Savior

Chapter 12

Chapter12

Isabelle POV

I sit in my thoughts for minutes on end, not wanting to get up, but wanting to also rid myself of the thoughts going through my head. Jumping up from the couch, I head to the door with my resolution in mind: a shower. Whenever I was feeling stressed I always ran or took showers. Pulling the door open I proceed back to the twins' room. I walk into the closet Sebastian told me my clothes were in and look through it. It's a really big closet if I'm being honest. I go through the clothes Cassy and I got from the mall and decide on just a sports bra and a pair of gym shorts.

The bathroom is how I left it earlier; Closing the door, I put my clothes on the counter and look in the mirror.

My amber eyes are over bright and my hair unruly from me running my hand through it multiple times on end.

I wasn't even this stressed when I was a rogue. I had nothing to worry about except keeping myself alive, and that wasn't a problem.

35 minutes later I sat freshly shower in the chair by the door with a blow dryer. I do not know why they have one, but they do. I hope it's not another girls'; I would honestly go crazy.

While I'm finishing drying the last bits of my hair, the twins walk in. "Well, at least she didn't kill my mates." I mutter only loud enough for me to hear.

I look at them through the mirror I was using to see my hair. They look at me drying my hair before taking in what I am wearing. I swear I saw their eyes get a shade darker but I looked away too quickly. "I see you had a shower." Austin states.

"Well I had to do something since my mates were too busy to entertain me." I say.

I finish drying my hair and unplug the dryer. "Who's this?" I ask holding up the dryer.

"Ours. We use it when we're in a rush." Sebastian says, walking closer to me. I hum, standing to my feet. "Are you at us or something?"

I gasp, "Me? Mad? No, no, no. I'm not. I cannot speak for Ellie though." I say shaking my head. I wrap up the blow dryer and walk into the bathroom to put it back where I found it.

I walk back out of the bathroom and look at the twins. "Are you mad at me or something?" I ask them, innocent as ever.

"No.. We're honestly trying to figure out what we did." Austin says.

"Mhm. Would you like to talk to Ellie? I'm tired and I want to sleep." I tell them, twisting my hair back into a low bun. They nod.

Ellie, honey?

I don't want to talk to them Belle. Can we go for a run?  She asks, changing the subject.

"Well, my dear kings. Ellie does not want to talk to you." I say, walking over to the closet with them following behind me.

"Why not?"

"I do not know." I say turning back to them. "Turn around." They comply, turning their backs to me. I don't want to look at them. I pick out a pair of my short shorts, another sports bra, and some underwear to wear with them. The gym shorts will shred when I shift..

I push past the boys and walk over to the corner where I have the picture of me and Luna Elizabeth.

"Where are you going?"

"For a run." I reply picking up the picture and walking back past them.

They follow me through the pack house and outside to the trees.

"Why are you following me? I'm not a pup; I know how to keep myself safe." I say turning around to face them, coming to a stop.

"We know that. We just.."

"I won't be far. I will be back." I tell them, backing up a few steps. I dropped the clothes beside a tree and sat the picture on top. "Don't worry about me, I will be fine." I say before I shift into my wolf, effectively shredding my clothes in the process. I carefully take the picture in between my teeth; With one last look at the twins, I turn and run, looking for somewhere to let everything out.

I sit in my wolf form looking at the moon glistening off of the river in front of me. It's honestly peaceful out here.

I watch the water move, gently lapping up against the sides because of the winds. I shift back into my human form and take the pictures in my hands.

"I miss you, Luna Elizabeth." I mumble.

"I miss your laugh. I miss your smile. I miss the way you helped me and cared for me when no one else did." I speak into the darkness tears brimming in my eyes.

"Cassy misses you. She misses her sister. She's so sorry that she couldn't save you. I am sorry that I couldn't save you. I'm sorry that you died that day instead of me. I'm sorry that Alpha Thomas couldn't be the right mate for you. I'm sorry that I sat there and didn't try to help." I cry.

"You were like a mother to me, and I am so sad to have lost you." I whisper, holding the picture tighter.

"I'm sorry."

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I jump awake. I must've fallen asleep.

What time is it? How long was I out here?

I shake my head to clear away my mental fog. I need to get back to the twins. I shift back into my wolf and pick up the picture with my teeth before running back to their pack house. It's a straight shot since I didn't go far.

I stop at the tree where I dropped the clothes earlier and quickly shift back from my wolf. I pull the clothes on faster than I could comprehend and I shake my hair, watching the leaves fall.

I tuck the picture into my back pocket and take off in a sprint to the pack house. When I get there I quietly open the door and make my way up the stairs to the Alpha's floor. I quietly open the twins' bedroom door, so I don't wake them. I close it softly as well.

"Where were you?" Austin's voice greets my ears. I lean my head on the door. So much for not waking them.

"By the river." I reply quietly, my voice barely a whisper.

"No, you weren't. We looked for you."

"Well you looked at the wrong part." I say louder, my voice hoarse from earlier. I bring the picture in front of me and look at it.

"You said you weren't going to go far." Sebastian says, his voice low. I sigh and turn around with my head hung low and the picture in my hand.

