Remember to Forget

Chapter 16

XAVIER

Although I made a mistake last night I wasn't going to allow Jia Xia get away from me anymore.

I needed her to see just who I really was.

I wanted her to want me.

I needed her to need me.

I couldn't let all my fathers efforts go to waste.

And most importantly her freedom.

She gave up literally everything and came to me.

Even after her father had thrown her out and disowned her she still choose to saty here, whe said she had no choice but I am sure she had at least one.

Last night I called her mother and got her school schedule.

I looked at the time the table. Her classes started at 9.

So thats why she left so early.it takes just about 3 hours from A city by bus to Shanghai.

I decided I would drop her to school from now on.

I did some research on schools in our area or closer to A city but non were as good as her current school.

I was unhappy she had to travel so far every day but I decided it was her decision to make.

The next morning I got up just before her and got ready.

I waited outside in the cold.

Yeah it was middle of the winter and I was waiting outside.

Lucky my car has a heater.

I was so excited to see her expression.

Will she be happy or surprised.

But the minute she came out she barely showed any emotion, she walked pass the car I hooted at her and even told her I would be her person slave, if I could put it that why but she just kept walking.

Thats it.

I got off the car and picked her up bridal style.

My heart was racing so fast.

I placed her in the seat but she kept on trying to get out.

"Are you going to be a good girl and sit still or do you want me to kiss you again?"

She blush so bad, her cheeks were red as tomatoes.

I finally knew my answer.

I did have an effect on her.

The whole drive to Shanghai I couldn't help looking at her.

She was still flushed.

Was she thinking about our kiss.

She looked at me and I looked away.

I can't let her see my emotions so easily.

When we stopped at the school I saw a boy standing by the gate.

He was staring at my car and I knew he must be waiting for Jia Xia.

Her mom mentioned she had a close male friend here.

I took this opportunity to actually kiss her again.

That's right, he needs to know who she belongs to.

She froze.

But again her cheeks betrayed her emotions.

She fled from the car.

I watched as they greeted each other and walked in.

I can't believe how jealous I already was.

We were married but we aren't that close yet I get so nervous when I know someone else is also part of her life, as specially a male.

I drove back home and got ready for work.

At the office I met my father.

We had a meeting on my previous contract with a shipping company and sorted out some legal issues.

I was about to leave for lunch when my dad called me to his office.

"Xavier... I invited your in laws over for dinner this evening, please attend."

I got nervous.

"Dad, are you sure this is the right time, you know how they feel about our marriage, and well..."

My dad smiled than spoke

"Listen you need to show them you are seriously trying to make this marriage work so be there early and make sure to send Sam to pick up Jia Xia and bring her to my home okay."

I knew he had a point.

I cleared my schedule and made all the necessary arrangements.

By 2:30 I left the offand went to my father's house, my mother in law was already there but not my father in law.

I somehow knew he would come.

He was really angry that day.

I started the fire and when I looked uo I saw Jia Xia.

She is so beautiful.

I love her smile.

When she smiles I forget everything.

She sat with oir parents but than came to help me.

They must be talking things she didn't want to hear.

I jokingly mentioned they were close.

And her response wasn't surprise it was actually acknowledgment.

She knew they use to be lovers yet she wasn't upset.

I than told her that first love wasn't always last love.

I wanted her to know that I had fallen in love with her, bit she brushes it of as a joke.

O well...

We cooked the meat and had dinner.

Everything was perfect.

My phone rang.

I looked at it.

BELLA.

Why would she call me.

I had a strange feeling so I got up and answered it.

I walked as far as possible.

"Bella, what do you want?"

She started laughing.

"My love, you already know the answer... You of course... Silly, you thought I would let go so easily..."

I was fuming.

"Listening stop all your games. I want to be with Jia Xia and no one can stop me, do you understand..."

She was quite for a while than spoke again.

"Really, are you willing to gamble with that little girl's life, thats fine lets see just how far you are willing to go..."

I looked at Jia Xia at that moment our eyes met.

I couldn't allow anyone to hurt her.

I had do protect her.

I turned my attention back to what bella was saying.

" Bella, please just stop, can't we just move past this... What do you want from me...? "

" Well, I can stop but you have to come back to me, I need you by my side... If you come back to me, I will keep my hands of your precious wife... But understand one thing Xavier, if you are any different towards me, I won't spare that little bitch... Understood... "

I was still thinking how to respond when suddenly my father came and Grabbed the phone.

