Tempted Heart (FREE TO READ)

Kabanata 18

KABANATA 18

ILANG ulit na akong nagpabalik balik sa banyo, kanina pa. Maybe, a hundred times if I exaggerated it so much. But with my state right now, I think I’m about to pass out. Tumigil ako sa paglalakad at mabilis na umupo sa kama habang nanlalamig ang aking mga kamay. Pabilis na pabilis ang t***k ng puso at sa hindi inasahang pagkakataon ay mas lalong nagsituluan ang ilang butil ng pawis sa noo ko.

Plus, I’m worried because until now, I haven’t contacted yet Tito Claudio and Tita Daniela. Alam kong nag-aalala na sila sa akin. It is almost been a week already. Achilles still doesn’t give me my phone and luggage.

I’m certain! I am absolutely doing this, no matter what happened. Baliw na kung baliw pero kung wala akong gagawin, hinding hindi ako makakaalis dito.

“Ayyyy!” Napatili ako ng wala sa oras ng bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto. I saw Achilles immediately on my vision. His dark and rugged face immediately came into a view.

I bite my lips nervously when he arched his brows on me when he saw my face. His expression is telling me like I did something wrong. His wearing a white V-neck tshirt and loose maong navy pants. All in all he really looks good. He crossed his arms over his chest and leaned on the wall near the bed and looked at me intently.

“What happened?” He asked me with his cold voice.

I was about to say my plans to him but something was stopping me. Umiling na lang ako sa kanya at nagbaba na lamang ng tingin. I can’t seems to voice it out right now. Natatakot ako at parang ayaw ko nalang ituloy.

“What is it, baby?” I heard him sigh.

I felt him moved and walked close to me. With a heavy footstep, he immediately sits beside me. Umamba akong aalis pero hindi niya ako hinayaan. Hinapit niya ang beywang ko at mahigpit akong niyakap mula sa aking likod. He then smoothly placed his jaw on my shoulders which makes my heart jumped a thousand times.

“What’s wrong, hmm?” He whispered. Nag-init ang mukha ko ng maramdamang ang hininga niya sa leeg ko. Nakakakiliti. I felt so uncomfortable and I felt this tingling sensation on my stomach too.

I sighed to ease the tension.

“N-nothing..” I stuttered.

He chuckled lightly. Humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin kaya napabuntong hininga na naman ako ulit.

“Spill it already, Braises. I already knew your face when you are lying.” He stated firmly.

I gasped. I’m already lost of words. His presence itself makes my words lost to oblivion.

Pilit akong kumakalas sa pagkakayakap sa kanya pero hindi niya talaga ako binitiwan kahit pa sumubok na ako ng ilang ulit.

“C-can you atleast let me go?” I stuttered.

Umiling siya sa balikat ko.

“Achilles..” I called him when his lips touch my shoulder blades. He is really shameless and cocky.

I gasped again when I felt his hand on my under boob.

“You are getting too far, Achilles.” I warned him with a heavy voice.

Naging malikot na ang kamay niya at pati ang hininga niya sa aking taenga ay bumibigat na rin. The urge to control my own breath was like a control bottom for him. That if I start to give up, he might not give me a chance to protest anymore. I expected more from a man of his reputation. And the way he handles me, it makes my cheeks burn in unexplainable desire and pleasure.

Tumikhim siya ng napakalalim. He sighed heavily.

“I know, I’m sorry.” He stilled. “Where are we again?” Tanong niya ulit sa akin.

I’m loss of words again.

“I…I…” I bite my lips.

Tumigil ang haplos niya sa aking beywang ng maramdaman niya ang aking pag-aalinlangan.

Hinuli niya ang kamay ko at panga ko, pilit na pinapaharap sa kanya.

“May problema ba tayo, Bree?” His tone is hard and I can’t stand it anymore.

Masiyadong naapektuhan niya ang lahat sa akin. Ang paghinga ko, kilos ko at pati ang pag-iisip ko ay nagiging imbalido. The more I stay with him, the more I become immobile. In my case right now in contrast with him, well, if I might point out, this does look him very dignified, bringing out his dashing side.

“Uhmm…” Hindi mapirmi ang mata ko ng hinawakan niya ang panga ko at mabilis itong inaangat.

He chuckled. I looked at him immediately.

He licked his lips.

Napunta ang tingin ko doon.

My heart beats louder.

“Do you know how cute you are when you cringed that nose of yours?” He said and pinched my nose lightly.