"I didn't go far."

"Yes, you did Isabelle." He argues.

"Okay." I say. I do not want to argue, if that's the case I should've stayed out there.

"Okay?" He questions. I just nod my head.

"I'm not going to argue." I mutter and turn to the closet.

"We're not arguing." He says, his voice raised. I turn around and throw my hands up.

"What do you think this is? Talking?" I shout. He looks at me with anger, but it morphs into concern.

"You're crying." His voice is softer. I wipe at my eyes and turn back around.

"I don't cry." I walk into the closet and over to my clothes and drop the photo on it. I only cried around Luna Elizabeth. She's my weakness.

"I miss you." I mumble, turning around. I walk back out of the closest and the twins are standing there.

"What's wrong?" Austin asks, reaching for me. I move to the side. Sebastian thinks about reaching for me but decides against it.

"In 10 days it will be 7 years that I have spent without Luna Elizabeth. 7 years that I have had to live with guilt because I couldn't help her. Something I will never be able to change, no matter how much I cry or I say I'm sorry." I say.

"Isabe-"

"And you know what... the older I get, the more I realize: It was my fault. I could've helped her, but she told me to run. Ellie and I were strong enough. We were stronger than the other teens and a couple of the male warriors. But we sat there. We sat there and we didn't help her." I feel the tears falling down my face and I don't bother to wipe them.

"It's my fault." I whisper, defeated.

They both reach for me, and this time I don't move. They don't offer any words to console me and for that I am thankful.

"Let's sleep, Isabelle."

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I don't know how my body knows when it's 6AM, but it does. I slowly sit up, my eyes adjusting to the dark room. Austin and Sebastian lay asleep on either side of me.

I carefully get out of the large bed and walk over to the closest. I am in desperate need of a shower; I feel drained. Taking a quick 15 minute shower, I get dressed and walk back out to the room. The twins are still asleep so I decide to walk around.

There aren't a lot of people up at this hour. Just a couple of early risers, omegas and cooks. Liam is one of the early risers.

"Good morning, Lu- Isabelle." He greets.

"Good morning Liam. Where are you headed?" I ask, desperate to do something- ANYTHING.

"I'm on my way to the gym, ma'am. Would you like to join me?" He offers.

"Yes, please." I say eagerly. He laughs.

"Well, for starters, you're going to need more shoes. My wife has some that she doesn't use.." He trails off.

"Okay, anything else that I need?" I ask.

"No, that should be all. What are you trying to do?"

"I have nothing to do, and my mates are asleep. I don't want to look around without them because I smell rogue.. that wouldn't be smart."

He nods his understanding. "Come, let's get the shoes."

We make it to the gym and there are only a couple of people inside. There is a row of treadmills, a weight corner and in the back there are some boxing bags and a ring.

"Where would you like to start first, Lu- Isabelle?"

"Wherever you start." I reply.

"We are going to start with stretches first then. After we will rotate around the gym and end at the boxing area. Is that fine?" He asks. I nod, processing. "Keep up Luna." He states with a smirk. I laugh.

"I can." I reply, to his cocky statement, tying my hair back into a high ponytail.

It takes us all of two hours to complete the round of exercises. I can run longer and faster than Liam can.. but he can lift way more than I can. I loved the boxing area the most though. That's where we spent most of our time.

Now we are making our way to the kitchen, drenched in sweat, and in search of bottles of water. A woman with black shoulder length hair runs up to us but stops when she sees how drenched we are.

"Eww.. Liam honey, take a bath." She laughs. He smiles before turning to me.

"Isabelle, this is Liza, my mate and my wife. Liza, this is Isabelle-"

"Our mate and your Luna." I hear Austin say from behind me. Cue eye roll. I turn around to see him and Sebastian standing side by side, watching me.

"That's me." I say, waving my hand.

"It's nice to meet you Luna. I hope Liam didn't push you too hard." She says, bowing her head. Liam chuckles.

"Actually, quite the opposite. She kept up to whatever length I pushed her too." He turns to Austin and Sebastian. "3 miles in 5 minutes. Shocked me to the core. She's way faster than I am, she lifts more than any female I know, and she can pack a punch." He says, smiling.

The twins look like they've seen a ghost. "3 miles in 5 minutes?"

"Yeah, and I don't even think it was her pushing herself." Liam responds. They fall into a conversation and I zone them out.

"Would you like some water, Luna?" Liza asks.

"Please." I follow her into the kitchen, ready to pour water down my throat. She briefly speaks to someone about me being thirsty before she hands me a bottle of water. I don't hesitate to break the seal and gulp down its contents. It tastes a little funny but I shrug it off, blaming it on how fast I drank it. She hands me another bottle, and I smile. I open that one too, but drink it slower than I did the first one. We walk out of the kitchen the same time that the boys are coming in. Liam floats off with Liza.

"Where are you going?"

"To take another shower. I smell." I say pushing past them.

"I don't mind it.." Austin says. "It doesn't overpower your smell."

"I second that." Sebastian adds. I roll my eyes, but continue on my way up the stairs with them following behind me.

