For You

Bitter Truth

Days gone by weeks and we were there , a week before the day of ECN . The day I am gonna investigate about the truth and I was not as prepared as I expected myself to be.

I managed to ignore the group while being with Dave at the same time . Like right now , where he's holding my hand and talking to me about his family and stuff. I am trying to constantly remind myself that I don't feel like his best friend anymore . We still kiss sometimes secretly knowing it could affect a lot of things . But, these things couldn't stop us.

I don't know if he broke up with Abby or playing the role of her boyfriend just to protect her image in this f****d up society.

I will never know.

I don't have the guts either to ask him. Because, somehow I believe he will manage it by himself and then he will come back to fight for us. I just hope that day comes soon.

I am sitting in front of him, face to face. I glance behind his shoulder to see if the girls are looking at us and they are. They are whispering and Abby looks pissed. I am surprised to see her not react while I am here sitting with Dave peacefully. Some thing did happen between them.

Alex, who was in their table few minutes ago is now walking to our direction. I sit straight prepared for his entry. Dave doesn't stop holding my hands.

I am pleased by his bravery.

"Hey! What are you guys talking about?" Alex barges into the conversation while making a sit in the table .

"Alex , Why are you here ? "

"What! Now I can't talk to my friends?"

I look to see the girls talking and staring at us .

"Come on....I don't want you to be in that position right now. But trust me , you should be with them . "

"You all are my friends . I am sure they will understand that ," he clarifies .

"Besides , I am the only guy there and they talking about those girly stuffs is making me really uncomfortable ."

Me and Dave giggle at the same time . He stops fondling my hand to reach for the fries in my plate .

"So , are you ready for the ball ?"

The moment he says that I spied a look at Dave. I feel Dave's nerves getting angry again. Because, I said I'll think about it after much convincing from him.

I mark his discountenance.

Alex wasn't supposed to talk about it in front of Dave and he keeps making same mistake again and again.

"She's not going to the ball, " Dave answers while eating the french fries.

"You are not ?" Alex looked at me, his mouth shaped like the letter o.

"I said I'll think about it." I reply making eyes with Alex .

"Come on...why do you wanna go ? You practically don't know anyone there."

"Yeah...but this time I am interested."

"And why is that?"

Dave peered at me wanting answers which I am not allowed to share .

"For myself." I reply strongly .

He was confused with my response.

"I wanna meet Blake . Apparently , I have some unfinished business with him."

I didn't think Dave would have the wrong impression of it. But he did .

"But what about us ? "

For a moment, I don't realize he would think that I wanted to be with my ex again. But I don't blame him for thinking that . Since everytime I used the 'Unfinished' and 'ex' words together within the same sentence, it always meant me missing them , me wanting closure .

But this didn't imply in this situation . However, Dave didn't get it so I used it as a chance to escape .

"What about 'Us' ? The fact that you are still with your girlfriend while kissing me and spending your most time with me ? I do wanna know what's with 'Us' ?"

I clearly remember that day on the terrace Dave asked me not to talk about until he's ready . But, I didn't have any other thing to say except using this to wound him.

He couldn't reply . Clearly, he was upset. By the fact that I brought it up even though he asked me not to.

Having no response I leave the cafeteria . My heart aches the whole time . My motive wasn't to hurt my best friend .

The day of ECN slowly came by and everyday close to it my heart beat got faster and faster .

What was the truth that Dave wasn't ready to tell me yet?

Alex dropped by last night to leave the dress his mom made for me . Not actually for me since before he used to take Abigail to these kind of parties . So, the dress was made way before of her size .

Me and Abigail aren't the same size when it is compared to our upper body. For which , I was scared for the cleavage . The dress was made of smooth satin red silk . It had a V-neck which thankfully doesn't show too much . It sort of reminds me about the dress Julia Roberts had worn in the extraordinary movie '' Pretty Woman. ''

The moment I wear it gives a cold shiver to my skin as it flowed down my body till it touches the ground . I look at the mirror and the girl in front didn't look like me . I never dress too much unless it's weddings . I curled my hair in the morning and made it into a small messy bun . I followed my daily simple makeup routine. Except this time in exchange of my lip balm I applied this dark maroon lipstick Dave had gifted me last year. I took out my favorite perfume to apply . It had a vanilla smell which can spread the whole room in a few seconds . I slipped in a golden pair of heels which were less than five inches. Since, I didn't wanna look taller than Alex.

I wasn't always this conscious about my height when I used to go out with Dave . He was taller than me that five inches heels even couldn't make us the same height .

When the clock ticks seven ,

I get downstairs where I see mom and dad looking at me differently and yet proudly .

"You look beautiful , dear." Dad says while mom is busy perpetually taking my pictures . The flash was on which irritates my eyes as I cover my face with my hands.

"Mom, stop it!" I screech.

I get down hastily before she could take any more pictures . The bell rings as I walked high speed to open the door quickly . The moment I widen it I see Alex standing wearing a tux. It wasn't a surprise to see him being so formal since he's always been an upscale dresser. But, Alex's bedazzled reaction was predictable . Alex was shocked to see me finally dressed like a woman .