Napatatda ako sa sinabi niya. I never knew that I made that kind of face. Am I that too light headed right now?

He smiled again making me stilled and rooted in my place.

I felt so lonely while seeing him smile again. Maraming taon na ang lumipas at ngayon ko lang napagtagpi-tagpi ang lahat. Na kahit anong galit na nararamdaman ko sa kanya ay kaya niyong higitan ng pag-ibig ko para sa kanya. I thought I can replace what love I have for him by hating him, but all were just lost.

Am I that really in love with him? That even hating him was never been my option?

I have my reasons why I hated him. He deserves my anger and I deserve my peace. Lahat ng iyon ay ang gusto kong sabihin sa kanya. After all, I must have believed in something more powerful and precious than love and that is self-respect. We all have that, even the worst of us.

“I’m ready, Achilles.” Pikit kong matang sabi sa kanya kahit sa nanginginig kong labi.

There is always a thin line between us. I am holding on that line. My love is powerful that I can forgive him but my vulnerability was just like the King’s power in chess. I’m the most valued but at the same time useless and invalid.

Natigil siya sa ginawang paghaplos sa akin at tiningnan ako ng madilim.

“Don’t temp me, Bree. Don’t tempt me.” Madiin niyang sabi sa akin habang mas inilapit pa ang kanyang katawan sa akin.

Umiling ako. “I’m not tempting you. I want this.” I almost stuttered but I refrained my strength.

I saw him gulped. Balisa ang kanyang mga mata at mabilis na umalis sa tabi ko. He muttered some curses. He looks problematic and bothered after I said that.

Bumaling siya sa akin.

“You are not ready!”

Napapitlag ako sa sinabi niya.

Pumikit ako ng mariin at nagbukas ulit ng mata.

“W--who says I’m not r--ready?” Damn! I stuttered.

He smirked. Nakapameywang siyang nakatayo sa aking harap.

“Damn! Did you really think severely about this?” He advanced on me.

Napakurap kurap ako sa kanya. “Of course, I did! I wouldn’t have offered this if I haven’t, have I?”

Umiling iling siya.

“No!” He said in a high tone, almost makes me tremble. “This is nonsense..”

My heart ached painfully at what he said.

“Hindi ako nagbibiro, Achilles. I’m sure at what I said and I mean it!”

Suplado niya akong tinitigan habang tumaas ang isa niyang kilay.

“What is your purpose in doing this?” He asked.

Bumuntong hininga ako.

“I have to go home. I…I have. I mean, I have matters to deal with my own too, Achilles. Ilang araw na akong nandito at alam kong nag-aalala na sila Tito—“

I was halted when he stopped me.

“I already contacted them.”

Napahinto ako.

“Ano?! Paano?”

“I can’t tell you.”

Tumayo ako ng mabilis.

“This is bullshit! You always lied to me!” Halos gusto ko nang maiyak sa galit at pagkadismaya sa kanya. "You always made me confused! Everytime I see your eyes, I felt like you are lying and then again after a moment..."

Namilog ng bahagya ang mata niya sa sinabi ko. He tried to advance to me pero pinigilan ko siya.

“Baby...” He called me, trying to touch me but I didn’t let him.

Ang boses niya ay nagsusumamo pero hindi ako nagpadala. He have all what I have left. Lupa namin, lahat ng ari arian ni Tito Claudio na hindi ko alam kong saan o kung paano niya nakuha ang mahahalagang dokumentong iyon. Kung wala akong gagawin, wala akong mukhang maihaharap sa kanila dahil lahat ng pinaghirapan nila ay nawala lang ng dahil sa akin.

Agad akong nagpababa ng galit. Ayaw kong makita niyang masiyado akong naapektuhan. Ayaw kong makita niya na kaya kong manghina sa harap niya kahit alam kong alam na niya ang parte na iyon.

“You are not ready. Please... I don’t want to talk about this again.” Mahinahon niyang sabi sa akin.

Mabilis ko siyang tinalikuran. Mabigat ang dibdib kong tinanaw ang babasaging bintana. The transparent windows reflect the green leaves from a tree nearby, which makes me calm down a bit. Green is really my lucky color. It calms me in a way no one can, even Achilles.

Hindi ako nagsalita.

“Bree...”

No!

“Okay.” He sighed.

“I’ll leave you for now. We’ll talk again later.” Mahinang sabi niya.

