Goddess Gave Me You

Bubbly

We returned home after some time driving. I was the first one out of the car, and rushing up the stairs.

Taking two at a time, I was in my room before my parents managed to close the car door.

All I wanted at this very moment was to have time with myself. Time to think about Julien. Time to think about Daniel, and not to mention that nice new werewolf boy I met at the party.

But what I mainly needed time to think about was me. How can I be in the middle of something I didn't even know about. Something so big my little brain couldn't even comprehend.

Just trying to make sense of what is going on made my brain swell with pain. So much was going on and I needed someone to talk to.

But who could I talk to, when Julien was my only friend I talk to about anything. No one could know about the relationship Julien and I had.

I need someone to talk to, or else I might go mad. I thought, as I began to undress. Slipping the grand dress from my fit figure, and letting it fall to the floor in a heap.

I stepping over the fallen dress, I walked to my bathroom; to run myself a nice warm bubble bath to soak in.

Moments later I found myself lying back in my claw foot tub; hair in a messy bun and humming along to Celine Dion- My heart will go on.

I felt as if I was soaking off all of my worries with just a bubble bath. It felt good. Not having to worry about anything, for the time being. I found myself worrying more and lately with the stress of taking over the pack, once I became of age.

I let out a quick huff of frustration. I can never seem manage to completely stop thinking about Alpha duties, and I'm not even the alpha yet.

I wonder what my life would be like if I had an older bother. Someone to take over the pack, so I don't have to. Someone I could play with until he got to the age were playing with your sister wasn't cool, or maybe just someone I could go to for advice, because he'd been there before. Maybe if I had this brother I so foundry thought of, then just maybe I would of never met Julien.

Meeting Julien was the best thing that ever happened to me and I wouldn't give up what we have for anything. Even if that meant give up the brother I always wanted.

I giggled at myself. Here I was just thinking about Julien, when in reality he wasn't even mine. I have a mate out there somewhere, and I need to stay faithful to him; where ever he might be.

Yes, I needed to be faithful, but I could help this sexually attraction I have for Julien. Maybe it was his deep smooth voice and the way my name sounded when he called for me. Just thinking about it make my legs tremble in bliss. Or maybe the way his body was sculpted by Goddess herself. Every time he would change in front of me, I could see his sleek toned body, or under his tight fitting shirts, how his abs rippled underneath. Not to mention that prominent "v-shape" he was working with, that was a happy trail the showed you the way to his enormous p***s.

I have never seen a p***s before, but seeing the outline of Julien's made me curious.

It made me curious to know what it looked like or even how it would feel during intimacy.

Does it feel like how every girl describes it?  Pleasurable, or a pleasure you can't describe but instead you have to experience it yourself.

Or, does it hurt like some other girls claim.

All I know is that curiosity has me, and I'm begging to feel it. Wether it be pain or pleasure I wanted to experience " making love" with someone.

Actually I want my first time to be with Julien.

Oh goodness, what am I saying!

These dirty thoughts have to stop. Julien doesn't think of me like that. Yes, he cares for me but you and I both know he means it like a friend would. Friend zoned.

He has been there for me since I was 4, what kind of man could be there for you like a best friend, and then as soon as you come to age want to f**k your brains out.

Hm, maybe friends with benifits?

That doesn't make sense to me, I thought as I pulled the plug letting the water drain out of the tub.

Just sitting in the emptied tub I thought more about what type of relationship Julien and I had.

Was it a real friendship?

Or a pity-friendship, where he only did it because he felt sorry for me.

A babysitter type relationship?

Well whatever type it is, I'm sure Julien knows it.

I eventually got out of the tub, and wrapped my robe around myself while I finished it with a tie of the belt.

I was laying on my bed, unmotivated to get up and put real clothes on. So I laid in nothing but my robe , letting everything hit me at once.

Daniel, was about to die at the hands of Julien. Julien was about to take Daniel's life with his bare hands. Daniel's mother as well as my mother are trying to set Daniel and I up. And don't forget about James, the attractive werewolf from the party.

And they all had one thing in common. 

Me.

What's a girl to do?

Getting cozy in my duvets, I heard the faint sound of a vibration. What was that sound and where was it coming from. I turned my room upside down until I found the source of the sound. It was my cellphone ringing underneath some clothes of mine. I checked the caller ID and it said Blocked, but I picked up anyways.

"Hello?"