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When Ash gets to my room his hands are full, and he has to ask for help getting the door open. When he gets to my bed and sets me down turning to leave I grab his hand, not really sure this is the best idea I look at him giving a drunk smile. “Ash, would you mind staying for a while I don’t really wanna be alone right now.” There’s a flood of different emotions running across his face, but I’m so drunk I don’t know what they mean or what to make of the silence. When he doesn’t answer I notice I’m still holding his hand, I use all my strength which for being drunk is still quite a lot, pulling him onto my bed so we come face to face. “ I know I’m drunk, so I won’t do anything stupid but I’d like you to stay, ok.” I don’t really want an answer this time, I just scoot closer to him until my arms are around him and my head is resting on one of his arms.

He doesn’t say anything, but he also doesn’t move to leave and I take that as a sign that he’s ok with me needing someone right now. What he doesn’t know is I don’t need just anyone, I need him I don’t even know why I don’t want to be alone, but I don’t and I really want it to be him that’s here. While I’m thinking I notice his hand on my very exposed waist his thumb moving in little messy circles on my skin. I feel calm and at peace with him holding me, like I’m his and soon I have one hand on his hair just comfortably moving my hand through what feels like a soft cloud. “Thank you.” I wisper so quietly that he shouldn’t be able to hear me, but he responds which a soft hum. My heart starts to flutter out of control, I role over onto my on her side to give him more room away from the edge of my bed. This just feels right to me cuddling with him, his arms wrapped around me our bodies touching leaving no space between us. Reaching down I pull the blanket up to cover us, this is where I should be always. I don’t even have to think for very long knowing that when I answer him it’s going to be what we both want. I notice very soon that he is snoring lightly next to me his arms still wrapped around me, I’m starting to feel better more sober and as the time goes by and I get fully sober, I finally understand this wasn’t the alcohol this was me I want this I want him here with me.

When I finally fall asleep leaving my thoughts alone, I have the most peaceful night of sleep that I have ever had.

When I wake up in the morning Ash is still there, I’m shocked that he stayed the whole night but I’m happy that I’m waking up in his arms for the first time, I role over to watch him sleep... I always thought it was creepy in movies when people did this but now I understand. It’s so you can take in every detail of the person your with, without being judged for staring or for in my case looking like a love sick puppy. As his eyes start to flutter I can’t help but smile, he stayed holding me pulling me closer until our foreheads are touching and I’m looking right into his beautiful green eyes. This can’t get any better, my hand goes up to his face and I just trace the line of his jaw until my fingers find there way to his mouth, tracing his lips with my fingers I never break eye contact with him. I’m looking for any signs that he wants me to stop, that he wants me not to kiss him. When his eyes go dark and his hands move, one to the back of my head, and the other tightly wrapped around my back. When he rolls putting himself under me like a perfect puzzle piece. I move so that my lips are lightly brushing against his when I very teasingly wisper. “Are you going to make me do all the hard work?” Before I have the time to even wonder again if he really wants this his lips are on mine.

I know every girl wants that perfect romantic kiss to be there first kiss, but this is so much better than the movies make it seem, our lips don’t part until we’re coming up for air. Panting like we just ran five miles together, my heart is racing when I decide I should finally give him an answer about if I’ll accept him as my mate and start over. “ Ash, the answer to your question, it yes we can start over I would love to be your mate.” I’m smiling at him from where I site my face above his, and I feel like I’m getting the perfect response from him, his already dark eyes go even darker. I lean down and kiss him again this time leaving a trail of kisses from his mouth down his neck, and over his collar bone. I must have done something to get to him because without any warning we’re rolling over until he’s on top of me, our hands traveling one another’s bodies. He’s still searching when I find what I want, grabbing the collar of his shirt with both hands ripping his shirt in half. He let’s out a low and pleased growl and I shudder in surrender, reaching up and un-lacing my shirt from last night exposing more of my skin. When his lips start to travel from my mouth down, leaving a fire on my skin, I let a little moan of pleasure slip from my lips as his hands find the buttons that are keeping my pants in place.

just as quickly as my pants had been there, they were gone. His hands traveling the length of my thighs before his lips find there way back to mine. We’re locked in another breath taking kiss, when I finally find his belt and get it undone not bothering to remove it from his pants, I just undo the button and the zipper. Pulling his pants down enough that he can kick them off without pulling away from me for to long. I take a moment to breath deeply and take in just how good he looks, before his lips are on mine again. With the kisses getting shorter and coming quicker I’m letting more moans slip from my mouth. Honestly from there things just got more steamy until we’re both naked, and making love, by the time we collapse on the bed panting I’m pretty sure we spent the whole morning here. His hands still on my hips when he leans in to me for one last kiss, knowing we have to get dressed and make an appearance, as I’m watching him get dressed I can’t help but smile like a love sick moron.

when we are finally both dressed, well aside from his shirt we head out to the kitchen to find some food. Hand in hand when we come across my smiling pack, I know by the looks they are giving us that we were not being quiet. As we walk past them I mouthed sorry, and went to find food, with my mate by my side.