"What time did you wake, Isabelle?" Sebastian asks me.

"6. My body is on autopilot. It has been for most of my life." I tell them. I open the door to the room and I make my way to the closest to get something to wear.

When I walk back out of the closet the twins watch me from the bed. "What?"

They shake their heads so I move into the bathroom to take a quick shower.

My stomach is touching my soul. I am so hungry. I walk out of the bathroom, ready to eat.

"Satisfied?"

"Very. Have you both eaten?" I ask, toweling my hair.

"No, we were trying to find you." I hum.

"For you both to be Alphas you sleep in really late." I observe, more to myself than to them.

"We're Alphas. Not omegas." Austin says. I let out a scoff.

"Why do you make them get up so early? They need sleep too." I mumble. He looks at me for a minute before speaking.

"You were an omega?"

"How'd you figure?" I ask.

"You speak like you were one upon a time." He says. I walk into the closet and drop the towel.

"I was deemed an omega, but that has never been my rank." I say walking out of the closet. "Thomas didn't really like me. So what do you do to people you don't like? You degrade them. He thought making me an omega would teach me respect." I explain.

"But enough of that. Can we go eat?" I ask, not ready to get into my past. They nod and stand. We make our way back downstairs and to the kitchen.

"The cooks cooked earlier.. but they're gone now." Sebastian says. I nod, looking around the kitchen.

"I take it that both of you do not know how to cook?" I speak over my shoulder. Silence greets me. "Yeah, thought so. What would you both like?"

I walk up to the fridge and open it, looking at its contents.

"Whatever you fix, we'll eat." I shake my head.

"How old are both of you?"

"26."

"And you don't know how to cook? What have you been doing for 26 years?" I ask incredulously.

"We've never had to cook anything. We're barely in the kitchen." Austin says, his voice diminutive. I nod.

"How about pancakes, eggs and bacon? It's too early for solid food. Though I really want a burger."

"That is fine." Austin says.

"Tell us why Thomas didn't like you, Belle." Sebastian states. I move around the kitchen, grabbing things to make the food.

"There are multiple reasons."

"Stop being so evasive." He tells me, his voice rough.

"Evasive? Me?" I ask, turning around to face them with my hand on my chest. He and Austin just give me a look and wait for me to continue.

"Thomas didn't like me because Luna Elizabeth did. She told him one time when they were arguing over me: 'If I have to choose that pup over you I will. Mate or not, she is a daughter to me and I will not leave her.' Ever since then he hated my existence more." I say turning back to the stove.

"I can imagine why he would hate me though." I continue, mixing up the pancake batter. "His mate told him she would choose someone who wasn't even her blood over him." I let out a bitter chuckle, shaking my head.

I don't say anything else as I finish making us breakfast. I make both Austin and Sebastian plates that are full to the brim, while mine is just about half way full. They give me a inquisitive look.

"I don't like eating much. I never really did eat much after..." Luna Elizabeth died, I add in my head. They get what I was going to say.

"Why not?"

I shrug. "Thomas didn't want to feed me. Blamed me for her death." I say, feigning indifference.

"Why?"

"Why would he think I killed her?" I ask. They nod. I take a deep breath. I did not want to go through this right now.

"I had shifted extremely early. I mean early, early. He thought my wolf was unstable." I state picking up my fork. They look at me with calculating looks.

"How old were you?" Austin asks around the food in his mouth.

"Five."

"FIVE?!" They both choke, shocked. I nod.

"Most pups shift around 9 or 10. Not me. I had done everything in my life early. I started walking at 11 months, talking fluently at 18, and when I turned three I was ready to take on the world." I chuckle.

"My parents thought I was a witch. No one in werewolf history grew up as fast as I did." I'm talking more to myself now. "They disowned me when I was 4 and Luna Elizabeth took care of me then. Around that time there was this voice talking to me on and off. I knew I was a wolf, but I hadn't expected her to show up then. When I had turned 5, Luna Elizabeth and Alpha Thomas were arguing and Ellie thought he was going to hit her; I had thought so too. I didn't like how close he was to her or the way he was yelling in her face. Next thing I knew, my bones were breaking and reshaping themselves. I didn't scream or anything."

I stop and take a deep breath, reliving the memory.

I continued, "Everyone had stopped watching them and turned to me. Ellie and I stood there growling at Thomas, wanting to rip his head from his body. He was going to hurt her and we couldn't sit there and do nothing."

I stare at my food on my plate, my appetite gone.

"Luna Elizabeth came up to me, which was extremely dangerous, and she just kept telling me to calm down. Everyone thought I was going to kill her, but it was the opposite. Ellie's growls grew quieter, until they were nothing but whimpers. She shifted in front of me, telling me we were going to go for a run.. and we did just that. She took me to this cliff, and we sat up there all day in wolf form, with her teaching me the do's and don'ts through our link." I say, my voice is quiet.

"When we got back, Alpha Thomas gave her an alternative: Me or him." My voice is nothing but a whisper.

"Belle..." Sebastian speaks.

"She chose me."