Alpha: The story of Eva

Chapter 5

   Chapter 5

         She looked up, as she heard him groan then noticed he was trying to get up but he nearly fell off the couch. She hopped off the cabinet as she walked over as she grabbed his arm as she helped him sit back down on the couch. She felt him tighten up right when she touched him, not even needing to hear the words she knew already he remembered what he saw last night; especially her.

         Not saying anything, she helped him back as he sat back on her couch and she went back to the kitchen as she filled the two mugs of coffee as well as grabbing another bag of frozen vegetables from her freezer and walked back into the living room. She sat the mug of coffee and frozen peas on the table in front of him as she walked over and sat in the recliner near the couch as she took a sip of the coffee as she stayed quiet.

         “Thanks,” was the only word he said for a while as he put the bag of frozen veggies on the back of his head and then he took a couple of drinks of the coffee from the mug.

         After a while the silence between the both of them was so silent you could cut it with a damn knife. She couldn’t really expect anything less from the guy, the only monsters he’s ever seen are the ones on a movie screen or on the tv.

         “One question and don’t lie to me like I’m some god damn i***t, ok,” he says with a bit of annoyance in his voice and in all honesty the guy had the right to be agitated his life was tinted with rose-colored glasses and now they’ve been shattered and the real reality has just been shoved right in his face.

         “Last night,” he says, “What I saw…..The fangs….the eyes….your eyes….all of that was real wasn’t it and don’t say my head is scrambled from getting knocked out. I know what I saw last night.”

         She held the warm cup of coffee in both hands as she looked down at the half filled cup of coffee as she went quiet for a few moments before she says, “No, what you saw last night was real….it’s why I’ve been trying to keep you away from me.”

         “That’s the reason for those ridiculous rules you gave me…..didn’t you,” he spoke as he looked to her and she could feel his eyes on her but at the moment for some reason she didn’t have the confidence to look up just yet.

         “Yeah….,” She said simply as she took another drink from the mug.

         “Yeah….is that all you can say to me,” he spoke out to her.

         “Listen….I’m not going to apologize for anything…..I told you the first day you should of got yourself reassigned to someone else….hell to get yourself transferred to a different station because it would have been safer for you,” she spoke as she looked up to him.

         “I never wanted you to get hurt….hell I never wanted you to have to see what this world was really like,” she says, “Your a good guy, that deserves to stay in the light of things….not in the darkness like the rest of us….were monsters Conner…not humans.”

         “Why the hell did you keep this all from me,” he asked her.

         “Because…..because….for once in my life I started to care about something and it scared the living s**t of me,” she says, “I didn’t want you to get close…..I don’t want anyone to get close to me because I cant lose anyone else. Do you even understand that? I’ve had two people in my life die that mean’t the world to me….a friend I thought of like a brother and a man….that took a child in that wasn’t even his own blood….his problem but took in none the less. He gave me all the love I could ever ask for and when I lost him my heart shattered in a million pieces and there is no way to fix it.”

         She spoke as a few tears slid down her cheek as she didn’t even think she could ever shed tears again especially when she lost her dad. She wiped a few of the tears away with the back of her hand as she spoke, “I shouldn’t care about you but for some reason I do and that scares me more then anything because I can’t cry anymore for anybody else. If I’m going to be alone I would rather be alone completely then bring another person into my life again just to have them die or walk out and leave me alone again.”

         “Eva…I…..

         “Don’t worry…I’ll understand if you want to get reassigned to a different department so you can forget about everything you saw. Hell any sane person would,” she spoke with a self-degrading laugh as she turned her gaze to the side as she looked out the window. 

         “Jesus….why do you always have to be so damn stubborn about things,” he says, “Why do you automatically think I’m going to walk away and leave you just because I found out the truth.”

         “What,” she spoke as she was slightly shocked as she looked at him.

         “You heard me,” he says as he laid the mug on the table and put the bag on top of his as well.

