8. Down the rabbit hole
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Author's note: This is a chapter that does contain subject matter that may be triggering for some readers. As always, reader discretion is advised.
February 18th, 1998
Today is Ang's 5th birthday. I couldn't help but feel bad about it all... Not being able to do anything... Having to beg and steal to be able to even feed us... let alone get her a gift... We've been on our own for 3 months now. I was really hoping I would have found a new pack by now. However, no one would even look at us let alone help us. She was wrapped up in the only blankets we had in our box. I was outside begging for food again. I didn't even look at those passing by, I just stared at my feet as usual. Some guy with these fancy shoes stopped in front of me. I assumed he was reading the sign I was holding.
"What is your name, dear?"
His voice was a bit raspy. He definitely sounded older but I was afraid to look up at him.
"Erica, sir."
"And how old you, Erica?"
"I'm 13, sir."
"Hmm... so you have a sister? How old is she?"
"She's 5, sir... she's sleeping right now."
"Were?"
"Yes, sir."
"Where's your parents?"
"I don't know, sir."
He had me get Ang. I just carried her while she was wrapped up in the blankets keeping her warm while I was shivering. He led us through the streets to a car that was waiting with some guy standing beside it waiting.
"Alpha, are these the girls?"
"Yes. For now, they will stay with me. Make sure Marty is alerted and waiting for us at the packhouse."
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Days went by yet I wouldn't hear a single thing other than one other heartbeat. And this beating did not belong to Ang. I could feel I was restrained to a bed... Something covered my eyes keeping me from being able to see... I would move to try and break free but it seemed the restraints would only tighten.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you. I have a deal for you... should you agree to be my mate, you and your sister will be free... you will become members of our pack and will be treated as such. However, your sister is not to know the truth about who you are... That is to be kept secret unless I decide otherwise. She will be protected, just like you would be too."
"I'm only 13... I don't want to be a mate to anyone..."
"Well, then we would keep her as a servant until she is no longer of use. Then she would join you in your fate... You should know what happens to rogues... It would take a mundane to not see how special she actually is."
"If I agree to this... no harm will come to Ang?"
"She will be protected until she is of age. Then her decisions will be her own."
"Deal..."
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March 27th, 2000
Jordan has promised that Ang is doing well... we are preparing to make everything official... since I have finally gained my wolf and my period... I am to become Jordan's mate... officially... Basically, the entire pack is to watch as he deflowers me... I have no choice in this... it is the only way to keep Ang safe... Perhaps I will grow to love him in the end... I'm just scared... I really shouldn't have to make decisions like this at 15... but I promised my parents to protect her with all I have... I have to make sure she makes it to age so she can learn the truth... Moon Goddess forgive me...
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June 12th, 2003
Ang is 10 now... Jordan says she is the best warrior they have seen... but she has such a pretty face he doesn't want her on the front lines... whatever that means... she excels in her lessons and even annoys the elders with her being such a know-it-all. I couldn't be prouder of my sister... I am 19 today... We are officially getting married tomorrow and Jordan is taking over as Alpha. I hope Jordan will be happy... I still can't stand the way he talks about Ang and the look of disgust he gives me but at least he is keeping his promise and keeping her safe... I just wish I was strong enough to protect myself and keep her safe without needing Jordan's assistance...
I couldn't help but notice an omega working in the kitchen last night... Just the way her clothes hung on her body and accentuated her curves... her smile that would extend up to her eyes leaving them twinkling... I knew she wasn't my mate but I couldn't help but look and admire the view. Jordan was not happy... He grabbed me by my hair and dragged me back to our room... I definitely feel like I have gotten more use than a punching bag since then but at least I have lots of makeup to help hide the marks he left... I'll do whatever it takes to keep my sister takes... even if he ends up killing me...
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August 8th, 2005
Ang is 12 if my math is correct. Jordan doesn't even let me see her let alone know how she is. He did say that she doesn't recall having any siblings and believes she is an only child. He thinks her finding out the truth would only cause more harm than good. I guess it's better this way. As long as he is happy, she is safe. I'm planning on telling him tonight the good news... the pack doctor confirmed it for me... I am pregnant with twins... a boy and a girl... Life is certainly going to be more interesting. I have a couple names picked out... Jerry Lewis Mansfield and Annabelle Grace Mansfield.
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September 29th, 2005
Why did I have to provoke him... He hit me so hard... only the pack doctor knows the truth and is too afraid of the alpha... She said that one of the babies did not survive the hit... Once Jerry is born, she will be laid to rest... I can't believe this happened... My poor baby... I have to do anything and everything to protect Jerry... It's bad enough I'm losing one child... I can't lose Jerry too...
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December 18th, 2008
Jerry is doing so well... We are about to hit the three-nager phase and I'm not looking forward to it... Jordan is happy that Jerry has an alpha aura and instincts about him already. I just hope this parenting thing gets easier... Every time Jerry acts poorly, I get punished for it... Yet any time I go to correct Jerry's behavior, I get punished for it as well... it's as if I can't do anything right... although according to Jordan, that's exactly the case....
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March 1st, 2011
Jordan finally gave me an update on Ang... he set her up with one of the other omegas... Seth... he's a police officer or something... they are engaged but she won't mate with him at all... and she doesn't seem to be thrilled with the idea of getting married... and she still has no idea who I am... Jerry enjoys spending time with her though he doesn't know who she is either. She just babysits him whenever we need. She is also studying for insurance licenses... I helped Jordan study when he was about her age... that stuff is not easy... I am just so proud of her... I wish I could tell her the truth... but doing so too early will put her, Jerry, and myself in danger... I just hope Moon Goddess will continue to give me the strength to endure...
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