Broken Yet Desired

Chapter 3: The Blur of a Car Ride.

A Bit Later on...

Lexi's Pov:

Some how I managed to get all of his scent off me in the shower and got ready for my day, for the second time.

Then as I made my way to the bus stop. Everything was in a haze around me. I felt so euphoric from, Cole I couldn't even wrap my head around it.

Should I wait for him?

Or once I am 18 leave?

That was so perfect almost like we were meant to be together?

Right?

Crap!!

I realize I am missing the bus, it was already way down at the end of our little dirt and gravel road.

I tired to run after it but failed....

I was way too far behind the bus and so lost in my own thoughts.

Well.... Crap..

Oh well I missed the bus I loved walking anyways it's only 20 miles from here no big deal. -_-

So I stopped running and started walking on the road and making my way into town and where school is...

We live a bit away from people. Lol.

As I am walking my mind drifts back to Cole and how I wished we went all the way.

And how everything will turn out and how this walk is gonna suck because I don't have my Wolf yet so I can't not shift and run super fast. -_-

And now my mind shifted back to Cole.

I am totally obsessing about Cole I can't get him out of my head. It's like he is my Mate.

The way he made me c*m. The way I took total control of him and made him c*m. It was so hot.

I was so lost in my thoughts I barley noticed a car pull up next to me.

I had walked about 2 miles now and well away from pack territory.

" Hey beautiful, did our little encounter make you miss the bus?" The sexy voice said.

Mmmm. His voice.

I looked up and saw Cole.

Leaning towards his passenger side of his car.

His sexy black mustang.

" Yes, normally I wouldn't ask but can you take me closer to the school, you can drop me off a few blocks away." I firmly ask him.

He looked me in the eyes and thought about it.

"Hop in and we can chat now on the way to school, you know I am leaving soon. This might be our only chance to be alone before then." He said as he swung open his passenger side door for me.

I thought about walking the rest of the way and didn't feel like it.

So I got into his car and shut the door.

We sat there for a second, parked in his car on the side of the road.

He leaned into me and sniffed the air.

" You almost smell aroused again, Lexi? " He said very seductively.

I admit him pulling up on me; while I was thinking about what he did to me this morning is turning me on even more, then it is confusing me. And he is offering me a ride which he never does for any girl.

But then I got really angry and so scared.

And I almost pushed him away.

" You know what my brother and all the others will say and do if they smell you on me. They might kill me this time. " I said very pissed off but yet... very turned on And trying to hide the fact that I .... I'm scared they were going to beat me again. Or maybe kill me this time.

Fuck.

Any time I look at the Alpha's son, Cole I get the s**t kicked out of me. Well at least anytime any snitch of Liam's or Beth's or Summer's catches me looking at him to long I get the beating of a life time.

Cole reached out to touch my face and I pulled away and looked out the window.

" I just got your scent off of me! Please you know, you will be gone soon. I can't please. Don't touch me. " I say as tears run down my face.

" Cole, just once was enough. I know I am not good enough to f**k but I want you to know that our time together meant the world to me and once I am 18 if I survive my brother and his bitches torture, I will leave I promise." I am trying to hold it in as long as I can I will not fully break down in front of him ever again.

I know I should leave now, but I want to get into college that is my goal and move into a new pack.

I applied for early admission. That way my torture here can end. And if not I can at least educate myself enough to get a better decent job and try to find my Mate or Mates as the Moon Goddess said.

" I applied for early admission into Magic U. I have the grades and can graduate early if I do a summer program there. I can not watch you be with any one else ever again Cole. That and this Pack! It is too much! Plus everyone hates me and you know it, and I know it, so why stay? Why." I said regaining some of my composure.

He leaned in closer and pulled me into him in one swift move. He took that opportunity to grab my face and make me look into his perfect gray eyes.

" I promise once I get back from the Alpha summer training camp things will be different, trust me." He said lovingly to me.

" And I didn't want to have s*x with you then. You are truly special to me Lexi. I can't get you out of my head. I wanted to wait untill, I knew if you are truly my Mate to have s*x. You are too good, for me Lexi! f**k, your perfect. And way to f*****g drop dead gorgeous for me. " Cole said very passionately.

