Holding On

Chapter 4

Allie's P.O.V

I was numb. The smell of Nick clothes surrounding me. I closed my eyes as Matthew carried me out of the house. I couldn’t deal with him right now. My heart hurt. When I finally realized where we were going anger built up inside of me.

I could not believe what was happening right now he was kidnapping me. He was totally out of control. He did not get to make decisions like this. Who the hell did he think that he was?

"What gives you the right to take me from my house?" I whispered all the anger leaving me at seeing his face.

"Please take me home, you can't do this to me. I need to be home with my things and Nick's things please." I said tears welling up in my eyes.

He pulled the car over to the side of the road and took a deep breath and turned to look at me.

"Allie, I know you don't understand why I'm doing this, but you have to believe that It's for your own good. You’re not going to understand this now because of your grief but this is for your own good. I know that Nick would want me to do what I’m doing right now. He loved you Allie and he would not have wanted to see this way.” He said sadness in his eyes.

“You’re my mate and I refuse to let you drown in your sorrow. Alex and Ari need their mother to be strong. Your pack needs you to lead them. I don’t know the pain your feeling Allie and I’m not trying to replace Nick. What you had with him you will always carry in your heart, but you need to let me help you through this. Look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't feel less sorrow when you’re with me. Tell me that when I hold you that you don't feel safe and calm." He said waiting for my answer.

I swallowed and tried to say the words, but I knew that what I wanted to say was not the truth. He was right being with him did help me and I hated it.

“Nick was the love of my life. The father of my children.” I don’t want to mask the pain.

“Your nobody to me because that’s what you wanted.” I yelled angry.

“We are not mates Matt. And there is no one to blame but you.”

“I’m going to love Nick forever because he choose me. He loved me when you didn’t.” I said tears in my eyes.

“I don't want to go with you. Take me back or I'll call my pack to come and get me." I threatened.

"Allie, I know this is going to be hard to hear but Nick is gone. He’s not coming back. I had a lot of respect for Nick, but you can’t go on this way.”

I knew he was right, but I didn’t have to like it.

“Take me back.” I said defiantly.

“Not happening.” He smirked making me angry.

“Before you summon your pack know that anyone who tries to take you is as good as dead. No one and I mean no one is taking you from me, be warned Allie. Don't make me start a war that will not end well." He said pulling back onto the road.

“Jerk,” I glared at him. I was not about to make this easy for him.

Why was this happening? Why was life so cruel what had I done? I took a deep breath and I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the window there was no use fighting.

Matthew's P.O.V

I knew that she was going to fight me, but I guess I had hope that she would not hate me so much. I was not going to let it bother me. I was sticking to what I said. She was going to stay with me, she could like it or not. If she wanted me to start a war with her pack over her then so be it.  No one was going to try and take her and was staying alive. I wanted her. I needed her so much it hurt to breathe around her because I could not touch her and hold her how I wanted too.

When we pulled up to my house Macy was just getting there with Alex. Allie looked up and started to get out of the car. She ran over to Alex and hugged him like she had not seen him in weeks.

"So this is home, not bad." Macy said getting the bags out of the trunk.

"He's making you stay too." Allie said glaring at me.

"Of course not but where you and Alex go so do I." She said walking to the front door and letting herself in.

Well this was going to be fun. Macy was a character, but she definitely was not someone you wanted to mess with that girl was dangerous when pissed. Especially when it came to Allie.

I was halfway to my front door when Sophia pulled up. I frowned knowing that this was not going to end well.

Allie's P.O.V

We had just walked into the living room when we heard screaming. Macy and I sat Alex down and walked outside to see what was going on.

"Why do I have to leave?  You’re my Alpha, this is the pack house." The women from the funeral yelled.

She turned to look at me and she frowned, "why are you here?" She asked through gritted teeth.

I just stood there shocked by her aggression. I was about to open my mouth when Macy beat me to it.

"You better watch how you talk to my Alpha and your Alpha's mate before I rip your tongue out your mouth. If I was you I would walk back to your car and leave." She growled.

"Why does your Alpha not defend herself." She replied a smirk on her face.

"You see this belly, that’s why." Macy said shifting into a big brown wolf.

I was worried for the girl that stood in front of me eyes wide open.

"Matthew help me." She pleaded with him.

"No, you wanted to run your mouth. I tried to tell you to leave but you didn't listen. Be glad I'm not ripping your throat out myself for disrespecting my mate." He said picking me up and heading to the front door.

"Macy please don't hurt her. Just come inside." I said hoping that she would listen.

Macy barred her teeth at the women and took a step toward her. She took off running to her car and thankfully Macy did not chase her.

She just turned and headed in the house right behind us still in her wolf.

“I'm sorry about Macy." I said into his chest.

"Don't be Allie, she did what I would have wanted someone protecting my mate to do. She's loyal to you and I like that.”

“I sorry for causing problems with that woman." I said feeling annoyed.

"I ended things with her Allie. Your who I want your who I will always want. As long as I have breath in my body that fact will never change." He said making my heart beat fast.

I had a love hate relationship with him. One second I hated him and wanted him to drop dead. Then the next second I was surrounded by his scent and I couldn’t resist the mate pull.

I rested my head on his shoulder and let him take all my pain and sadness away. I was too tired to keep fighting him.