OVERJOYED MELANCHOLY

CHAPTER 5 : RELINQUISH AND EMBRACING - SACRIFICING AND ACCEPTANCE

The acceptance of who we are is the most important thing of all. Why are we doing this ? What is gonna happen after this ? What if this isn't right? What to do next? And thousands of questions are there in our mind and to understand this we have to know who we are. Once we are feeling it all , then we're separated to that feeling , and to gain us again we realise things , after realising we feel it again. And to restart it we have to let everything go and accept what the truth is ,and there's only one truth that is sacrificing.

This world and love is designed this way , everything you love has to be sacrificed in order to prove the reality of life.

If we're given this body , our soul has to change and sacrifice this body . If we're given breadths we can't live without , one day we have to sacrifice that too. If we're gifted with time , one day that time will disappear too . Nothing is permanent they say , I say only one thing is permanent and that is love.

We can't sacrifice what we don't love , because loving is the process of sacrificing , to justify this thought I'd say that if our soul sacrifices the body it gets another better one , if we lose breadths we gain it again. And if we look closer , our time is not taken away from us but it is carved into the form of endless memories , and this is why acceptance and sacrificing is important , because the moment we sacrifice we get another universe for our soul , the one we dreamt of.

This section is all about accepting and sacrificing all I ever had , and the answer is I really had nothing , no one is mine nothing is mine , the only thing that is mine is god . With another aspect all I have is god , and god resides everywhere .

THE KID IN ME WANTS TO HEAL

How the melody of life turns out this way.

The person I'm most proud of is asking the same

Its okay to cry I said,

She cried a lot she said,

The kid in her wants to heal.

The situation wants something else,

She wonder if she's loved,

Because the way she loves Is everything,

she's love herself I said.

She try hard to hate,

But its hard to hate,

The kid in her wants to heal.

But the situation in her wants to heal.

SHE WAS CRYING ON MY SHOULDER

People often say she was found alone ,

Dwelling in the ocean of her melancholy ,

It has been a while since she did this

Pain was changed into a process to let go ,

It was now easy for her to sacrifice ,

Sacrifice something she's holding on to ,

It was so beautiful that the butterflies of her heart

were ready to pass through the bones of her ribcage,

Knowing it'll be painful , but for love she'd sacrifice.

She was crying on my shoulder ,

As the moment she was letting go ,

Her ribcage was broken because the butterflies

were flying away with her lover.

Only few knew that she was me.

LUCKY TO BE YOURS

I asked god what I did ?

He bought a glass and dropped it ,

I was confused until he gave me a tape to rejoin it ,

God politely said can you do it now ?

I said no. God said exactly.

I cried rapidly holding my eyes trying my blood not to flow .

How bad she hurt you , and still you devoted yourself to her ?

In the nerves of my brain something twinkled ,

It was a thought of you being with her ,

At least you'll smile , at least you'll laugh ,

At least you'll be happy again.

I was so innocent that I prayed to god to bring her

again in your life , just to see you hopeful once again.

Knowing that you shattered a glass in my heart ,

I'm sending you to someone who did the same with you.

But she'll be lucky to have you ,

Cause it is you , for me the source of love.

7TH AUGUST

It was the time to understand and be mature as you said .

Knowing my heart will be embarrassed ,

The reality of life said something else.

I cried after knowing what I did ,

I made your heart heavy , knowing you never will.

You wanted my good and you moved away ,

I wanted my good too so I stayed.

They say doing something with good

Intentions always give good fruits ,

But who knew that you'll disappear.

7 August was the day I realised I should apologise,

Saying this cause I wanted to make things right.

My nerves were earthquakes , My eyes had a tsunami ,

Knowing it'll all pass , my heart had eruptions.

I still said it , and as a result I got you.

But just for a while.

I PRAYED FOR HER

First time in my entire life I prayed for her to come back

So that you can be happy again.

Cause you were not happy with me.

You devoted yourself to her once ,

The same way I devoted myself to you.

I prayed to god for that devotion to come true ,

I'll survive if you'll be happy from your heart .

but if you're not happy I'll eventually die of

Being in debt of making you sad.

Cause I was an asset for you

But her , she was your prayer.

And if she's a prayer to you ,

I'll pray for her like a goddess.

And if she's a prayer to you ,

I prayed for her.

MELTING

Love is something I adore ,

and can even live for it ,

Because dying is easy ,

But livin' with the dept of love is hard ,

Cause you get to die daily while you live forever ,

Oh to be alive for you , my heart melts .

My nerves are collecting each of its parts ,

That has fallen away while collecting you.

It failed to collect you , but with you I lost myself.

Just like a candle that can't be restored , my heart melts.

Ice in the water , when it is dissolved , my heart melts.

Oh when I live for you , my heart melts.

FAIRYTALE

I'm happy, not because I let you go, But because I let you go in the way no one could.

I'm happy because I saw you in the darkness of night, in the peace of my sight.

I'm happy because I saw you in the way no one ever did, and see you in every possible way.

I'm happy even if someone else made you smile, atleast you're smiling, and your smile made me smile, because it was you smiling.

You're only with me in the world of our's I've made in my heart. I'm happy just because of that world, you're all mine.

CONNECTION

That spark of the sunlight is you, That coldness of the moon is me, That time between day and night That's evening right? Where we both are mingled together.

If you're that Strong mountain, If I'm that cold tree, Together we form the perfect creation of god, Where we're free.

I'm that fountain that fell from a height, You're the river that caught me, Gently floating with me tight.

You're the branch, I'm the leaf. You're the root, I'm the tree. You're a flower, and I'm your fragrance.

We're different, yet together And that's our connection.

THE MOMENT YOU LEFT

I love the way we have no future together,

yet god wants me to think about you

every single second of the day.

Because maybe you were

supposed to leave, and I was supposed to

understand what love is.

Not with you but without you. "What is love" I asked

" I can't tell you now, but you'll feel it soon" you replied.

And that's where I felt love for the

first time in my entire life, the moment you left.

CONFUSION

Bright was the word in my mind,

It was the sun, it was the spark of the moon too.

Hope was the word in my mind,

Saw a butterfly and saw a caterpillar,

I was confused, if the sun was as

bright or the moon was bright in the dark,

Or it was the butterfly to give me

hope or a caterpillar, To be a butterfly soon.