My Undoing

Chapter 19- Wild Fire

Olivia P.o.v

He ...said...He said he loved me,he missed me?No don't do it.I couldn't move,it was as if my legs had forgotten how to work in that moment.Get up, move, say something Olivia. Do something.Instead I just sit there as I watch him walk out the door.I could feel the tears falling down uncontrollably but my entire body is still numb as if I'm frozen under an invisible layer of ice in my chair. What if this is just a trick to get what he wants from me, to get me on my knees.No he..he was crying.He said he missed my laugh, not my body.He didn't say he missed f*cking me,he said he missed my warmth and the way I used to look at him.

Olivia get up,no don't.Why does this hurt,I can't breathe.Why does it hurt? Finally I feel the frost thaw from around me and I rise from my chair.I pace back and forth biting my nail til I taste blood.What if he was telling the truth for once and I wait too long? Or what if do exactly what he wants and he hurts me again.Oh god I'm getting dizzy, this is getting me nowhere.I reach for the door handle and I feel my hand shake, I stop myself for a moment.What do I want really? Do I want him...the him that would leave bruises and would degrade me? Or the him that barely exists and can't be controlled.

If I open this door I'm asking for trouble, but if I sit back down...will I regret it?I bite down hard on my lip and grip the doorknob,take a deep breath and head towards his office.Everything is a complete blur,and the closer I get to his door it's as if someone is squeezing more and more air from my lungs.I stand there a moment and I feel my heart racing.I don't know how long I was standing in front of his door when I heard shouting from the other side, then a loud thud.

Quickly I open the door and see Leo standing over Owen.His fist at his side, jaw clenched, his breathing staggered but in that moment... the moment his eyes met mine all his rage completely disappeared. "Wh..what are you doing? Have you completely lost your mind?" He doesn't say anything he just stands there.I turn to Owen and watch as he tries to get up.I shut the door and make my way to help Owen to his feet.When he takes my hand to steady himself I hear Leo let out an animalistic growl, it startles me and I let go.

I look at Owen's face "Are you okay?Sit down, you're bleeding.Leo give me a towel" But he just stands there,I turn to look at him and see him glaring at Owen."Leo, Now.Give me a towel."He storms off into his private bathroom and when he returns hands me a black hand towel.I see Owen smiling "Oh If I were you I'd wipe that smirk off your face. I don't know what went on here but if he punched you you're gonna tell me why".As I wipe the blood from Owen's face I can see Leo from the corner of my eye with his arms crossed,with a stare that could kill.

"I wanna know what happened Owen don't lie to me".He gently grabs my hand and I see Leo take a step towards us."Well Ms.Vega why don't you ask Reigns here why he decided to act like we're in a Fight Club."

He gestures towards Leo and there is a painful silence amongst the three of us.A few painful moments later Leo clears his throat "I told this asshole to leave my office so I could drink in peice but he wouldn't listen, so ..."

I turn to look at him and I feel so much anger rising from within me at this very moment "Well Mr.Blake you're all set can you wait in my office I would like a word with Mr.Reigns please.Try not to get in any brawls along the way".I hear Owen slowly leave and shut the door behind him.Me and Leo stand in complete silence for a moment locked in a staring contest.

I cross my arms and can feel my breathing become almost unbearable"Are you f*cking kidding me?You struck him because you wanted a drink?"He takes a step towards me but I'm so angry that my feet are completely planted firmly in the ground."Why are you in my office Olivia?"He takes a step closer toward me til we're only inches apart "Why do you think Leo?"

"Why don't you go play nurse with your boyfriend some more Via" He reaches for my jacket button, but I slap his hand away "F*ck you Leo don't talk to me like that."He stares at me and then without warning grabs me and kisses me.I push him off me "Are you drunk or just stupid?"I can taste the alcohol on my lips and it makes my stomach drop.

"F*ck Via what do you want from me. I tell you I love you that's not good enough,I beat the sh*t out of a guy for you and that not enough. I'm rough with you but that's not what you want.What do you want.F*ck Olivia what do you want?"

I stand there as I hold back tears "I want someone who's love doesn't come with bruises or the feeling of self loathing. Someone who isn't ashamed to be seen with the fat girl. Someone who doesn't beat me when they jump to conclusions or get mad or jealous.Your love... your love hurts Leo.You don't know how to love.I don't know why you're so god damn broken but I don't wanna fear the person next to me".I turn to leave when I feel his hand grab me he pulls me close his body but I can't look into his eyes.I try to break free from his hold but I can't.

" Via... I love you ...I just .. I'm a f*****g coward.I don't want to hurt to."He caresses my cheek and kisses me gently, slowly and I don't know what to do.After a moment he releases me leaving breathless.He sits me down and takes my hand in his "I've never been ashamed of you,if anything I'm not good enough for you Via." My heart sinks and I feel lightheaded."Via....Via Say something...."