Sassy and Scarred Luna

Chapter 7: sleepless thoughts

Kymbre Pov:

I watched my sister sleep beside me in the already too small bed but when a nurse tried to get her to move earlier I lost it. I growled and screamed at her for trying to take my sister away, take my safe place away. I only calmed down when my sister pulled me into a hug and got the nurse out of the room. I just sobbed into her shoulder after that.

Her snores were annoying and loud but something I was going to miss when I left. I had no idea if I was going to leave for good even if it sounded good to me. I had a few people in the pack I cared about but the ones I loved and felt any loyalty toward was even less. When I thought on it I figured out the number was two, my sister and our Alpha. He hadn't really been just an Alpha since he figured out what was happening at home and took us into his care.

'They love us and would do anything for us.' My wolf, Candy, linked showing her own affection for them. 'I know it is hard to think of being away from them but I know it will help us grow and learn to depend on ourselves.'

I knew she was right. Someone had always been there to save me no matter the situation. My mother saved me from a rogue when I was a toddler, my sister saved me too many times to count from my father and some bullies at school, Argus saved me from my father, and the head chef here took me under wing to save me from running away from it all. Cooking had become my safe place especially when members of the pack whispered about our father and had loudly wondered why such a strong warrior would do that to anyone. Like we were to blame or something.

'Those members are just nosy nellies and you know it.' She had wanted to tear them a new one but I was too scared that I would make their case of me being the reason my dad did turn crazy. 'At a new pack we will have to hold our head high and stand up for ourselves. Plus we might find our mate which would be awesome.'

My stomach felt sick and heavy like a lead stone had dropped in it. I had always wanted to find my mate and I often dreamed of the life we would live. I didn't care if they were male or female as long as they loved me. I imagined cooking them amazing meals, doing pack runs together, and having a small but beautiful home on the edge of the pack lands. Every time I imagined the home it had baby blue shutters, a decked out kitchen, and a shower big enough for both of us. Another constant was being a virgin when we first got together and now that was shattered.

I took a shaky deep breath feeling the sadness pierce my heart again. The tears that had barely stopped started again. I hated this. I hated how I felt, how he made me feel, and how I was making my sister feel. She hated being useless and hated that the person who caused me to feel this way was untouchable with him being in the dungeons. I was also a reason why she hadn't killed him. I wanted him to be shamed publicly and I wanted him to suffer. Death would be too easy but it also meant more problems for me.

'We are going to another pack so we will be fine.' Candy insisted as everything started to overload my head and my heart. 'Don't give up now. Don't let Bert and his pathetic mate win.'

"Sometimes I wonder if everyone's lives would be better if I was dead." I replied even though I knew I could never kill myself. That was the selfish way out.

"Never say that again." My sister growled surprising me enough I jumped and slipped off the bed landing with the covers surrounding me and her looking down at me. Her expression a mixture of anger and worry.

"Ho-?"

"You said it out loud. I never want you to say anything like that out loud or even in your head. No one would be better without you." Kiera threw her hand out to me and waited. "Get back up here and get some sleep. Don't make me call the doctor in here to give you sleeping pills."

"You wouldn't dare!" I let her pull me onto the bed a bit rougher than normal but I was going to let it go. No bruises so no fight needed just yet. "Scoot over. You yanked me across your lap."

"For a reason and for the record I would call your nurse so fast it would make your head spin." Before I could reply she was landing a sharp swat on my ass. "You are going to get five of these for saying so stupid."

I tried to push myself off of her but she held me in place with one arm. Damn her and her muscles. I should have listened years ago and started training with her. Her smile was enough for me to know she agreed.

Another slap landed against my ass cheek right before another on the other cheek. "You are an amazing she-wolf and the best sister I could ever ask for." Another smack on each cheek with me whining from the sting which she ignored. "You are strong, smart, loyal, and stubborn like a damn mule but its kind of endearing. You mean the world to me and to Argus. This world is better off with you in it even with your s**t cooking."

I huffed already done. "You done spanking your sister like a creep?"

"Is my pain in the ass sister listening and understanding what I am saying?" I heard the smile in her voice.

"Maybe." She spanked me again. "Fine. I get it. I am awesome and everyone is better that I am here or whatever."

Another spank before she shoved me beside her. "Good. Now let's see about getting a snack before going to bed." She glared at me.

"You will be sleeping so figure your crap out or the nurse comes with the good stuff."

She could be such a witch sometimes. I loved her though.