused what the hell is going on.. if I wasn't in my nightwear I'd follow them to find out because clearly something big is happening I think to myself as I walk out the kitchen and see them dashing out the door faster than they came by.

I decided to go see how much battery my phone had and see if I could ring people to find out what was going on.

No sooner I switched on my phone though it was going crazy with messages from loads of the hospital staff I worked with sending me articles of the local news we were in.. Damn its already gone everywhere quickly.

I decided to try and ring my dad before Tilly to check in how things where going.. except my dad didn't answer the phone so I then tried my mum and she didn't answer either.

starting to worry I tried tried Maria who answered after a few rings.

"Hey, Sienna how are you today?" Maria said

"Maria, whats going on? And don't lie to me because I know something is going on. I had Sid, Charlie and Harry show up and they were gone very quickly after a phone call from dad. Now no one is answering there phones" I say worried.

"I can't tell you, like I couldn't tell the boys about you I won't break any trust. Its not my place to tell you" Maria says.

"Then tell me who's place it is to tell me?" I say already suspecting its Ethans but wanting confirmation.

"Ethans, but you can't get hold of him right now he is in the middle of something. Your better of trying later and that's all I'm giving you as you really need to speak with Ethan" Maria says.

"Should I of come back sooner? whatever this is it seems big and bad.. just tell me that" I say.

"Yes its bad and everyone tried to talk Ethan to allowing your parents tell you but he said no because you clearly wasn't ready to come back. He didn't want you to putself over him and his needs. That's all I can say so don't be angry at any of us not saying anything sooner. Just trust me right now isn't a good time and wait" Maria says.

"I'm going stir crazy thinking assorts here. whatever it is I should be helping as well" I say.

"Dont worry he isn't alone right now. He may even reach out to you, I really don't know what to suggest other than waiting it out a moment" Maria says.

"Okay, I guess I'm going to wait it out then" I say trying to figure out in my head what the gell is going on but having no idea at the same time whisky imagine so many things.

"By the way, I've seen all the news reports online you did such a good thing. we are all proud of you" Maria says and I suddenly feel like I was in the wrong place doing the wrong thing because although I love my job and know I needed to heal myself I feel so awful suddenly that I should of been home instead where I was clearly needed more. I never realised how being so selfish taking care of myself could feel so shitty. Id of rather suffered everyday than not be there for the people I loved when they needed me.