         “Listen, yeah my head is a little confused about all of this but it was never confused about you,” he says, “We’re partners Eva, I’m not leaving you like this. So what you’re like a what….wolf or something.”

         She couldn’t help as she stared at him and he looked at her; she couldn’t help as she just busted out laughing and it had been so long since she laughed so hard it brought her to tears. He even started to laugh and after a few moments, she catches her breath and he smiles at her. 

         “Wolf or something,” she says with a smile as she chuckle slightly as she says, “And before you even ask don’t pull any movie thoughts out of your head. Those are full on bullshit tales….well except silver….pure silver. It doesn’t kill us but we are highly allergic to it and it slows are healing process down….well it also hurts like a real b***h if were cut by it too.”

         “Wait, you can heal,” he says slightly taken back as he looks to her and she raises her top up slightly to show her bare stomach where the stitches would have been but a slight discoloration of the skin and that was it.

         “Yeah, what takes you humans a week for a cut or months for snapped bones to heal,” she says, “Minutes and days for us but its different for all breeds.”

         “There’s more breeds,” he asked.

         “Conner I’m going to ask you one more time and I want you to really think

 hard before you answer….do you really wanna walk down this road,” she says, “Once you open your eyes and I mean really open your eyes to everything; things are a lot different, more bloody and violent. It’s a road, you can’t come back from once you start down it. Are you sure you really wanna know, the other side so to speak?”

         “Today’s our day off right,” he asked her.

         “Yeah,” she tells him.

         “There more coffee,” he asked her.

         “Yeah,” she says to him.

         “Fill my cup. Get your ass back over here and let’s here it,” he says to her as he holds his cup to her.

         “Don’t push your luck rookie,” she says as she gets up and grabs his cup as she walks back into the kitchen as she pours him another cup of coffee and walks back over and hands it to him.

         “Alright so….let’s start off with the basic questions,” she says, “What do you want to know about my type?”

         “Well,” he says as he takes a drink as she sits on the edge of the table in front of him. “Your eyes….they looked like wolf eyes. Are you some kind of shifter or I don’t know were-wolf or something like that?”

         “Ok, forget whatever you’ve read, seen on tv and please don’t get me started on the movies about this stuff. Its all a bunch of over done bull s**t,” she tells him. “There are two types of my species at least of the wolf kind. There are lycan’s and were-wolves, I’m a Lycan….a human like form that can transform when I want and I’m in control of myself. Werewolves, their humans that have been turned but when they take their form they have no control over themselves, their completely animalistic. To them their’s only meat and the hunt, that’s all their animal brain thinks of….all they are.”

         “Holy s**t,” he says as he looks to her.

         “Ok, hit me with the next one,” she spoke as she looked up to him when she said it.

         “You can transform,” he says, “What’s it like?”

         She sighed slightly as she says, “My first transformation was when I was six, it was extremely painful and unbearable. In all honesty I thought I was dying but I was lucky enough to have dad helped me through it. He took me out to a cabin outside of town that he owns when he knew my time was coming for my first change. It wasn’t only for my safety but for others as well. In our first transformation it can be pretty wild, our wolf brain takes over our first change as well as our pain receptor….it can get pretty intense. Now though, I can go through the change back and fourth like its nothing. There’s no pain or anything to it now.”

         “f**k me sideways,” he says as he looks to her and he says something to her she never thought she would ever hear. “Your amazing,” he tells her.

         “What,” she spoke.

         “Your amazing Eva,” he says as he looks to her. “I mean….your just amazing.”

         “Now I know you really hit your head to hard,” she told him as she went to get up but he grabbed her wrist and tugged her slightly to sit back down on the table.

         “Yeah I hit my head but I thought you were great before I knew all this,” he says, “Now that your being honest I can be honest to and tell you the first time I met you I thought you were amazing. And no its not the whole were-wolf, s**t. You’ve dealt with all this stuff and you’ve turned out to be an amazing cop.”

