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CHAPTER 5: EMPTY

THE NIGHT WE MET

I onced thought Im already fine, with you afar, and I am in the vines, I onced thought not looking for you makes it more properly made, but it doesn’t.. Im still haunted, on the night we met, and you tolf the words that are meant for me, me and only me.. I want to re-make, the moment of what the hell are you with?? And then I realized, I no longer have you… I have all and most of you some and none of you ( take me back would you?) But I told myself, is it still worth-it? When Im pretending to be fine and not distracted.. I wanna go back to you, but you will give me destruction,desolation and you only want satisfaction.. How was love being subjective?? What the hell you expect?? I don’t borrow anyone’s property… Is it the plan God prepared?? Why is it too broad?? Too narrow to cross, and too tight in these vines and cant escape to walk… Why cant we just say sorry? Lower our prides?open our minds? And keep the past and start again? Why we making love out of foolishness? Why didn’t we make our love ignite again…. Why don’t we burn, like fire and wood… Why cant you stay..just like I always wanted you to.. but you never will, you never did… and I cant do any to bury heart out of nothing from you. Is it being biased? That I knew myself still wants you, but I don’t blame you, a heart filled of thorns, and make me pinched…. I am not the only one who loved you, but I assure you, no one can copy the same way I loved you.. One day you will know, what the hell happened in my heart because it wants you, you and only summon you… Near dusk, I walked in the silent street that we onced walk through together… And I feel thorns, arrows, axe, and even sword in my heart.. I don’t care if the rain comes hard, for that rain gained my memory with you… How we dance in the rain again??? How we?? or its only me remembered it. If you only know if how much you valued in my heart, how the big intervals became zero for you.. and you left the denominator zero, making me undefined…. Why does you left nothing for me, and pretended that it never happened, and it never happened in your own good… Why loving you becomes solid like a rock, why does it is me loving you still, yet I remember that I say that I don’t love you… It’s the heart that never agree in my mind.. Let me tell you, you hit me hard.. Since the day you left, world become silent for me, became malignant in how I overthink.. Do I look like fine?? Knowing there is another girl, walking beside you, should I feel upset?? I don’t own you Mhel… I don’t…