" Come take him if you want him so badly...! "

My father was fuming.

" Xavier, your wife has been watching you, yet you feel no shame! "

He pointed at Jia Xia.

" Damit, dad, listen to me... Bella won't leave her alone if she can't have me... No one els could... I have no choice... "

" Your so stupid Xavier..."

My father said and walked away.

I was so angry.

I don't know what to do.

I looked up and saw Jia Xia walk away.

O good she must think we are arguing over her.

How can this day get any worse.

Than came a message.

" Hey babe, I'm out side... "

Bella sent the message.

I ran out and saw her waiting in her car.

I looked back at the house.

What aboit Jai Xia.

I saw sam.

"Sam, please take my wife home... O and if she asks about me tell her I left to go to the office for a meeting..."

I jumped in Bella's car and we left.

My heart was left back at my father's home.

We drove to her old house.

We walked in and the minute I closed the door Bella's had already taken off all her clothes.

I would have taken her right there bit that was the old me.

I didn't find her attractive anymore.

She actually gave me a sickness in my stomach.

I looked away.

"Bella, what are you doing."

She was now in front of me pressing her breast against my chest her hand rubbing my neck she was pressing her lios to my neck.

Than she whispered in my ear.

"Xavier, make love to me..."

I pulled away.

I couldn't find the spark I needed to actually get hard.

It was impossible to have s*x if my d**k wasn't going to respond.

"Bella please... I am not in the mood.."

She started undoing my shirt buttons.

Slowly she pulled my shirt of mu shoulders.

Next she mived down to my trouser, I grabbed her hands.

I knew it wasn't what I wanted.

But I decided to make her happy.

I suddenly thought of Jai Xia.

My whole body got hot.

I felt my d**k responding to my thoughts.

I grabbed Bella's neck and pulled her up I kissed her hard.

I kept thinking about Jia Xia.

This wasn't me making love to Bella.

This was me making love to my wife.

I picked her up and walked her to the room.

I pushed her down on the bed.

She was smiling but her smile wasn't the same as Jia Xia.

I flipped her over so I won't have to see her face.

I pulled her closer to me.

He ass was rubbing again my d**k.

I was s****l frustrated.

I needed to get the release.

I touched her sweet spot, playing with her while rubbing my d**k hard against her ass.

When she was moaning louder than our breathing I pushed myself hard into her.

"Aww... Yes..."

Came her scream.

I hated her some much.

I grabbed her hair and pulled it hard.

I never had hard s*x with her ever before.

But this was my way of punishment.

I hit her on her ass.

Thrusting in to her hard and fast.

She looked back at me.

I grabbed her neck and pushed her face back down.

I didn't want to see her face.

I kept pounding into her.

I heard her scream.

"Xavier... Aww... Slowly..."

I didn't care.

I pulled out than push her on her back.

I got ontop of her and grabbed her neck.

"This is what you'll be getting from now on... I hate you... And if you want to habe me f*****g you, take it or get out!"

I had become a monster.

I was nearly choking her.

She nodded and smiled.

Than I released her and pulled her legs apart forcefully.

I looked at her.

I teased her.

Rubbing my head over her p***y.

Dipping my head in to her a few times before again pulling away.

I grabbed her breast hard.

I saw the pain on her fave but tjats what I wanted.

I had completely changed tactics.

I couldn't make love to this women.

That was reserved for Jia Xia.

I had to punish Bella, in the one way she wouldn't want to be punished.

Sje loved having s*x and we made love often I was always gentle and made sure to pleasure her before myself.

Well no more!!!

I pushed into her hard and fast.

I steady my pase and soon I felt myself ready to explode.

I pulled out just in time.

I came over her stomach.

The c*m was over her breast and even on her hair.

I looked at jer in discontent.

She looked upset.

But she didn't show it.

She gave me a Evil smile and started rubbing herself.

She soon placed her finger inside herself.

I couldn't watch.

I felt my stomach turn.

She was such a wretched woman.

I walked out and got in the shower.

After I showered she alo showered.

We sat in the kitchen when she started talking.

"Xavier... You can try and punish me by hurting me with s*x but baby... I like it hard... Soooo.. And that reminds me..."

She got up and fetched a document.

She handed it to me.

"I drew up a agreement between us...

If you stay by my side and play tje loving boyfriend for the next 2 years I promise I won't hurt Jia Xia..."