         “The sentiment of yours is nice but your eyes are just wearing the rose tinted glasses of what our world can really be like,” she says as she looks to the floor and then to him.

         “You don’t know how much of a Pandora’s box you really have released on yourself,” she says, “Human’s think we’re just a fairy tale on the screen but were very real. There’s different species of were’s, shifters, warlocks and witches, demons, decays….hell the list goes on and on.”

         “Decays,” he repeated as she could tell he was confused by the term.

         “It’s what we call ghouls, zombie like types,” she says, “Decays is a lot better then saying Zombies….honestly the word is just f*****g stupid in my book but some i***t in Hollywood came up with the term and well there you go.”

         “So I take it vampires are real to,” he asks her.

         “Yeah, they are but if your thinking about that bram stroker stuff….a stake through the heart, garlic, sun light….yeah only some of that s**t works on them and the rest is just made up,” she says, “Actually some of them really like churches so there not bothered by crosses, the whole garlic thing was from the movies, sunlight they can go into but for only small periods of time. Now the drinking of blood is very real but most have gone to the synthetic stuff or blood labs, that they have bought behind the scenes and own so they can get fed and no humans are hurt. Although on rare occasions, a occasional feral might get loose but that’s a rarity because the vampire community really likes to keep a low profile to blend in with the human community. So if they find out that one of them has gone feral they usually handle it themselves. Dad, myself as well as some others all we want is to integrate along with humans because were tired of the death and bloodshed. I know that’s hard to believe thinking of vampires and werewolves an such. We just want to live our lives just like you guys do.”

         “Your shitting me right about that,” he asked her.

         “Nope,” she says, “You wanted the honest truth and now you got it. It’s your choice what you want to do with it. I should warn you….

         “Don’t tell me there is more,” he spoke.

         “Yeah there’s more different creatures but what I want to really warn you about is there’s hunter’s that are still in practice,” she says, “Most are generations types or have lost a loved one to a creature of the underworld. If they find out any of our kind has family, loved ones….human or not they will torture and kill them to get their prey. They claim were the monsters but if anything they are monsters as much as we are like they love to call us.”

         “Ok, can I ask something stupid,” he asks her.

         “At this point….I’m figuring your head is pretty confused at the moment so ask away,” she spoke.

         “Your dad…since he got you through your transformation he was a Lycan too, right,” he said slightly questionable.

         “Was he a lycan like me, no but he was a were-tiger,” she says, “You wouldn’t think a cat would take a dog in his home but he never even gave it a second thought when he took me in and raised me as his kid. That man was more blood to me then I ever knew what real family ever meant. He made my life so normal somedays I almost thought I actually was human like the rest of you. If I had a soccer game or the science fair to go to, he always made time to make sure he could go and root me on.”

         “Ok….just one more thing and in all honesty you don’t even really have to answer this if you don’t want to….hell you can even punch me in the face if I’m overstepping my bounds asking you this,” he says slightly trying to figure out the words to say something she could easily read on his face what he wanted to know.

         “You want to know why,” she says as she glances to him. “Right?”

         He just nodded as he says, “Eva if that’s to much to ask….I mean you don’t have to answer.”

         “No, it’s ok…it use to hurt talking about it but it doesn’t bother me as much as it use too anymore. In my species of lycan’s….money isn’t the only thing that shows our status so to speak. It’s the color of our coat that really does….kind of like a pedigree thing….I guess kind of like a dog so to speak,” she says, “I’m from a pure blooded line, which is rare because there are only five other families left that has pure blood Lycan running through their….well blood stream. My mother was a white wolf, father was silver and white, my siblings were the same but I’m a black Lycan and that’s not allowed in a high class family. My parents didn’t want that stigma so they did everything to keep me hidden from the other families….even my own siblings hated me. My mother heard about Langstone in our neighborhood and well….here I am.”

         “You gotta be f*****g kidding me right,” he says, “They gave you up just because your fur is black. Jesus, I’m black and I don’t even get that kind of a treatment.”

