My Angel Of Peace

Love Hurts

I didn't know what the hell just happened but before I could run off and head home to see if that's where she went, a teacher stopped me and I had to go to class. I was annoyed and concerned. Who knew LOVE could hurt this bad. My heart was racing and it felt tight in my chest. I just wanted to know why she started crying. I hated not knowing anything and what was worse is the look in her eyes. I have never seen her look so hurt before. She was a much better singer then Jennifer so I don't know if she thought that my reaction was too much. I grabbed my pen and started to write something down. I wanted to make sure that I apologized the best I could so she would never leave again. It hit me as I said that in my head. One day, she might just leave me, for good. She isn't really here. The minute school was over I ran home. My mom tried to call me and asked what was wrong but I just ran upstairs and looked in my closet. She wasn't there.

"Camila, please," I said softly. I waited and waited until I felt like I had to do something besides sit here and do nothing. I got up and took a shower. I was getting hungry so I ate some dinner that my mom left for me in the microwave. I went back upstairs and checked in my closest again. She wasn't there.

"Only you

I just want it to be you

My madness,

my tranquility and my love

My compass and my way

Only you

I just want it to be you" I heard her voice but it was faint. I looked up and realized it was coming from above me.

"The attic," I thought. I ran to the hall and went to the door that led upstairs to the attic. She didn't notice me and I walked up slowly to her.

"I just want it to be you

I put my destiny in your hands Because I live To be always,

always,

always, with you my love"

"Camila," I said softly. She didn't turn around so I went to stand in front of her.

"Please talk to me," I said.

"I'm sorry," I just wanted to be alone.

"Why?" I asked her sincerely. "I didn't like her singing more than I like yours."

"It wasn't that," she said.

"Then?"

"I got angry. I just started to remember some things and I got angry and then I got sad that I got angry," she explained. "It's not fair."

"Will you tell me," I said softly.

"I can't," she said. "You might hate me."

"I would never hate you," I reassured her. "I told you I love you."

"Ethan,"

"No, I love you and I told you the next time I said it I wouldn't just stop there," I told her. I grabbed her and pulled her closer to me. I kissed her and at first, I felt my lips get cold but then I felt this tingling sensation and for a second just a second I felt like it get warm and soft. As if I was feeling her soft lips on mine. "Did you feel that?

"Um, no," she said but the way she said it made me doubt her.

"Camila," I said softly. "Here." I gave her the piece of paper I had written on back at school.

"Love Hurts Without You It hurts to death. Everything is so gray., To see you cry and not speak hurts. If you leave here I think I will suffer," she read the words I read and I felt a little embarrassed but I meant every word.

"Ethan, I'm sorry," Camila placed her hand on my cheek. "I have always been jealous of Jennifer."

"Why?"

"She had what I wanted,"

"Which was?"

"The love of my childhood crush," she said. "If It wasn't for me Miguel and Jennifer would be together."

"But I thought," she took my hand and pulled me closer to the small attic window.

"Miguel only decided to go out with me because I begged him and promised that if he stayed with me until the end of the year that I would let him go and be happy with the memory of those few months he gave me. He promised me he would be with me until the end of the year but I already knew he had a crush on Jennifer when I asked him to be my boyfriend so."

"But that isn't so bad. He should have been man enough to say no or tell you the truth," I said.

"I guess but he is a sweet guy and he always looked out for me. He didn't want to hurt me and I guess he thought it was a win-win scenario."

"So, it wasn't," I asked curiously.

"No," she said suddenly. "I died and he didn't love me back." Camila started to cry so I pulled her in closer to me.

"He is an i***t and you deserve more than that," I told her.

"Ethan, I'm dead and at the end of the day I kept them apart and as angry as I want to be at them for what happened-,"

"What happened?" I said eagerly.

"I don't want to talk about that right now," she whispered. "I want them to be happy but I guess I am angry and I don't want to be. I just want to help them find each other and be happy. They deserve it."

"Okay, well, Jennifer is warming up to me so I guess I will start with her," I told her. She smiled slightly and then crossed over to give me a hug.

"Thank you,"

"I would do anything for you,"

"Don't say that because I would want you to move on too," she said as new tears formed in her eyes.

"Well, then almost anything," I smiled.