serina , my baby

engagements and broken homes

serina's POV

oké so I was pissed but every time I looked at my sweet little baby's, it just felt like I could concur the world I loved them and I felt only love when I looked in their eye's I had to stay a while and I did not wanted to see Jayson I just have one week left and I know I would have to talk to him because they are his kids. Even though a part of me wants to just leave him and block him out of our lives I know I couldn't because I did not have the money.

then I heard a knock on the door. This was to weird because no one ever came to see me the only person I kind of expected was Jayson but he did not bother to come see us after I told him to leave.

"uhh.... come in? "

the same tall woman from the papers stepped in the room with a smirk on her lips. I sigh frustrated. I really do not like her right now I could kill her what do they say again 9 months pregnant and 9 months to get the hormones out. well at least the docker said so

" can I help you " I ask trying to not show her that she is getting to me.

" wel yes , you see I came here to look at MY kids " she smiled weirdly of cours this s**t got my mommy instincts awake ready to kill before she could continue I bark at her

"you beter get the f**k away from MY KIDS !" jumped up I swear I could kill her

" Well since Jayson is going to marry me , it they wil be my kids as well right ? " she smirked looking at me

I froze on the spot not a week ago he wanted to marry me he wanted me to be his now he is marrying thiss...thing? only thing I could do is press the button for the nurse as the nurse came in I cleared my throat tearing my eye's away from hers

"make sure I do not have to see this woman again she is not allowed to see the kids I know you will hold to this I have full custody " I said with tears in my eye's holding my head high

oke so I had to get away with my kids somehow , just don't know how yet he knows where I live and I have a little saved but not enough to get away and live from until I can work. I ran my hand trough my hair again frustrated and feeling trapped. what did I ever do to deserve this s**t I got a week left and things are getting worse as we speak my foon is going Jayson calling me and I do not dare to pick up they kind of kicked his fiance out and I asked them to keep them both out I do not want to see none of them ever again.

1 AM

my foon is buzzing non stop I eventually pick it up the kids are sleeping finally so I got time though I am so tired.

"what! "I snap at him

I hear him sigh

"Serina can I please come in ? "

"no you are really something you know " I say finally letting my tears run free

" I know but we have to talk please "

I sigh "geus we could talk but , just not in my room I'm coming out where are you ? "

" right by the elevator "

I walk as slow as possible to the elevator and when I reach I look at him he looks awful sexy but just, tired and broken. he has bags onder his eye's like he has not slept in weeks.

" what is it ? " I ask concerned yes I know I should be happy he is looking like this but I worry about him geus because I care I think I might have loved him at one point.

" I had to see you why did you tell the nurse to keep me away ? "

" I , .. you'r fiance passed by and I kind of lost it "

"what ? "he asks confused

"look you remember when you said you loved me and I say it back and s**t? Well I kind of did love you at a one point it was not meaningless words coming out and you did not mean it when you said it, you just sat there lie and play with me like I am a toy. Although I should not , I do wish you get to have a happy life with you'r fiance I wish you get to be happy just not with my baby's you can have it all ,but you lost us and we will not be sitting around waiting for you to come get us"I speak my voice cracking from the tears that fall down

"baby don't cry , I meant it every word I swear , just listen " he whispers

"no I'm done listening Jayson save it for you'r soon to be wife ! "I whisper yell at him stil crying he made me cry I cant believe him

"listen baby its just I don't want to marry her but I have to, let me explain " he says begging

"what Jayson, what excuse are you going to use? "I roll my eye's he takes my hands and I try to pull away.

Then he does it he steals my heart again. He presses his lips on mine, holding my hair and I want to be mad and hold my self not giving in he is engaged , but I missed him. I did ,I bite his lip tears falling again his hand trail down to my hips and my hand wrap around his neck weakly. He picks me up and my legs wrap around his body I swear I love him. Why does he not love me I cry and he holds me my head in the crook of his neck nobody is around. We slip in the room and we just lay there on the hospital bed for a while.

"I will not f**k with you, you are engaged and I am a mom of two "I whisper

" I am the father of our kids " he says back

I sigh not responding not knowing what we are doing. Darkness consumes me and I fall into a deep sleep.