Manipulation at its finest.

Manipulation Paranoia?

So you've gotten this far huh? Well, that can mean a few things. You're either interested in this subject, want to prevent being manipulated or you already have been and want help. Maybe I'm wrong and that's not the reason at all, which is fine too, personally, I could've used a book like this years ago in my life to prevent a lot of heartaches, bad friendships and toxic relations.

Hence why I made this for you! I hope this book will help you in any way it can, which leads me to the title of this page.

You're probably wondering what Manipulation Paranoia is, well while it may not be a diagnosed condition I believe it sums itself up well. A constant fear, worry, anxiety that the people around you or the people you meet are manipulative or going to manipulate you.

I don't know about you but after 3-4 years of manipulative friendships, I've reached the point where I now can never fully trust or believe someone genuinely wants to be my friend without an incentive. I know not everyone who wants to be my friend aims to manipulate me but it's happened so often whenever I've tried that it's all I can truly believe now.

So...If I have Manipulation Paranoia about everyone, especially friendships, how is it that I trust my boyfriend? I hear you thinking to yourselves, kidding I can't hear you thinking that. Probably didn't cross your mind but it is an important question and the only answer I can provide is this;

My boyfriend met me during a very distressing time, he bought my art and was my first customer and we bonded over our love for writing and our passions. I talked to him daily about mostly insignificant things and maybe that contributed to it but we were also long-distance for half a year and through his courage and support, he never asked anything from me, we have built a relationship built on trust and patience.

Throughout just over the year I have kept a keen eye on how he reacts, responds and treats me. He is truly genuine and I am really lucky to have him in my life. A lot of the time he's one of the only reasons I have the strength to carry on...

Does your Manipulation Paranoia make you trust him less? Or constantly fear he will one day manipulate you/betray you?

Honestly? Sometimes I get that little needle of fear, I question it and to an extent myself but when those moments pop into my mind I make myself look at our relationship as a whole and when that isn't enough to convince the darkness I talk to him about my worries. I burden him with my fear and he chases it away by sharing his own.

So no. As long as he is always able to talk to me about my worries and quell my paranoia as well as share his, then I know I can rely on him.

Does someone do that for you? I hope they do, if not though then you can use this kinda like a guide?

Something you might be wondering is Does Manipulation Paranoia ever go away?

And unfortunately, I can't say for sure if it can or not, I've been living with it for 15 years if not longer. But what I can say is that it does get better, the paranoia can be adjusted to an extent. Having coping mechanisms definitely helps, I personally use art as my biggest tool to cope.

One thing about Manipulation Paranoia that can be seen less as a negative is that due to the experience and if you can learn to cope with it, like depression it can help make you wiser. Help you notice it better and handle it in a more positive way which can create a positive outcome.