My Husband's Secret Affair : Book Two (MATURE CONTENT)

Chapter 21 Rescue

Chapter 21 Rescue

Ree POV

It is time to speak up. Each day na kasama ko siya ay lalong sumisidhi ang kagustuhan ko na maiparadam sa kaniya ang totoong nasa loob ko. I never wanted this to happen. Before we met I was certain with Lia. That sweet and kind girl I met long ago. Hindi lang nagtagal ang unang relasyon namin. We were young and carefree. Lalo na ako. But I learned from it. Kinalimutan na din ‘yon ni Lia.

Now to prove her my loyalty, I accepted the challenge. Sa simula ay inisip ko na Lesley will be a burden for me. But I realized she’s pregnant. She needed somebody to take care of her. She reminded me of Kassy.

They’re almost the same. Or maybe I longed for Kassy for so long, ‘til Lia came along again.

Ang sabi ko hindi ko na ito palalampasin. That is why I asked her to marry me and I was so lucky when she said yes.

But when she left me things changed. Akala ko nag-aalaga ako ng buntis. Pero hindi ko namalayan na nagmamahal ako ng ibang babae at mas lalo kong minamahal dahil sa may dinadala itong bata sa loob niya.

She reminds me of my late Amara. Ang sanggol na hindi ko man lang nahawakan. She was my everything. I thought I will be very happy and proud nang malaman kong nabuntis ko si Kassy. Life was hard for us both. Wala kaming alam sa pag-aalaga sa dinadala niya. Kung ano lang ang sasabihin ng doktor ay ‘yon lang ang sinusunod namin.

But unluckily Kassy was badly sick since she got pregnant. Hindi namin naisalba ang baby and what’s worse? I lost them both. It was my darkest time. I lost my two precious ones.

Ang buong akala ko, I will die too. I wish I could die with them. I wished to follow them on the grave. But my mom never allowed it. Despite I was blaming her for coming so late for them. She never left my side after I lost them.

The pain I carried was killing me slowly. I thought I was hopeless. I thought I will never survive anymore. Until one day I realized that it is not the thing Kassy wanted to see in me. I lifted myself from drowning in despair. I studied once more trying to divert my focus. I made myself busy and tried a lot of new things to forget that saddest times in my past.

In that journey I met the family Herrera. They are a friend of my parents. It was not hard to get along with them since both our families knows each other well.

The night I told Lesley about how I felt was the night I finally realized how confused I am. I weighed everything within myself.

I thought she feels the same with me. But I was wrong. She still have a little love for her ex-husband. How could she love that man who hurt her and wasted her? I am here so willing to give another try for her. But she refused.

So leaving her is my best way to avoid her. I wanted to leave her so I could not hurt myself more. But this is selfishness, Ree.

You are drunk and you entered home insanely speaking about how you feel. Kahit mukha na akong tanga. But I wanted to shout it out. It’s been killing me since I decided to move in with her.

Alam ko na pumapalag siya palagi. But the more she distances herself is the more I am wanting her more.

Hindi ko lang siya ma-pwersa. I can’t hurt her.

Days had past. I am in my house and locked in my room drowning myself in alcohol. Pumasok si Aya. The room was dark. Tanging lamp shade lang ang ilaw ko. I wanted everything dark.

“Ano ba naman, Ree?” ang nakakagulat na na bulalas ni Aya. Mabunganga siya kapag alam niyang hindi ako makakalamang sa kaniya lalo na ito ngayon ako ay nagpapakalunod na tila walang iniwan na responsibilidad sa hotel.

Nasa baba ako ng kama at nakasandal hawak ang whisky glass. Tuliro at malalim ang iniisip.

She opened the curtain. Natawa na lang ako at umaga na pala.

She looked down on me. Tila sinusuri ako nito.

“Ano? Ilang araw ka na ganiyan?” ang tanong niya. Napansin niya pala ako. Akala ko hindi na. Abala siya sa gawain niya pero naisipan niya ako pasukin dito.

“Yaan mo na.” Nakangisi kong sabi.

“Huwag ka na bumalik sa dati.” Ang hiling niya.

“Hindi naman.” Ang tipid kong sagot.

“Si Lesley ba? sino ang kasama? Hindi ba at doon ka muna? Sabi mo sasamahan mo kasi kabuwanan na?” ang sumbat niya.

Napasandal ako ng ulo sa kama.

“Kaya na niya ‘yon.” Ang tila wala sa sariling sambit ko.

“Tarantado ka ba?” ang biglang sigaw ni Aya.

“Kung ayaw mo puntahan ay ako na lang ang pupunta doon!” galit na ang tono nito. Hindi ko alam kung sa akin ba? Napakamot ako ng ulo.

“Ree matanda ka na para pagsabihan.” Ang paalala niya.

“Ilang beses k aba dapat magsisi?” ang tanong nito.

Sa aking narinig ay oo. Ilang beses ko nga ba kailangan palampasin? Lagi ko na lang inuuna ang pride ko.

“Utang na loob. Kung ayaw mo samahan ang buntis, dalhin mo dito. Ako na lang ang mag-aalaga. Inako-ako mo tapos iiwanan mo?” patuloy nitong sumbat sa akin.

“Na! tama na. Alam ko na.” Pagbali ko sa kaniyang sinabi.

“Tumayo ka at ayusin mo ang sarili mo.” Ang utos niya sa akin.

“Just leave me.” Ang sabi ko naman.

Silence could be deafening. But this time ang katahimikan ang siyang bumubulabog sa aking isipan.

Kamusta na siya? Hindi ko siya tinawagan. Pero mas lalong wala siyang paramdam sa akin. Anong nangyayari? Kaya ba niya mag-isa?

I am so foolish to leave her home. I was hoping I could forget it all. But I am wrong. I cannot myself I failed once more.

Aya left me by slamming the door. Ayoko patulan eh ate ko pa din naman ‘yon. Besides she’s the only family I have beside.

Ilang oras ko pang binuno ang sarili ko sa pananahimik. Hindi ko man lang nakalahati ang bote ng whisky. Iniwan ko ang baso sa sahig. Tumayo ako at nagbihis. This time I will check on her kung maayos ba siya?

It’s dark already when I left home I doubt if she’s still awake. Pero sana kumakain siya kahit mag-isa lang siya doon.

I drove the fastest I could.

Narating ko ang bahay. Lights are on. I have my key just in case she wouldn’t let me in. Alam ko binigla ko siya. It feels like guilt have eaten me alive. So here I am taking myself to her now.

I pushed the door bell but I have been standing here for a minute. Hindi siya nagbubukas ng pinto.

So I assue she’s upstairs and asleep. Hindi naman siguro masama kung silipin ko. Mas lalo akong hindi mapapakali kung hindi ko siya makikita na maayos.

Pumasok ako. Evrything looks fine in here. Pero aakyat ako baka nasa kwarto lang siya. Kung ipagtatabuyan niya ako eh ayos lang. I will only check on her if she’s okay.

I ran upstairs when I suddenly heard her scream in agony. Alam kong nahihirapan siya sa tinig niya.

This reminded me of the day when I rushed Kassy to the hospital. I was alone. And now I am alone again.

Mabilis kong narating ang kwarto niya. She’s not in her bed. I called her name but she did not responded.

So I assumed nasa cr siya. The door is open so I sneaked.

But unluckily she’s on the floor drowning in blood unconscious.

I panicked. I lifted her in my arms. Mabigat siya coz she’s pregnant but because I am so afraid to lose another one, I did not even noticed that I reached downstairs so fast. Ang hirap pero nakayanan ko. Ipinasok ko siya sa kotse at itinakbo sa ospital.