The Loveliest Man

Avina's Fam

Avina:

I got dressed in a casual yet, classy two piece. The top was off the shoulder blouse and the long flowy skirt that matched. Some of my stomach was showing since the blouse was cropped. 

I was now waiting for Jacob to come pick me up because he insisted that he drive us to my parents house.

This is probably going to be the worst dinner of my life.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard a knock at the door. That must be Jacob. I opened the door and gathered my hand bag.

“Hey.” I said as I walked out and locked the front door.

“Hey, you look…” he ran his eyes over my whole body, “beautiful.” he said.

“Thank you” I blushed. He looked good, really good but I couldn't admit that. I can’t believe I'm still attracted to him after all he did. Maybe I should give him a chance, we're going to be married anyway. What’s wrong with you Avina, you can’t forgive him, he r***d you for god sake. I mentally slapped myself. He wasn’t aggressive at all, he was gentle and caring and loving. He still r***d you. He put my needs before his, he made sure that I came, is there anything else I could ask for when it comes to my first time. It was still r**e.

Wait why am I arguing with myself, I'm not forgiving him and that’s final I told myself. I knew this wasn’t true, I’m not a person to hold a grudge. I mean I’m going to be spending the rest of my life with him, are we going to just not have s*x or kids, or happiness. I don’t think I could live this way,

I looked to the side of me, where Jacob sat. He was truly handsome. He meant a lot to me and I just met him. Maybe that’s why it hurt so bad when he r***d me. He looked towards me, to see me staring. He had the look of guilt as he looked away.

I know what he did hurt me, but maybe it hurt him just as much, I mean he said he loved me. No one’s ever said it and meant it. Maybe he did love me. To be honest i don’t know what to think, I guess I’ll find out.

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We pulled up outside my parents house and Jacob opened the door for me. As I was getting out he held out his hand to help me out.  I knocked on the door and my mom opened it immediately.

“Hey mama” I said smiling.

“Hey baby...how are you.” She said as me and Jacob walked in.

I gave my mom a tight bear hug. I finally let go and she turned towards Jacob.

“Hey Jacob, nice to see you again.” she said, giving him a hug.

“Hi lorelei” he said.

They know each other, and on a first name basis?

“You guys know each other?” I asked

“Yeah I told you I know your father.”

“Yeah but you made it seem like it was just business, nothing on a personal level. And why would you know my mom? She doesn’t go to his business meetings?” I asked

“When I first met your parents it wasn’t a business meeting, it was a press gala, here.”

“Here as in my childhood home?” he nodded. “The only press gala we had here is when I was 15 and I don’t remember you being there.”

“You probably don’t, I was the same age as you and looked totally different from now. Except for my gray eyes.”

“Only person who was at the gala that was my age was...Jake”

“Yeah well that’s my nickname, my dad gave it to me.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“It wasn’t relevant.” he said.

I stared at him for a moment, why didn’t he tell me he was jake. Jake was everything to me at the time and he broke me, when he left. I thought that what we had was fake. I mean we were only 15. It wasn’t real love, I didn’t know what love felt like, and I still don’t. That didn’t make it easier to lose him.

“Anyway’s dinner is ready so come sit down.” my mom said

She walked in the dining room, and left me and Jacob alone. Why didn’t he tell me. I looked at him one more time and walked into the dining room. I took a seat and a hot plate was in front of me.

“Mama, where’s dad?” I asked.

“He’s left for a business meeting.” she said.                                                                                                                       Jacob walks in and sits next to me. 

“But he’s not the CEO anymore I am.”

“He knows that honey, but you know him he’s still making business deals for you.” she replied

“You mean he doesn’t think I can get them on my own.” I said looking down in embarrassment.

“I’m sure he doesn’t think that honey.” my mom said.

I kept my head down as my eyes started to water. Deep down I always thought that I wasn’t good enough for my dad. He always wanted a son so he could take over the business, not a girl. Yeah I know he loves me, but he always makes me feel like he’s disappointed, I'm never good enough.

All of a sudden I feel a hand on my thigh. There was a gentle squeeze and I looked to see it was Jacob. My mom silently excused herself. I looked up at Jacob with watery eyes. He looked back with concern. He cupped my face with his big hands, and shushed my sobs. He held me in his warm embrace as my tears rolled down my face. I missed Jake a lot, he was my best friend. We practically grew up together, I wonder why he kept it from me that he was jake. I no longer felt like eating. I got up abruptly and ran to my old room.

It was still the same. The walls were purple and the bed set was silver just how I liked it. I kicked off my shoes and curled up into a ball on the bed. Not long after someone came in the door I didn’t look. I guessed it was mom coming to see if I was ok. When they got closer I smelled cologne. Jake’s cologne. He laid close behind me and wrapped me in his arms. I sobbed harder and this time not because of my dad but because of jake. He left me and replaced me like I was nothing. He really hurt me but I missed him so much. I turned toward him so we were chest to chest and buried my face in his shirt getting it wet.

next episode being posted tmrw