My Guardian Angel

Chapter 11

I screamed and wrestled with my abductor. ‘Let me go!’ I yelled

I looked down and saw how high up in the air I was and froze. If my abductor lets me go, I would tumble down back to earth and my death would be instantaneously.

I tried to make out my abductors features, but saw nothing familiar.

I tried to enjoy the view, but the whole kidnapping part distracted me a lot. I didn’t know what my abductor wanted or where he was taking me. He could kill me and no one would know that I died.

I gulped some air down and thought of ways to escape and realized that I had none.

When someone can drag you against your will and fly up into the sky with your body dangling in mid air, I’m sure the survivor rate is zero.

I don’t know how long I was up in the air, but the wind was burning my skin.

My abductor hasn’t said a word to me this whole time. 

I was tired of waiting for him to say something and I was tired of being terrified all the time lately so I screamed ‘What do you want?’

I was surprised at how even my voice was. I was freaking out and shaking uncontrollably.  I waited for a reply while holding my breath at the same time. If my abductor is going to kill me, I wish he would just get it over with. My nerves can’t take it anymore! After all this silence I was ready to break free. I would rather die falling than be tortured again. I figured I would bite his hand since kicking and screaming failed terribly the last time around. I just want this to be over. I would rather control my own death where it was quick and painless so it was now or never.

I bit him as hard as I could on his hand and I didn’t stop until the sound of his scream made me fly.

The next few moments were breathtaking. It felt like I was soaring through the skies and seeing the world for the first time. The scenery was so beautiful; I have never seen anything like it. Everything was clearer and I could see beautiful houses with the most amazing yards from near to far. It felt like a movie being played, it felt unreal. I smiled, closed my eyes and thought of the past couple of months and I felt a wave of relieve wash over me. I felt at peace for the very first time in my life. I am ready to die; I am ready to be at peace. I would miss my family extremely, especially dad. I was blessed to have such a compassionate, loving and understanding dad who never let me down, no matter the consequences. Mom has always been so loving and kind even though she was extremely overprotective. My dad always understood me, just like Sam. I will miss Sam dearly. She has been an extraordinary friend. I don’t know how I would have survived living without Sam. She has been there for me ever since I can remember; a part of me accepted her as my sister. I know losing me would be difficult for her, but a part of me knows that Sam would be alright. She has always been the anchor in our friendship.

I want to die remembering my guardian angel’s eyes looking straight at me. I hope we see each other in heaven. Hopefully he doesn’t blame himself for what happened to me. He did warn me and I was reckless so it was totally my fault and I will accept the consequences for my actions.

I cleared my mind and enjoyed the last few minutes of living.

And just like that I was ripped back into the arms of my abductor. I tried to pull free, but it was no use. He was gripping me so hard I knew his fingers would be bruised into my skin. Instead of flying up, he flew down back to civilization. When we were near the ground he dropped me and landed a few feet away. My legs were shaking so I knew I couldn’t run so I started crawling backwards and before I knew it he was staring down at me furiously, gripping my arms. I winced at his touch. He could crush me in a matter of seconds with hands this strong.

‘What were you thinking? Of all the stupid things that you have done, this was by far the worst! You could have died angel! Are you even listening to me?’ he was starting to grip me harder and shaking me. I was in shock! I couldn’t speak and I couldn’t believe my eyes.

‘Are you alright? Please, just say something angel. I am sorry if I scared you, because that was not my intentions. I was trying to protect you.’ He pleaded. I cleared my throat and tried to speak.

‘You? You took me? I thought… I thought you were my guardian angel. How could you do this?’ I demanded. I got up and stared at him, then something clicked and I froze.

 ‘Wait, your mister Santana my new History teacher? Is this some kind of a joke?’

 My life is such a mess! I felt a familiar hand touch my face. He looked concerned and tried to touch my face but I pushed him away.

‘Are you alright angel?’ he asked and looked hurt by my actions.

‘No I’m not fine! What the hell is going on? What am I suppose to call you now?’ I shouted at him. He was two very different people. Is he my teacher or my guardian angel? Why was he not telling me the truth? I was so angry!

‘Julian, you can call me Julian.’ He exclaimed. ‘What the hell is going on Julian?’ I was freaking out.

‘I am Julian. I was sent here to protect you from any harm. You are my assignment angel. I took a job at your school to be closer to you even though that is against the rules.’ He looked away and stared at the ground. It seems like he has a lot of rules that he is not following.

‘How long?’ I asked in a soft and gentle tone. He stared at me and looked confused. I took a deep breath and tried again.

‘How long have you been watching over me Julian?’

He looked me straight in the eyes with so much love and compassion.

 ‘Since you were born. I have been there for you for sixteen years angel.’

I didn’t know what to say to that.  He has known me my whole life and yet I do not know anything about him. He has watched me grow and he has been there with every nightmare, every fall and every embarrassing moment that has happened to me thus far. I didn’t know if I wanted to hit him or just run away. This was a lot to take in. I have been thinking about two very different people and now I have discovered that they have just been one person: Julian.

Okay I don’t think he is a person. He is an angel, a guardian angel that has been sent here to protect me.

The question that is bothering me is from what is he protecting me?

I have been wishing for days that my guardian angel would show up so that I can see him again and now that he is in front of me I don’t know if I should be smiling or crying. I am so embarrassed.

‘Why didn’t you just let me fall Julian? It was my decision! I am sick of this life!’ I yelled at him. My soul was crying out to be released and he stopped me. I felt so angry at the world and I just wanted to be free. Was that too much to ask for? I was ready to die and move onto a new world. This life was never meant to be. My dad said that I almost didn’t make it at birth and ever since then it has been a struggle. I was destined to die as a baby, but no one would allow it and if no one would allow it I would make it happen. My mind was screaming at me to let it end, begging me to give in. Life on earth has been throwing me curve balls since the day I was born. It was time to start a new journey and no one was going to stop me, not even Julian.

Without saying another word I turned around and marched away from him hoping that he would disappear from my life forever and hoping he would let me go.