Hindi ko siya nilingon pa. I heard his footsteps and then the door open and close once again. A lone tear escaped through my eyes. You see, I can blast out my anger into the sky with total impunity but I choose not because I know the time will come and I’ll tell him the truth and he will tell me his.

Does he think he have the monopoly on loss?

Well, I have. My mother died. At hindi ko alam kong ano ang gagawin ko sa panahong iyon. I’ve made a lot of sacrifices. Made a lot of hard choices. For love, for friends, and anything. What I learned? Hard choices and sacrifices don’t keep you warm at night. Akala ko may progreso na ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko sa pagpapatheraphy pero….pero wala, wala pa rin. Life is too damn short and too damn long to go through without someone at your side.

It was really painful, so painful..

Kaya kahit gusto ko mang gawin ito para sa sarili ko ay hindi ko na kaya pa. I was selfish years ago and I will never do the same mistake again. Who knows, if he just do this for revenge? I have to protect what Tito Claudio have.

I have to do this!

Surrendering myself to him is the only way. No argument needed.

I just have to be strong.

Wala akong inaksayang panahon, mabilis akong naligo at inihanda ang katawan. This time, I will trap him. He can’t never say no to me, anymore. Lahat ng linis sa katawan ay ginawa ko na. Pagkatapos kong makapagbihis ay madali akong lumabas ng kwarto at hinanap siya.

“Where’s Achilles, Bayard?” Tanong ko sa isa sa mga tauhan niya. We actually have the same age. Well, all of his men were handsome and has a great built. I wonder why what job do they really have.

Magalang itong yumuko sa akin at ngumiti.

“Nandoon po sa dagat, Ma’am.”

Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya.

“Ilang oras na siya doon?”

Napangiwi siya sa tanong ko.

“Simula pa po noong lumabas sa kwarto ninyo si Sir.”

Namilog ang mata ko. The night might be young but I know it’s dangerous to be alone out there.

“Sige. Salamat.” Nakangiti kong saad sa kanila.

Yumuko siya ulit. “Walang anuman, Ma’am.”

Sa tuwing tinatawag nila ako ng ganiyan ay napapailing na lang ako. I wanted to correct them but I choose not to. Achilles might know it. At baka sisisantihin na naman niya ang mga tauhan niyang nakausap ko.

I immediately go to the shore nearby. Malamig ang hangin kaya napapayakap ako sa sarili nang umihip ng malakas. When I reached the sea, I saw no one. Mabilis akong umupo sa buhanginan at madamdaming tinatanaw ang malinaw na dagat kahit man madilim na ay nababanaag ko pa rin.

“What are you wearing?!” A voiced boomed in the middle of my wishful thinking.

Nilingon ko ang nagmamay-ari ng boses na iyon. Achilles with his sizzling body came into my view. What? Sizzling? Really, Bree? Old school!

Okay. He’s handsome. Blah…blah..

He’s topless again and with a maong pants hang lazily on his hips revealing his V-built near his abdomen. Plus, I saw him yesterday having a combat with his men. Four against him. And I can see, he’s really good in martial arts. Hindi man lamang siya napuruhan ng kahit kaunti.

He’s really out of my league.

Basa na ang kanyang buhok at damit.

“What do you think you’re wearing, Bree?!” Nagtitimping niyang saad habang papalapit sa akin.

He roughly brushes his hair and lazily put his shirt on his shoulder like a bad ass construction worker.

Tinungo ko ang suot ko.

“A sleeping wear?” Mahina kong sagot sa kanya habang nakalahad ang kamay ko sa kanya.

Umigting ang panga niya sa sinabi ko. I saw his fist knotted firmly.

“Are you trying my patience, Braises?” He whispered.

Napalunok ako. Kinakabahan man ay hindi ako nagbaba ng tingin.

I am desperate and I need this high spirit of mine right now or else I will be having a hard time winning this moment again. I felt it, it’s circling in my hands.

“Why? Did I…already?” Malambing kong tanong pabalik sa kanya.

I saw him trying to breathe normally and looked at my body again. I’m actually wearing a very sexy lingerie hugging every corner of my body. I wore a robe, of course, before going out. Pero hinubad ko ito ulit ng makarating ako dito.

Mabilis ang kilos niyang kinuha ang robe na nasa gilid ko.

“Get up!” He mercilessly said at me.

Mabilis niyang naisuot ang roba sa aking katawan habang salubong ang kanyang makakapal na kilay na nakatingin lamang sa mukha ko. Pagkatapos ay madali niyang kinuha ang kamay ko at mabilis ang lakad na hinigit niya ako palayo doon.

