The Lycan King's Hybrid Mate

Chapter Ten

Dimitri went to take a shower, so I settled in bed and looked for something to watch. I kept thinking about what D had said and the last thing I wanted was to make it hard for anyone or even painful. It was too embarrassing to talk to my mom about s*x, but I knew someone I could talk to about it. I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom, " Hey D. I need to go talk to Willow. I will be back in a bit." I said." Okay, I will see you when you get back." Said Dimitri. I left the room and quickly walked two doors down and knocked on the door. " Hey girl, what are you doing here?" asked Willow." I was wondering if we could talk for a minute." I said. She opened the door and I stepped inside. " Is this chocolate kinda talk or is it a popcorn kinda talk?" asked Willow. "You know me oh so well. I'm going to say it's both a kind of talk." I said, snapping in all kinds of snacks. "I know something is on your mind, so, spill." said Willow. " Lately I have been thinking about my relationship with D. With this party happening tomorrow, my dad invited the whole pack including all the unmated males and females. And right now I'm afraid of what will happen with me when one of those single she wolves starts throwing herself at my mate. Even Alex hates it, the last thing I want to do is hurt someone. I also know just how desperate men can be and well, Dimitri is already very possessive of me, so that presents another problem. I can't be rude to the members of my father's pack, but I also can't put them at risk either." I said, trying to figure out how I wanted to ask the questions I really came in here for, but I was being a big fat chicken, and I felt kind of stupid. " Ok, yeah that sounds like a really bad idea, what options do you have?" asked Willow. " Well my first option was to just mark eachother and then wait for the rest when we get settled into the palace, far far away from my parents. When I asked him about it today, he said it was possible but didn't go into detail until just before I came to talk to you. Apparently, males can sometimes lose control out of jealously and mark their mates that way. That isn't ideal for anyone. Marking is supposed during s*x right when you reach your peak, being in that state of euphoria allows the bond to become complete. My problem is, I have never had s*x before. How did you know you were ready to show someone those parts of you?" I asked.

" Damn girl, no wonder your so stressed, that's a lot to handle on your own. Honestly, I don't think I was ever actually ready. It just sort of happened. It was honestly horrible, the guy was a jerk and it turned out he had a bet with friends. His friends slept with Katie and Vivian. After that, I didn't do it again for a while until I started dating Leo. I kept thinking really dirty thoughts about him and started having urges to touch him. I finally talked to him about taking our relationship to the next step and he agreed and that time it was amazing. Are you feeling those kind of urges when you are with Dimirtir?" asked Willow.

" After I shifted the first time, it was like all I could think about was s*x, granted I kept that to myself. Alex told me the urges to mate weren't there before, because she hadn't fully come forward yet. So when she did, it all made sense. I wanted to act on my feelings, but one, it's hard when your parents are right down the hall. And two I get inside my own damn head about it and then chicken out basically. I was talking to mom earlier and told her I wished I had been more care free in school, but then I wouldn't have been me." I said.

" I'm glad that you weren't more like everyone else. You were true to yourself and I honestly wish I could have done the same. I did a lot of things for the wrong reasons and now I have to fix the messes I made. I see the way you look at your man and I see the way he looks at you. My advice to you is enjoy what you have and talk to him about how you're feeling and make a plan together. If he loves you like I think he does, then you have nothing to worry about. So get out of here and go talk to your man. I love you Scarlett and I'm proud of you." said Willow, pulling me into a hug.

I thanked her and went to talk to D about everything. When I got back to our room, I found him eating popcorn and watching a movie. " Hey babe, did you have fun talking to Willow?" asked Dimitri." I did, and I think I know what my problem is about completing our bond." I said.

" It's OK to talk to me about what you're feeling. So let's talk about how we can fix this?" asked Dimtri.

" The short version is when I started to focus on my future I made a plan. At that time, I was only a witch, so my plans just revolved around learning my spells and any other teacher my mom decided to teach that day. I started to excel in everything I was doing and the pride I saw in my mom made me work even harder. I set a plan in motion that I would graduate with a full-ride scholarship. The problem was I never expected everything in my life to go poof, guess what! When I realized I had a wolf, everything at that moment changed and my dad came back into our lives and then I met you. It all happened so fast that I never stopped to actually think about everything. So, after you left my room yesterday, I figured out why I've been so hesitant about completing our bond and becoming a princess. I've lived my life by that plan in my head that I've shared with no one until now. You came along and changed everything about my plan and it scared me, so by keeping my virtue still intact, I felt like I was still in control and my plan was still in motion. Yet my plan has truly been long gone and I'm learning to be OK with that. As for becoming a Princess, I don't want to lose who I am and become someone totally different. I want to find myself again now that everything about my life is in the open. I want to find the girl I used to be a little care free and a bit wild. This person standing before you isn't who I am. It is who I became to fit in and not stand out because of fear that my heritage was what would get me killed.

" My love, that is a lot to carry around for so long. I'm happy to help you find the person you are and it is alright to stray from your plans, because they can always change. I understand, given your situation at the time, you didn't think so much change was possible and I am truly impressed that you have held it together as long as you have. You have handled everything that has been thrown at you with grace and you taken everything in stride. I know what it's like to have a plan. After my father was kidnapped and my mom had the block placed. I lived every day with a plan up until I was old enough to realize planning everything right down to brushing my teeth and going to bed wasn't really a way for me to live. When I went off to school I learned what worked for me and what didn't. So we will do the same for you as well. If I plan is what you need, then we can figure out how to make one. As for losing yourself, I promise I won't let that happen. Not to mention, we won't be taking over the Throne for a very long time. We have time to just be us and to do the things we want as well as doing our duties and prince and princess. As for everything else, let's just live for the day and for each other. As for completing the bond, just know I am ready when you are." Said Dimitri.

" I truly feel better getting everything off my chest. I hadn't realized the toll it was starting to take on me. I don't want to live my plans anymore, I just want to live life like you said and what ever comes, comes. And as for being ready, I am probably more ready than I realized. I want nothing more than to bare your mark, showing the whole world I am yours, as well as them seeing that your mine in every way. Just not sure I want it to happen with so many people staying under the same roof."

Dimitri started to laugh. " Funny that you mention that. When I left this morning for the hospital, I overheard your parents talking about how they were thankful for the sound-proofed rooms. I tried to sneak out before they noticed me, but there was no such luck, so I decided to ask your dad if all the rooms were sound-proofed or certain ones. He explained that all the rooms were built that way for two purposes. One was for mates to have privacy and for if mates had pups. Anyone who lived in the pack house was able to get a good night's sleep without being disturbed.

" I'm glad that was a conversation I missed. But that is a good idea for a pack house. I bet they can get really loud and make it hard for a pup to nap with out the sound-proofing." I said, changing into my pj's.

Dimitri was already in basketball shorts and no shirt. I slipped into bed and laid my head on his chest and drifted off to sleep.