Chapter 6
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It was after 10pm before we got to a safe place..
he must be familiar with this area because before we hot here he stopped somewhere and grabbed a duffel bag from underneath a canoe. I don’t know what’s in it but i trust him and he must have defed his original statement for s reason I’m just waiting for him to fill mevin..
Val-
“Grab whatever you want from the fridge beautiful, mi casa su casa. “
Lucina-
“This is your house?”
Val-
“Well not technically.. but it is ours for right now. “
“I called someone i know i can trust off a pay phone while you stopped to use the restroom and grab some drinks..”
“He told me how to get here and said nobody else knows about it and it’s ours as long as we need it.. he left some stuff we both might need in a duffel for us too that’s why i grabbed it.”
Lucina-
“Oh okay i was wondering if you knew where we were.. it seemed like you were familiar with everything here.”
Val-
“Yeah i am.. i thought about it a little bit more and the guy I thknk I’m dealing with would expect me to ditch and ho off the grid somewhere unfamiliar.. he would expect me not to trust nobody i used to know too.. so I’m trusting myself and that thought and doing what my gut said.. which is to stay where i know because I’ll have an advantage somehow and that helps me protect you.”
Luckna-
“So it’s safe here for a while?”
Val-
“yes, we can stay here for at least couple of weeks i think.. if we need to stay gone that long that is.. “
“You can look in duffel bag lucina, I’m not hiding anything from you. There’s nothing in it that will hurt you I promise.”
Lucina-
“Why do you think I believe you’d hurt me now?”
Val-
“Because I changed my original statement without telling you and naturally that is making you question if my intentions with you changed too and because that bag is the elephant in room for projection and your answer i told you to give yourself the answer you need right now.”
“Don’t worry beautiful I’m not upset or offended by anything I just understand and you are still trying to adjust to your survival instincts. “
Lucina-
“You really know a lot about this..?”
Val-
“Yeav i do… I studied it the last time i was in jail because i was wanted to understand it and how to control it..”
“It’s helped me so far.”
He grabbed the duffel bag and sat it next to me
Val-
“I promise lucina I don’t want to hurt you… I just met you a couple of days ago but I already care about you.. you are so beautiful inside and out, your smart and gentle, compassionate and you are sarcastic too haha i heard how you responded to that clerk giving you attitude and i like that! You stand up for yourself and thag says you know your value and worth. That doesn’t come easy and I know it.”
Lucina-
“I’m sorry I hate that I feel so confused right now! It’s like one minute i know what I’m feeling and thinking is right and the next I feel like i need to rethink every decision I’ve ever made just to stay safe.. I don’t know who i am able to trust from people I’ve known before 2 days ago or even after all of this is resolved if I’ll be still be safe.. or if you will still be a part of my life.. I just know I’m scared and confused.”
“I dont want to undermine your efforts or anything good you are doing to help me but I just feel scared and I don’t know how to deal with it.”
Val-
“It’s okay beautiful please don’t apologize I understand I promise i do.. I won’t take any of that personally.. I know it isn’t.”
Lucina-
“You said we can feel it more than we can mentally process everything right?”
“That our brains need balance?”
Val-
“Yeah the chemicals in your brain shift and for a period of time during and after shock it causes these kind of reactions and clouds your emotional and psychological senses that control your situational awareness.. the only thjnb that is capable of balancing or countering that is usually re-establishing your physical safety or something to yourself with a physical/emotional feeling that is strong and safe to comfort you and balance your sense of self security..”
Lucina-
“Like why I feel comfortable with you holding me or when you you pinch me..? That readjusts my balance?”
Val-
“I’m not pinching you beautiful haha I was applying pressure to your pressure points that also send physical signsls from your body and body..”
“There’s a pressure point in your arm i pressed on and another on your hip while we were in the shower… “
“What you feel when we kiss is slightly different.. that’s a physical/emotional and a slightly s****l combination and it releases more chemicals and a lot of faster… balance would be quicker that way and last longer..”
Lucina-
“Oh..”
Val-
“Haha yeah oh..”
“Here let’s open the duffel shall we?”
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