“Damn, woman! What a temptress...” I heard him muttered.

Humigpit pa lalo ang hawak niya sa akin kaya halos matalisod ako ng makatapak ako ng bato doon.

“f**k!” Aniya ng makita akong muntik ng madapa.

Mabilis niya akong nabuhat ng walang kahirap hirap. Namilog ang mata ko sa kanyang ginawa.

“A-achilles…W-what do you think you’re doing? Bakit ba tayo nagmamadali?” Tanong ko habang buhat niya ako.

His raging breathes reached my neck.

“Shut up! This is your fault.”

“Ano? How is this became my fault?”

Marahas niya akong nilingon at halos mapaso ako sa mga titig niyang mala-apoy. I know his mad. Mabilis ang bawat lakad niya. At wala pang limang minuto ay mabilis naming narrating ang kwarto namin.

He immediately bring me down and scoop my body again. He situated me in our large bed.

“Don’t you dare walked out of this room.” He ordered me coldly.

Tumayo siya at mabilis na pumunta sa banyo. Ilang minuto pa ay lumabas siya ulit. Wearing only a thin towel covering his lower abdomen, I almost wanted to jump out of bed. He really looks like Brad Pitt in a movie named Troy, the great warrior in Greece. His eyes immediately caught mine. Hindi niya ako nilubayan ng titig hanggang sa hindi ko na nakayanan at ako na mismo ang nagbaba ng akin. I can’t stand watching him, wearing only like that.

Tahimik lang ako habang pinakikinggan ang bawat yabag niya. I prayed silently that this will be over soon.

“Can’t get your tongue, eh?” He sneered at me suddenly.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.

“Sagutin mo ang tanong ko.” He closed his eyed and when he opened it I think I just lost my sanity.

I saw him holding a glass of wine. His red lips were a bit parted while he leaned closer to the wooden table. His every breath inspire fire beneath us.

He glanced at me again.

I can’t say a word.

“I still…”

He arched his brows.

“Still what?!” He mercilessly asked me.

I can’t find my words.

I’m hopeless.

Akmang tatalikuran niya ako ulit pero hindi ko siya hinayaan, With all the courage I have left, I immediately approached him.

“What the---“ Hindi ko na siya pinatapos pa sa kanyang sasabihin at basta ko nalang siyang sinunggaban ng halik.

For a moment, I felt like I lost myself. His lips against mine, makes my heartbeats throwing a fit like crazy. Masakit ang bawat pintig at wala na akong lakas pa. He looks shocked when I withdrew the kiss.

Madilim niya akong tinignan.

“That’s it!” He surrendered.

“I don’t care anymore.” His husky voice said. “I’m gonna have you tonight.”

Mabilis niya akong inangat at inilapag sa kama. Wala siyang inaksayang panahon at mabilis akong hinalikan sa labi ng walang pag-aalinlangan. Napasinghap ako ng madali siyang pumatong sa akin at inihiga ako sa kama.

“Oh!” I exclaimed when I felt his large rough hand surround my boobs.

His kisses were rough and not even gentle. Nahirapan akong sabayan siya lalo pa at wala akong karanasan sa bagay na ito. Dagdagan pa na naging malikot na ang kanyang kamay ay hindi ko na talaga alam kong ano ang gagawin.

“Open your mouth, my Bree.” He whispered sensually.

With a flushed face, I can’t stare at him directly.

“W-what?” Hindi ko alam kong ano ang gagawin.

His lips was a little bit parted and my mind was disheveled. Quickly, without further discussion, I heard him groaned. He lowered his face again and kissed me savagely. Every swayed of his lips felts like I’m in the air, floating like a bird. Mababaliw ako at mas lalong nag-iinit ang katawan ko ng tanggalin niya ang mga damit ko.

That fast? Hindi ko man lang napansin na wala na akong damit.

I saw him stopped when he saw my body.

“f**k!” He cursed, while his face was red.

I groaned in protest when I tried to hold my arms against my breast. His strong and gentle hands began to stroke me, his hands, his lips, his tongue.

“Uh-uh. No hiding from me again, wife. Not anymore.”

“Achilles… N-no” I almost shout when he lowered his head and capture my boob by his lips.

Damn it!

Halos gusto kong iatras ang lahat ng emosiyon ko dahil sa pagpipigil ko sa hindi malamang sensasiyong nararamdaman ko ngayon.

“Akin ka ngayong gabi.” He whispered like a mad king.