I feel like my heart is being squeezed.

I read the contract and checked it all.

"Are you sure?,,, because for all I know you won't stop until we're divorced..."

She smiled.

"I guess you have no choice but to trust me..."

I was struck in between a rock and hard place.

What do I do.

I wont sign this bullshit.

"No... You jave to trust me... I will do whatever you want bit tou have to stay away from Jia Xia... Its a two way street Bella, and I won't sign anything ever again... You want my trust than you beter do the same for me... That the only deal you'll get!"

She looked at me.

" Okay... Thats fair...but if you slip up once!, i will send her your performance video of today's little s*x game we had... "

Wait she actually recorded that.

This woman was to sly.

I just nodded.

I went home but Jai Xia was sleeping.

I already broke my marriage once again.

But this was the only way to keep her safe.

The next few day I worked and when I got home I avoided Jia Xia out of guilt.

Even seeing Nooma made me feel ashamed.

The week passed so fast

Saturday morning Bella called and said I should take her shopping.

It was the last thing on my mind.

But again she used Jai Xia against me.

I have to end this soon.

I walked with her in the mall, she whispered in my ear.

"you better start acting my lover.... Or else..."

I suddenly became timid.

I hugged her and kissed her held her hand and carried her bag...

I can't be with this woman!

We went to her house again and again we had s*x.

This was the routine.

We would go out do whatever and come back to have s*x.

I hated it.

I struggled to keep it up.

My heart and mind wasn't working with my body.

But I somehow managed, even if I had to go slow.

Monday I heard Sam say Jia Xia didn't come home and he saw her with a boy.

I was loosing my mind!!!!

How dare she! She was my wife.

And she slept outside and that with a boy!

I had to see for myself.

The next day I waited for her at the school gate.

She was walking with that punk I saw the first day.

It must be him.

I walked uo to her when she came out but she avoided me and jumped in the back.

I was sure this wasn't normal.

I gotbin and drove back.

I missed looking at jer beautiful face.

But she had the audacity to compare herself to that despicable Bella.

I wanted to tell her she was the most beautiful woman and that Bella had nothing on her but I couldn't.

I got out and opened her door but she got out from tje other side.

She... She...

Thats it...

I grabbed her arm

".... Dont test me little girl..."

"Get your dirty hands off me..."

She said and pulled away.

I felt her words true.

I was filthy.

That Woman had tainted me.

But I couldn't let her go so easily.

She walked up the stairs nad and into her room.

I had to go after her.

I wasn't going to act out but at that moment I only wanted her.

I pushed her against the wall her jand above her head.

She looked so good, i wanted to have her right now.

I wasn't waiting any longer.

I let go of jer hands and kissed her.she stood like a statu.

Not even breathing.

It was breaking my soul.

Than she pushed me away and actually vomited...

Fuck!!!

God Damit!!!

She already hates me so mush my touch makes her sick!!!!

I had to get out of there I got in my car and drove to Bella's.

It was her fault.

Whe I got there I went up to her door and knocked.

She opened the door I didn't wait for her to say anything.

I had so much going on in my head.

I pushed her against the wall jer face pressing against it.

I held her in place with my arm across her neck.

I pushed her dress up and pulled her panties down.

I didn't wait for her to get turned on or anything.

I kicked her legs apart than thrusted hard into her from behind.

I f****d her hard.

Not removing pressure from her neck.

She was trying to get free but I kept her pinned against the wall.

I thrusted harder and harder and harder.

Suddenly I saw blood running down her legs.

I let her go immediately.

What the f**k.

She slid down to the ground.

I watched her in horror.

"Call the ambulance Xavier... Our baby..."

What was she talking about.

I didn't care just yet so I picked her up and ran to my car.

I put her on the seat.

The whole drive I kept thinking about how hard I was going on her...

If I knew i would have...

O god...

Why didn't she tell me.

I had so many questions.

But I had to het jer to tje hospital.

At the hospital they rushed her into the emergency room.

The doctor examined her.

She had had a miscarriage.

She was 4 months pregnant.

I knew it was mine because we had lots of unprotected s*x before all this things happened.

She was pregnant when she left for England.

What was she planning why didn't she tell me when she found out.

How did I not notice.

Like what just happened.

The doctor told me she miscarried because of hard impact on her cervix.

I knew what I had done.

This was all my fault.

What do I do now...