         “In each species there’s different status of acceptance, money not being the only part….it can be the color of the fur, stripes, fangs, strength,” she says, “It just depends on what you were born. I was lucky to be handed over to one of the grumpiest, meanest son of a bitches of a were-tiger to be my father. If I’m being honest, I couldn’t have been more grateful. He was a good father to me, the best…..I just hope that I will be able to make him as proud of me as I was proud to be his daughter.”

         “Eva….you really are amazing you know that,” he spoke as he look to her with a smile. 

         “Will you stop with the smiling….your making me uncomfortable,” she spoke as she shoved him slightly in the arm and he fell on the side of the couch with a laugh.

         “So….my partner is a Lycan,” he says as he sits up as he looks to her. “That’s pretty damn cool in my book but I prefer the regular b***h Eva I have to deal with instead.”

         “You asshole,” she says out loud with a smirk and pushes him back an when she went to push him again he tugged her against him as she froze up on the spot as she felt his muscular chest underneath her hands.

         “Eva,” he says and he kisses her deeply against the lips an she grasped his shirt as she was unsure of what to do, never being kissed before in her life.

         She gasped slightly at the feel of his tongue as it slid along the lines of her lips and when her lips parted he took the opening as he plundered her mouth deepening the kiss even more. He slipped her arms around his neck as he lowered her back on the couch, the kissed deepened even more when she felt the slight weight of his body on top of her. She didn’t understand why her body was reacting this way but for some reason her body or head didn’t fight what was happening. 

         She couldn’t help as a moan escaped her lips as she felt his warm fingertips glide underneath her shirt across the bare skin of her torso and she clamped her hands over her mouth.

         He smiles as he says, “Eva….you’ve never been with anyone before have you?”

         She didn’t know how to answer that as she pushed him up slightly as she tried to get up but her body wouldn’t move. He grasped her chin as he says, “I’m glad you haven’t. I don’t think I could do this because I probably would have been insanely jealous of the guy you were with.”

         “I don’t…I don’t know…Conner….maybe….you know what I am,” she says as she looks up to him. “Being with me might not be the best idea. Connor….Lycan’s just don’t date…we mate…and that’s are one and only.”

         “i***t, what are you not understanding….do I need to spell it out for you,” he says, “Eva….your amazing, your brave, protective, loyal….I mean I can go on with the list of compliments if you want me to.”

         “Please, don’t,” she says as she covers her eyes in embarrassment and after a moment he pries her hands off her eyes as he says.

         “Look at me, Eva,” he says, “Eva…please look at me.”

         She was hesitant at first but she turned as she looked to him as he leaned down slightly just a few inches from her lips as he says, “Eva…I’m in love with you. Why the hell do you think I want to stick by you and stay as partners….hell why I’m so protective over you. Its because I’m in love with you.”

         “What did you just say,” she says as she looks to him shocked by his words.

         “I’m in love with you,” he says as he looks to her. 

         She pushed him back slightly as she felt her flesh heated up as she got off the couch as quick as she could as she grabbed a pill bottle off her counter and grabbed a bottle of water from her fridge as she down the two pills and took a big swallow of water to get then down. She took another drink of water as she had her back against the wall of the refrigerator as she stood there a few minutes until she heard footsteps and looked to see him in the kitchen.

         “Eva what the hell was that about…,” he says, “What are those?”

         “Suppressants….heat suppressants,” she spoke as her skin was flushed but she hoped the medication would kick in as quickly as possibly. 

         It was the first time she had to take the medicine so she wasn’t sure how long it would take to kick in but she was hoping it was quickly. Her dad didn’t really explain about suppressants until she was a bit older, she told him she never would need them because she would never get close to anyone but he made her promise him to keep a bottle just in case until maybe that special someone crossed her path and they smacked right into her.

         “Listen Connor…..I…..I….

         He walked over towards her but she took a step back because things were getting more confused for her and yet they made sense all at once which made things worse inside of her head.

