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Chapter Fourty-Four

ETHAN'S POV

"Ethan, this isn't the answer. Drinking isn't going to change anything at all" I hear my dad say yet my only response is to down the whisky and refill the glass.. I don't want to talk to him or any of them. They think its okay to keep such big secrets from me. Take away valuable time well then can go to hell right now I think to myself.

"Come on lad, I know your angry but talk to us" I hear Ian say so I give him the same response.

"Oh, were day drinking today" I hear Sid say and without moving my head I glance at the direction or the patio doors where I see Sid, Harry and Charlie coming through. Then I pour myself another whisky because if I'm honest with myself I don't want to talk to anyone for all I know there all in on it. All hid the truth from me.

"And the decent stuff as well" Harry says followed with an approval whistle but Charlie does a you turn back inside. And I decide to hold the bottle of whisky in my hand with the whisky glass in my other hand. This bottle here is all mine just to start with they can get there own.. after all I brought this house and stocked it with the whisky for days just like this when my mum got ill. I have every right to sit here and drink the problems away.

"Whats happened?" Sid says as he and Harry take seats at the table as well.

I take a mouthful of my drink as if no one is around me.

"Okay, no chatting just drinking. We can do that" Harry says.

"Whats happened has something happened to Amy?" Sid asks and my Dad responded with "Yeah, we just told Sid its now terminal. He wasn't happy to discover we decided to keep it a secret until after your birthday because we knew he wouldn't go out have fun with you.. but he spends so much time here already that we just wanted him to have one more happy night out before things get tough. He has done so much I mean just look at this house so close to the hospital its the only reason he brought it so the travel wouldn't be so bad and that's for starters. But it hasn't gone down well and Ethan also refuses to accept it".

"Thats because it lie" I shout not wanting to hear anymore then I finish off the Whiskly in the glass before refilling it.

"Don't worry, we got this" I hear Charlie say to my dad and Ian as he comes back out and Sid pats my shoulder saying "I'm sorry Sid, I had no idea".

"Yeah, no wonder your day drinking. you can talk about it or not but we ain't leaving your side. We are all here for you" Harry says

"We always will be day or night, no matter what you need we will be here" Charlie adds on taking a seat after placing glasses and more whisky bottles on the table.

"I'm not talking about it until they say there living its just some kinda prank" I say loudly whilst pointing at my dad and Ian who are stood by the back patio doors.

"Okay, let's start drinking then" Sid says.

They all pour drinks without doing any toasts. Everyone having a watchful eye on me as if I'm a kid who needs babysitting but I ignore them whilst I try to figure what to do next because there ain't no way this will be true ever I think to myself.

I don't even know how long went by before my mum came outside looking frail and older. These past few months she has gotten weaker but our relationship has only grown closer and closer. No matter how passed off and angry I am right now I couldn't help soften my eyes as I watched her approach me. I even stood up a little unsteady on my feet but still with it to enable I didn't knock my mum down as I assisted her to sit in my chair before going down on my knees to sit by her chair next to her legs. She cupped my face and smiled at me with her eyes lighting up but also mixed with sadness.

"Ethan, my darling boy although your a man now your still my little boy and I hate seeing you like this. I've thought with all my might and I'm tired now. There isn't anything else I can do to try fight this. I only want my last days spent with the people I love making more happy memories. But don't think I want to leave you because I don't. I love you so much and I'm so glad I've seen you grow into the man you have become. Even when I'm gone I will watch over you everyday all you need to remember is I will still be by your side through the wind smiling proudly because your my son" my mum says

"Your not leaving, why is it all the women I love in life always run away. But your trying to tell me you ain't coming back and its a lie. So stop saying it" I barely say as I feel tears well up in my eyes.

"Ethan, it won't be goodbye its" my mum starts to say but I cut her off as I say "Don't you dare say it. I'm not accepting it. Just don't" then I down the whisky in the glass as my dad shouts "That's enough! Ethan I know its hard to accept but let your mum talk"..

"Dont you lecture me! You can't summon me this morning with all your friends as back up to tell me my mum is dieing and you apparently knew two weeks ago. No! you don't get to do that. Its not true and its not a nice thing to do" I shout and I only lower my voice as I feel my mums hand on my arm and she says "Ethan, calm down I've got a headache.

I turn to face my mum and I can tell she is tired so I say "come on, I will help you to bed"

"No, your to drunk to assist your mum up the stairs" my dad says firmly.

"I wasn't asking you" I say.

"Stop it the pair of you. Harry you can help me up the stairs please. Ethan have your moment but you need to accept this. Ben, go get my medication and don't take Ethans words to heart. You both need to remember to stick together" My mum says and Harry stands up to help my mum which I allow as its her wishes in place I pour myself some more whisky.

HARRY'S POV

"Do you need anything else?" I ask Amy as we reach her bedroom.

"I need you to go get Sienna. She is the only person Ethan needs right now.. Go don't tell him because he is stubborn.. it's like a fate her coming home earlier than planned. It was agreed without you all knowing that

Sue and Ian would inform Sienna as the time came nearer to me passing away that they would have Sienna informed so she could come back for Ethan.. We all know She is the one he will need to get him through it. So now she is back and thank our lucky stars we did hold off until after Sids birthday party because Sienna is what he clearly needs right now" Amy says.