He leaned closer.

“Say it, Bree…” He took my n****e in his mouth and cradled my other breast in his calloused palm. “Say it, baby.”

Achilles slid further down, introducing hisself to the rest of my body which I know I can’t, I’m too blinded by the pleasure that I can’t stand seeing him while doing that in my body. His lips grace down to my neck, n*****s, and my stomach. Sipping every last draw of my being.

I don’t know how to respond.

Mas lalo akong nahibang ng ilang ulit niyang pinasadahan ng halik ang katawan ko.

“f**k, baby. You will be the death of me.” Mahina niyang bulong sa akin.

“Oh!” I moaned when I can’t take the pleasure anymore. Halos dumugo ang labi ko na kahit iyon ay sigurado kong namamaga na dahil sa mapusok naming halikan kanina.

I leaned back. At some point I opened my eyes and saw him watching me with so much passion and desired in his eyes. How could I have known what a terrible mistake I was making? Kung ngayon pa lang ang naiisip ko lamang ay ang maganda at masarap na sensasiyong binibigay niya sa akin.

“No, Achilles! No!” I protested when he lower down his head on my feminity.

“Stay still, Braises. I have to eat and taste you.” His firmed voice came like a hungry predator.

What? Eat me? What the…

“Don’t you even dare stop me.” His thundered voice echoed across the room.

Full on my startled lips, I felt Achilles tongue on my flesh, gently, then with increasing pressure. Madali kong nahagip ang unan ng maramdaman ulit ang mga labi niya doon. Umangat ang ulo ko at mas lalo akong muntik nang mahimatay ng makita siya. Inaabot ko ang buhok niya at pilit siyang inaahon pero hindi ko alam kung saan napunta ang lahat ng lakas ko ng hindi ko siya nadala. My throat are dried too.

Napapikit ako ulit at mas lalo akong napasigaw dahil sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na damdamin. My eyes were close tightly while I felt like I have to push something out of my system. My energy was about to burst out.

Shit!

I don’t imagine him doing this on me. With my knees parted so wide, I can’t help to moan.

“Ah!” I arched my back when I felt him slide his whole tongue on me. I don’t know how long he’s been kissing me down there but I felt like I’m about to pass out. The pleasure was too much that I wanted to explode this instant.

“No.” Habol hininga kong saad sa kanya.

As Achilles, rising up with a bewildered look, his muscular body clenched like its controlling something. Hinaplos niya ang pisngi ko. And I swear, I looked like a mess, maybe, right now.

“This is finally happening, Bree. You are finally mine.” He said and that’s when I felt his large cargo on my lower abdomen.

He is heavy and big.

Gusto ko mang mag-angat pero hindi na kaya ng katawan ko.

“I-I can’t.” Hindi ko matapos.

I heard him chuckled and planted a soft kiss on my lips.

“My poor baby has run out her energy, huh?” His teasing voice said.

Hindi na ako sumagot pa at mas kumapit pa sa kanya dahil sa kahihiyan. Kung magsasatinig pa ako ng pahayag ay baka mas lalo ko pang ipagkanulo ang sarili ko kaya huwag na lang.

He leaned closer to me.

“It’s time, baby.” He said and I felt him on my entrance slightly gliding its way in on me.

He growled when he felt my grind.

What does he expect? I’m still clouded with the desire he give me, of course. At wala na rin ako sa tamang katinuan kung iyon ang dapat na tawag sa pagkakakilanlan ko sa sitwasiyong ito.

I only nodded and held to his arms tightly.

Hindi pa ako nakakahinga ng maayos ng marahas siyang umabante papasok sa akin. Agad nalukot ang mukha ko dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman.

“Aww!” I screamed. I dugged my nails deeper on him.

He groaned like he’s the one in pain.

“I’m sorry, baby. But I have to finish this fast so you don’t have to feel the pain anymore.”

I don’t really believe that he doesn’t have experience yet.

Wala ako sa sariling tumango kahit masakit na masakit pa rin. He’s not even half way there yet.

He advanced again, this time, it’s too deep.

“N-noo! Awww...” I screamed again.

I felt like I saw stars beneath my eyes.

“Awwww… S-stopp.”

Is it really like this on every girl’s first time?

“I--It h--hurts..”

I felt him tap my cheeks lightly when he saw me closed my eyes.

“Baby?”

“Bree?”

I can’t.. The pain is too much.

“Braises?”

The last thing I heard from him before I lost myself in the darkness.