I sat there stunned. Too good for him? Mate? What the heck? And I am sexy? No way! I mean I always felt a pull and was hopeful but Mate?

" I have been pushing you away until I can become stronger to protect you and this Pack I want to be a great Alpha that can lead all of us into the new generation. Also I wanna tell you.Since that day your mother died I haven't felt strong enough since then and your father went Rouge. It changed everything I tried to protect you the best way I knew how to by pushing you away but I know now that; it was the wrong way to protect you and the Pack....And I only deeply hurt you and isolated you and made you feel ashamed of who you are." He said not once breaking eye contact with me.

" I know you cannot feel them but when I touch you I feel the Mate sparks. I know I can never make up the time we lost or make-up what I have done to you and what I have let you go through alone but please wait and try to forgive me I thought what I was doing was the best way, the only way I knew at that time to best protect you and our Pack and I know now that I was wrong." He stated with such sadness in his voice.

" I will no longer push you away. Unless you want me to." He said then released my face and waited for an answer.

" Please just drive me to school I just want to get this week over with and for you to leave. It is far too late I have watched you bed almost every single slut of a She-Wolf in our Pack, when you pushed me away. After you promised me we'd be together. I saved my self for you!" I screamed at him. I shifted a bit then continued...

" You even f****d my best friend Summer who is no longer my best friend and now she wants to be the next Luna." I moved away to look out the window for this next part....

"Now I get that s**t kicked out of me almost every day. And all because I am a Were-Witch! Who everyone is scared of!" I said so sarcastically trying to hide the hurt in my voice that's trying to break though.

He started at the car and started driving to school.

He didn't even try anymore! He didn't even fight me for me! He just started the car!

And then the I couldn't stop the tears anymore. I just want to leave this place and not look back. If that's all he can fight for me in am done. I have been though hell these past few years and I will be damned if this is all he does to fight for his so called Mate.

Cole POV:

Ben is going crazy in my head trying to comfort his Mate from in here.

We are close to the school but still have time because I drove so fast and traffic was light this Monday morning.

I parked my mustang two blocks from the school. Damning my self for not taking us all the way I want to be seen with her now. She knows she is a Were-Witch. She can be trained at college. We can be together now.

Fuck.

She opens the door and tried to slip out.

I grabbed her wrist just in time, before she slipped away into the streets.

" Please Lexi, I know I don't deserve it but for the future of our Pack give us a second chance." I almost begged her.

" I Lexi Michelle ..." She started...

"Don't you dare Lexi. Isn't there anything I can do?" I pleaded as I pulled her back further into the car, not once letting her wrist go, so she couldn't try to slip away again.. Then...

I made her look at me.

She looks so defeated. I almost broke.

Fuck she is broke. I have broken her!

I have failed her! No I can not! I will not!

"Please, Lexi just talk to me, then if you still want to, you can reject me." I said almost crying.

Me! Soon to be Alpha crying over a girl. Well she isn't just any girl. She is my girl. The girl. My Luna. Our Luna.

Maybe..

The one who I didn't think was good enough for me. For my Pack... Was about to reject me, before I stopped her!

Ben was furious now! He almost took control. I can barley hold him back now.

She broke free of my grip and closed the door.

" Fine, you have some time to explain everything before you leave this weekend. And I want you to try to make it up to me for our future Pack. Only if you follow my rules. Deal?" She said very boldly.

Ben POV:

" Deal Mate!" I said very seductively taking control of Cole.

I leaned in closed sniffing her scent into my brain.

"Mmm ... Peaches... That is what you smell like Mate." I say my eyes dilating and my c**k rock hard.

"You smell amazing. I told him not to push you away. But he did not listen to me I am very sorry. That is why he is so weak and your brother is so strong I haven't talked to him since he touched another that wasn't you. I am deeply sorry, I should have paid better attention. Look at what has been done to you. I hate my self." I said and started whining.

" I am so ashamed of him and myself can you ever forgive us Mate please? I fought so hard to take control of him; just so I can talk to you. So you can not leave us, I know if you leave us now you will never come back. Please Mate." I am begging you.

" Your his Wolf?" Our Mate said, very confused.

But it looked, like she understood everything I said.

She reached out and touched me. I felt the sparks and I think she did too because she jumped back a bit and hit the door.