"Okay, I can do that. Amy, just know we all love you and of you need anything we are all here for you as well" I say.

"I know, I may have only had one son biologically but we all know we all gained extra children with you all growing up.. I'm privileged to of been part of all your lives and see you all grow into wonderful people. I'm also not sorry about Lola, I know you loved her but we could all tell she didn't love you correctly.. In time you will find a lovely women. I'm just sorry I won't be here for your wedding day when that happens" Amy says.

I give Amy a hug not knowing what to say as I gulp back the tears that I feel building up inside of me.

"Okay, you get some rest. Don't worry Ethan will be okay we are all here now" I say and Amy says "I know". with that I head off to do as she asks.

ETHAN'S POV

"We made you all some food to help soak up the drink" I hear my dad say as he Ian and Sue come out holding big plates full of sandwiches, crisps with dips and pizza they clearly cooked up.

"I don't need to soak up the whisky, I need you to stop telling me lies" I say.

"Ethan, I can't tell you that when its the truth. You think I want it to be true as well no I don't. But it is true so you need to accept it won't be much longer until mum passes away" My dad says and I stand up pointing at my dad as I shout "No i won't accept it. you may have given up but I haven't. So stop it, she wo the die".

I notice Sid and Charlie have both stood up next to me as Sid says "Calm down, its not worth arguing over. We know your upset but your still family".

"No, I won't accept it. She will fight and conquer the brain tumour" I shout whilst now in an angry staring competition with my dad.

"You need to accept its terminal. I know its hard to do but do you really think you being like this is how your mum wants to spend the rest of her days watching you like this" My dad shouts at me.

"You think she wants to die! No so no matter what she wont" I shout raising my glass to throw it on the ground in anger only I here Sienna shout "Ethan stop" at the same time I feel her throw her arms around my body hugging me tightly. I look down surprised to see Sienna is actually here as I wrap my arms around her. I can't hold the tears in anymore and I'm a sobbing mess as I hold onto Sienna for my own sanerity.

"Here, let me take this" I hear Charlie say as I feel him taking my whisky glass and I allow him to take it.

I sit down whisky keeping Sienna with me and my head hidden in the crook of her neck, nor wanting anyone else to see me cry. I hate crying but I just couldn't hold it in anymore.

"I'm sorry I didn't come back sooner. I had no idea all of this was happening" I hear Sienna say very quietly as she runs her hands through my hair to try calm me down.

"Sienna, heres some tissues for Ethan" I gear Sue say.

"Thanks, why didn't you tell me this?" Sienna asks.

"Because Ethan didn't want to just like you didn't want the boys to know where you were I respected his wishes. we all knew however it he made the wrong choice but still it was his wishes that counted" Sue says.

"Silly man, you should of known I'd of put you first" Sienna says lifting my head up to wipe away my tears and our eyes just look into each others trying to figure something out what I'm unsure.

"No it was the wrong way to bring you back" I say.

"Hmm, doesn't mean I wouldn't of been here sooner because I would of done. Now tell me everything" Sienna says.

"It wasn't ment to be like this. Mum was going to beat the brain tumour. You would come back and then I'd win you over like it was always ment to be.. get married have some kids and my life would be complete. But they said this morning they knew last month it had been changed to terminal.. Did they tell you is that why you came back suddenly?" I say suddenly not trusting what others says.

"I had no idea, actually I lied to my parents they were expecting to come back but I lied about the time line wanting to surprise them as well. But trust me if I had known I'd of been here way before Sids birthday like I had planned it to surprise everyone" Sienna says and I know she is telling the truth she wouldn't wait out until a birthday to return had she known.

"Okay" I say not knowing what else to say anymore.

"Right, so a brain tumour is what we are working with is it?" Sienna asks looking at me all seriously now.

"Yeah, apparently terminal now" I say trying to gulp back the tears.

"Okay, then no matter what happens we will get through it all together like we always do. First up you need to eat" Sienna says looking at me with don't even argue ut back with me your eating look.

Then she turns to everyone else as she says "And the rest of you boys thought getting drunk was the answer. Harry you own a nightclub you see first hand how drink can turn people into a acholics. Sid really you should of done better. Charlie you to. now fill up all your plates and start eating I want full belly by the time I get back. I'm going to see Amy" Sienna says then she looks at me and hugs me tightly as she whispers "We will talk more soon. Once you have eaten" with that she stands up and walks off inside I watch until Sienna is out of my sight.

"I don't see people filling there plates do I have to go tell Sienna?" Sue says and with that everyone starts filling up plates whilst I wait for them to get there picks first I sit there taking in the fact that Sienna appeared. She actually appeared.

"Here, all your fravotes" Sue says passing me a plate of food.

"Thanks" I say taking the plate from her.

I then feel a gand patting my shoulder and I turn my head to see my dad has been stood behind me for god knows how long I've no idea. I can see he was crying as well so I pat his hand back in an unspoken acknowledgement that we are both okay.