Is this still me?

Chapter 4

Kate’s POV

-' ask for anything I will truly answer for all your questions'- that's what Yann said.

I didn’t have many questions, but one was very important

-‘what the hell happen last night?’-I asked, looking into his beautiful amber eyes I could lose in them and I will don’t mind about that.

He took my hand in his and immediately that electric sparks went through my body and my body relaxed.

-‘Kate that was 4 days ago when I found you in the forest with your dogs by your side.’

I lost 4 days. I hope that he doesn’t think that I will believe that stupid story about a werewolf, right?

-‘4 days what my poor dogs ate for all this time? They can’t eat any food except their special kibbles, which you can only buy in one shop in all Scotland’

-‘relax my love, my hmm staff member brought them from your flat’-Yann said

-‘from my flat?, how did you know where I stay? I didn’t have any ID with me. You could get keys, but not address’

‘- Kate, I stay next to your flat for the last few months. You not even notice that, aren’t you?’

-'if you don’t know, I was busy. Recently I lost my husband ‘-I answer him with a more harsh tone voice than I wanted.

-‘yes I know Kate and I am sorry my love that you suffered a lot recently. Trust me, if I could I would take all your pain away’-Yann spoke with sadness in his voice.

-‘where are my dogs now?’-I asked as I am not ready to speak about Mark.

-‘with my mother. I ask her to bring them in’-he said with a small smile.

Minutes later we heard a knock at the door and after a moment door opened and my beautiful dogs come in. They jumped and licked my face, putting their big heads for cuddles. For a moment, I forgot where I am and with whom and started petting them and speaking to them. After a while, I asked Yann another question.

-‘is doctor lied to me?’

-‘no, it’s all true' - I have not expected that kind of answer and Yann needs to see the shock on my face as he gently squeezes my hand.

-‘how? Why? what does that’s all mean? That’s not possible we are in the f*****g Scotland-‘ questions leave my mouth.

-‘Kate relax, please. I will start from the beginning. Yes, werewolves exist in Scotland, the only pack is in Aberdeenshire. Before you ask everyone in this house are werewolves, your doctor too. My father used to be an alpha, but he retired and give a pack to my older twin brother. I moved here with my parents and my son with some staff members about 15 years ago.’- I listen to everything and tried to understand, but then I heard - my son. What the f**k! I checked Yann's files at work a while ago (what he is hot!) and they stated that he is 23 years old so 15 years ago he was only 8 how he could have a son!

‘-son? How old are you because not 23?-‘ I asked looking into his eyes.- ‘I am 45, my love’- he replies

-‘45! Your files said 23 how is that’s possible!’- I almost shouted, but his eyes show that he told me the truth.

-‘look at me Kate’-he asked and I obey straight to his request-‘do I look like a 45-year-old man? ‘-he asked. I looked at him for the while and mumbled -‘no you don’t’

-‘you see my love when we moved here I changed my birth year as no one would believe how old I was and my parents told everyone that Brandon, my son, is their son. Werewolves are not aging the same fast as humans’

-‘ maybe our age is close, but I am looking for my age’- I was thinking. -‘only, for now, my love’-Yann said with a smile. ‘O God, I said that aloud, silly me’

‘-what do you mean by that?’- I asked him again and looked deep in his eyes

-‘Kate, after that bite, you had transformed into a werewolf. You may not feel that yet but you will very soon, after the next full moon. Your senses will be better and your body will change too.’

-‘what do you mean that my body will change? Like I will become hairier with long claws instead of my nails?’

-‘no my love, you will be losing a lot of weight as your metabolism will speed up, you also become stronger and will be hungry more often, also you will be able to communicate with your wolf’-Yann said with a big smile on his face.

-‘ that could be good to be slim b***h, but hope that my boobs will stay the same size as they are now' - I think and look at them

-‘ yes my love they will not change’- Yann answered with a chuckle.

-‘I said that aloud again. I think I need to shut up.

-‘no my love, I love your voice’.

- ‘not again’- I rolled my eyes and be quiet for a moment.

-‘Why do you call me your love? Are you called like that all women which you know.?’

-‘ no it’s only for you because you are my love’- he said with so much love in his eyes.

-‘how I can be your love I hardly know who you are and you don’t know me either!’

-‘ Moon Goddess gives you to me as my soul mate. That sparks whenever we touch, warmth from each other that’s our mate bond. It will get stronger after we mark each other and mate’- Yann’s eyes capture me and I couldn’t move.

I started to remind myself of all books which I read before on Dreame . ' Moon Goddess -mother all werewolves, mate-other half of your soul, given for all life sometimes hard to find'.-my brain was still working when I heard Yann’s soft voice-‘all correct my love’.

-‘did I?-‘ he only shakes his head as yes. Again, I was talking to myself. -‘did you discover that mate thing after that werewolf bite me?’

-‘no I knew that from my interview time which took place at the beginning of this year-‘ he said.- ‘I felt pain after I discovered your existence'.

-‘felt?’- I asked-‘yeah each werewolf smell different. You smell like orange chocolate, soon you will find out.’

-‘why did you feel pain?’- I asked out of curiosity.

-‘I discovered that you are married, that you belong to another man, that you never waited for me' - he said with great sadness in his voice

-‘well I didn’t know that I got my desired soul mate, but looking for your son’s age you didn’t wait for me either. Plus you got a girlfriend now too, do you?. I saw her photo on your social media' -I said, looking hard into his eyes.

-‘well she is kind of my girlfriend. She is human and got no idea about my real identity and we do not have s*x, if that’s what you wanted ask’-he explains looking into my eyes.

-‘ whatever it’s your life, so it’s not my business' - I said -‘when I can come back home? I and my dogs got some plans’

-‘ you can go back to your flat when you want to, your car is outside’- Yann said

-‘ great we are leaving now, thank you?!’

Yann didn’t say anything for a moment and his eyes disappear as you could only see his white eyeballs-‘ O God that looks creepy’-I thought

-‘I am sorry, my love, can you please be my parents’ guest tonight at the dinner? They want to meet you and my mum wants to say her goodbyes to your dogs’-he asked.

I didn’t want to stay any longer, but his mum takes care of my dogs so I own her that. -‘ok, I will stay we will leave after dinner. Do I need to change?'

-‘ no you are fine it’s only family dinner’- he said with a smile.

Brandon’s POV

I tried to speak with dad, but he was too worried for his mate and that was all because of me.

-‘granny is my dad’s mate survived?’- I asked with hope.

- 'yes, my boy. She woke up a couple of hours ago’- granny said.

-‘ great I will go and apologize to her and my dad’- I stood and was on my way to my dad’s room.

-‘Brandon, wait for your father and speak with him first, please. This is a very delicate situation. Your dad tries to explain everything to her. We need to wait and see. At the moment it’s not looking good. It looks that she wants to leave him. I only hope that she will not reject him,’- my granny said with sadness in her voice.

My dad waited for his mate for so long. He is a good man she can’t leave because of me. I know that dad loves me, but I think that sometimes he regrets that I had been born or maybe it’s only that he hates who my mother was.

I know everything that she’s done I still can’t understand how she could leave me, her child?. Did she never love me?