" Ouch, I felt it that time. Sparks!" Lexi said very shocked.

"It's true." She said as she reached out and embraced me into her arms and finally hugged me.

" What is your name, if you don't mind if I ask you? As she looked up lovingly into my eyes for first time ever.

" Benjamin, My darling Mate. And if I may say so you look amazing today." I looked longingly and lovingly back into her eyes and hugged her back so tight and the sparks flew every where.

" Wow your eyes are Ice blue. Benjamin and your voice is a bit different then Cole's. And your c**k is rubbing me. I know you heard what I told Cole. She shyly said blush all over her face now.

I could smell her arousal it was only making me more hard. I know I can't protect her when I'm this weak so I cannot claim her yet. I have been a fool too. I should of taken control a lot sooner, and made this "Boy" listen. f**k he is so dumb any She-Wolf is nothing compared to her. Our Mate is our life. Is my breath.

" Only because I want to protect you while I'm not here, I will not take you right here in this car, my little Mate and claim you as Mine! Right here and now! I will become stronger so I can protect you and our Pack and when I get back I will put pups in your tummy I guarantee you. If your okay with it!?!

And I will visit you in college every chance I get and I will join you there next year! And I will make you love me like I love you. You will be mine you will see, we are destined to be together! I'm sorry I failed you, but I will not any longer! I swear! I am proud to have you as mine and I'm sorry I will make it up to you everyday for the rest of our lives I promise you." I said effortlessly to her.

" Oh my Moon Goddess. Yes please! You are forgiven Benjamin. And if I didn't want to be late to school I would say take me right here too!" She exclaimed looking so sexy at that time.

" We are about to be late. I loved the speech and I love the fact that you had nothing to do with him sleeping with the other She-Wolf's in our future Pack Mate. And I could see myself falling for you but you have a lot of making up to do. So please give Cole back his body so he can drive us to school and I'll deal with the consequences later." She said so lovingly then hugged me one last time and kissed me so passionately.

Lexi POV:

As Benjamin gave control back to Cole. Our lips parted. Cole wanted another of his own kiss so he grabbed the side of my face and kissed me again like this morning. I knew he heard everything that me and Benjamin spoke about and that I was willing to give them a chance. But I was scared.

He wanted access to my tongue and I granted him that for a brief 30 seconds then I broke it off. Oh my was it a magical 30 seconds though.

" Okay now I'm going to have my first tardy in this whole year can we go to School now?" I say with a sly smile on my face. As I look at the time.

He will be making this bull s**t up to me for a while. Maybe a few years like I had to go through. Maybe I'll stay a virgin that whole time and torture him.

Ha. Ha. Ha.

I am evil. Don't mess with me I am a bad Were-Witch, b***h!

Not really but f**k. He did so much to me.

Urgh... That's not fair that is more torture for me. -_-

" I want you to be mine Lexi and I know you know we are Mates in your heart and just like Benjamin said I will spend every day for the rest of our lives making it up to you I promise and I will get stronger and I'm so sorry as well. If anyone lays a finger on you thus further I will have them locked in the dungeon you are the future Luna of our Pack no one will harm you anymore I promise you that." He said with the same loving look that Benjamin did.

Oh Benjamin how you made me so wet. Maybe you are worth waiting and training for.

With out getting into this college I don't know where I would be. Probably dead in some ditch some where.

And he started the car back up and we headed the rest of the way to school.

As we drove I explained my rules.

I liked the whole dungeon idea....

1. I was to be the only girl he is with sexually and I will continue to wait for him.

2. We will wait to make our relationship public, till he gets back from summer camp.

3. Everything is my way or the highway.

4. To not let anyone else hurt me like he said.

5. I want a pup a.s.a.p. after he comes back.

6. Never stop loving me not matter what.

7. Never push me away again.

Benjamin already agreed to whatever so did Cole.

I am falling in love already it is not fair. Though I did already have a huge crush on Cole since forever so...

As we pulled up to the school. We were the last two to arrive for the day. Thank you Moon Goddess.

He parks and comes around to my side and opens the door for me and take my hand and lead me out of the car so romantic like.

I smiled so big. And blushed so hard at his cheesy gesture but at least he's trying.