I ask ,"Too much ? " He nods no straight away and shows me the way to the car . I wave bye to mom and dad as I get in . "Are you scared?" Alex asks as he puts his seat belts on . I let out a breath, "To the know the truth ? Yes ."

I enter the hall which was assembled with mass of people. Girls, I couldn't define their proper ages since all of them looked quite the same to me . They all were wearing high class gowns which already makes me feel really like an outsider in a matter of seconds. The guys were all well-dressed. I thank my conscience for listening to Alex for once. Because if I had worn something from my own closet today, I am pretty sure I would have been assumed as a commoner.

I have never been to this kind of parties. But there's a first time for everything. So, I don't think it's gonna that bad .

Shortly thereafter, I grab Alex's attention out of the girls as I whisper slowly to him, '' Why didn't you tell me there's gonna be so many people?'' Alex tries to keep a smile while greeting strangers everywhere.

'' I don't get it what's with you and crowds.''

I look up to see the enormous elite chandeliers hanging above our heads. My eyes bulges nightmarishly , what if they fall? I hold his arm acting a bit childish. Alex pinches me in my arm collecting my thoughts out of there. I look forward to meet my gaze with a woman who had worn a gorgeous golden dress. Her hair was made into a side bun which had grown more awareness to her neck. She was wearing a silver necklace which had an blue emerald stone in the middle. Then it hit me, that's Alex's mom.

'' Hi. '' I simply greet. Mrs. Rust comes to me smiling and by the look on her face it seemed like I wasn't the one she was expecting .

"Oh! Hi dear ."

She turns at Alex to say , "Who's your friend?"

Alex introduces me while I was busy interrogating the room .

At some point, Alex left me alone to talk to his cousins and I started to look for Blake . I kept searching for him until I finally saw him in the balcony talking to a lady . The moment he sees me he walks to me leaving the lady alone pathetically.

"Ellie Daniels! It's always a surprise to see you here . "

He was suited up. He gives me a royal bow down gallantly which is one of his ways to charm rich girls . However , I am not someone to be charmed by him again.

"I need a favor from you."

He laughs , "Straight to business are we ?"

I cross my arms giving him a more serious look because he was taking it as a joke .

"Okay. I will help you . But, first you have to dance with me ."

He places his hand in the air waiting for me to place mine.

"I am not here to dance Blake. "

He gives me a smirk and reaches for my hand taking me to the ball room forcefully . I don't say anything because I don't want to create a scene. But, I struggle to free my wrist from his grip.

He stands where I see couples slow dancing . He proceeds to dance with me keeping his hands on my waist and placing mine on his shoulder .

"What the hell is wrong with you ? " I grimace.

"Come on...I missed dancing with you. " He flashed sincere smile at me which had me bewildered.

It puts me in a uncomfortable situation . Blake and I had a rough past . He was the kind of boyfriend I wanted to get serious with. But, he was also the bad boy type. The one who only likes sleeping with people . When I realized there was no use of hope and he was hurting me Dave asked me to end things with him . I trusted Dave more than anything. I believe he knows the best for me. So, I did what I was told. I got rid of that toxic relationship. But the day it ended he tried to hit me which has been a scary memory for me.

I was always running away in the halls from him everytime I saw him. He graduated and still I could not forget what he did. The memories of him still haunts me and what he did makes me feel terrible.

"Are you lost ?"

I get out of my nightmares of past .

"I can't do this, " I say as I step back pushing him hard flattening my hand on his chest . He runs his fingers through his hair fretfully checking if people's eyes were on us.

"Don't try to create a scene , Ellie ."

He seemed upset.

I run to the balcony and not caring if people were watching me or not .

He follows me while I stay in the corner .

"Seriously ?" He shouts .

"I danced . Now tell me! " I say aloud and clear.

He laughs like he knows what's going on.

"What do you wanna know?"

"Did Abby cheat on Dave with Matt ?"

"How should I know?"

He laughs again and it was killing me in the inside.

"I know he's your best friend . So, of course you know."

"I do. ''

I sigh relaxed. I was about to receive my answer. I wait for him to continue.

''No, they didn't sleep together . They just talked ."

His expression is normal saying that.

I was surprised.

"Just talked? "

"Yeah ....she wanted to f**k him because of going though her crazy psychotic phase. But, he just couldn't do it. "

I give a tortured laugh. "Huh? Matt the womanizer didn't sleep with her. You are kidding right? "

"Nope.... because... '' He scruples to talk about it. Love was something he didn't like to discuss.

''Because, he loves her and he thought it would not be right. "

Blake looked like he was super serious and I know he's not the type of guy who lies.

"He loves her ? Which means she loves him too ?"

I felt relaxed all a sudden . I thought maybe Abby will leave Dave for her first love and I will finally get my wish to come true.

But, I was wrong.

I was so wrong.

Because, the next sentence pierced my heart making a crack that I will never be able to fix.

"No, she doesn't.. love him . Because, if she did, she wouldn't get pregnant with another guy's baby . "

And there I was holding my tears controlling my feelings , losing hope in everything .