         “Eva….did I do something wrong,” he asked.

         “No….if anything its me,” she says, “Listen….if what you just said is true….then I need time alright and so do you.”

         “What are you talking about,” he says,”Eva I meant what I said and its not going to change.”

         “The damndest thing is I know your telling the truth but you have only spent a day in my world and I can’t make sense of what I feel unless I know you can walk in this world as well and not walk away afterwards,” she says as she looks to the floor slightly and then looks to him.

         “Connor, I’ve only had two people in my entire life that cared an ounce about me and I loss them both,” she says, “I just can’t walk into something, knowing when things get to much you wont walk away or worse get killed. I need time to process all of this and you need to learn about my world as well.”

         He stayed there a minute as he was leaned back against the wall and then he walked over towards her; slipping his arms around her and holding her tightly against his frame and she was slightly hesitant as she put her arms around his waist as she laid her head slightly against his chest.

         “Ok, I know this isn’t the right time to ask but what the hell are the suppressants you just mentioned you took,” he spoke and she tilted her head up slightly as she couldn’t help as she blushed as she spoke.

         “Well…female shifters can go into heat when their attracted to another and well get you know…..” she spoke to embarrassed to finished the sentence as she hid her face against his chest and after a moment she felt his chest tremble slightly as he began to chuckle.

         She was starting to struggle out of his arms as he says, “Listen….I’m not making fun of you it’s just kind of cute it means your attracted to me to right….otherwise you wouldn’t have to take them in the first place am I right.”

         “Shut up,” she spoke out.

         “I will so take that as a yes,” he says with a smile as he held her tighter.

         “You know if this comes out at work your going to be targeted,” she spoke against his chest and then looked up at him.

         He stayed quiet for a moment and then he says, “I don’t care if it’s other shifters or hell humans. Eva I care for you and nobody is going to change that.”

         “Well there is three dickheads in our district and there shifters, two in our department well the third one he was my first partner,” she says, “He is a real asshole and I mean with a capital Ass…his name is Nathan Alexander. If he says anything to you just walk away, ok?”

         “Alright,” he says, “You got my word, if that’s what you really want I will but if I hear him make a comment about you that’s to far; I can’t promise I won’t put his ass in place shifter or not.”

         She looked up to him and she couldn’t help but smile as she listened to him because even though he didn’t have a chance in hell against him she actually believed him. She could hear it in his tone he was telling the truth and for some reason is brought a bit of calmness to her confused thoughts. 

         “Tonight….I want to take you somewhere,” she says, “Will you come with me?”

         “Where we going,” he asked her.

         “If what you said was true and you really want to be with me….it’s best to start if you can be around others like me,” she spoke.

         “I thought I did that with Angelo’s,” he spoke.

         “Angelo’s is like a safe haven place,” she says, “He allows humans and well anybody in his place but one rule of his is no fighting of any species. Last night was a rarity, he never lets anything like that happen….if anything it was a fluke.”

         “I somehow believe that I don’t take him for the take no s**t type,” he says to her.

         “Angelo is a psychic, he knows when s**t is going to happen….he even said something about you last night,” she spoke. 

         “He did,” he says, “Like what?”

         “That you were in love with me,” she say, “True blue in love with me and I didn’t know….well….how to handle that so I blew it off till now and I still don’t know now but things take time. If what you told me was true and I do believe you, all I ask is if you give me sometime to think.”

         “Your heart needs times to learn again is what your trying to say, right,” he asked her.

         “Yeah,” she spoke to him.

         He slides a few strands of loose hair from her face and slides them behind her ear as he looks to her as he says, “No, bullshit you really are beautiful.”

         She grasped at his shirt as she laid her forehead against his chest as she couldn’t help but blush when he called her that. 

         “That’s going to take some getting use to,” she spoke against his chest and he smiled as he held her tighter and for some reason that made her feel kind of comfortable in a new way.