Crazy dangerous love

Chapter six

Nina’s pov

It’s been 5 days after my encounter with the boy in the kitchen and my nerves have been all over the place. 6 days since I last saw my daughter. 6 f*****g days and the jerk hasn’t woken up. 6 days thinking that day will be my last and the thought I will not spend it with the people I love makes me want to cry, but I will not show them how broken I am in the inside. The only time I was broken was when my parents died and now I feel just the same. I feel like that lost child again. The boy was sure the boss will not allow me to walk alive out of this place and the more time I spend here, the more I convince myself that he is right. If the jerk doesn’t wake up soon, his brother will kill me because he thinks I am responsible for his health and if he wakes up soon, he will probably order his people to kill me, so I am as good as dead anyway.

There is a question that has been bugging me all this time, though. Why hasn’t he woken up? I think this god’s punishment on him for him being a monster, heartless murderer. I have heard stories about him when no one knew I was listening. I am not stupid and let them catch me eavesdropping, but what I know is, those stories are horrifying and heartbreaking. Poor soul who crossed the devil’s path and I wonder if I am one of those unfortunate soul?

What worries me, is that all this time I haven’t been able to talk to Cassy and Sammy and I’m going insane in this hellhole. I wonder how they are doing, is Sammy ok? Is she sleeping well? Eating well? She never goes to bed without me, don’t they have a mother or children? Why separate a mother from her child? I am just trying to help here, is it not enough for them to let me go? I don’t care about me I just want to go to my Sammy. Why me God? Well, if it wasn’t me, it would have been another doctor from my hospital. Is it because I am new here, I didn’t know what they did to doctors around here? They said they have done it many times and for sure the hospital I work at is the closest to their house, sure that is the place where they take doctors from.

Whatever the case might be, I need to make sure the asshole wakes up soon and try to get on his good side, so I can make it out alive, but how? I am a doctor not a f*****g witch who can use her magic and bring him back and cast a spell on him to let me go. I need to do something or I’ll go insane. After a long shower, I headed to his room after a long time of hesitation. I can do this, I need to find a way to make him come back, but how?

Like a criminal, I opened the door and peeked inside making sure no one was inside, thank God no one is with him. I guess bad habits are rubbing on me. If so, I learned from the best. The best organization on the west as they call themselves. It’s early in the morning they should be sleeping, for what I have seen, they are not morning people, especially after they were out late last night. How can they be awake at this time when every night they go to sleep very late going in and out of the house until very early in the morning? Doing only God knows what. I walked cautiously trying not to make any noise. The closer I got to him, the faster my heart started to beat in my chest. Why am I so afraid of this guy when I have never been afraid in my life? Not after I lost my parents at least. After that I had nothing left to lose, nothing to be afraid of and no one to care for, that fear became thirst for ravage, revenge on those criminals who took my parents from me. They were good people who didn’t deserve to die the way they did. Do I feel this way because of what I have heard about him? Probably, who in the right mind wouldn’t? he is a monster.

Every time I look at him my heart wants to jump from my chest, excitement and fear is a weird combination. Why do I feel excitement? Well, he is the epitome of beauty in a man besides he looks so innocent while sleeping, if I didn’t know better, I wouldn’t believe if someone told me he is a monster. Unfortunately, he is and now my life depends on him, his recovery and his decision. He is the boss after all. What he says goes. Why do I feel fear? Aside from the fact that my life depends on him, I fear for what he makes me feel without him knowing. I feel butterflies in my stomach and the guys hasn’t even said hi to me or look at me, how id that even possible? I fear because I think I’m falling in love and it’s an one sided feeling. I neared him feeling anxious like I always feel when I am close to him. I checked his vitals and everything looks fine. So, why isn’t he waking up? I took a deep breath and leaned closer to him, almost eye to eye, if he was conscious, obviously I would never do this.

“Listen to me you asshole, you need to wake up, you are a criminal, you are better than this, you are strong, you can beat this s**t. You need to get better to go back at doing what you do best, although I don’t know what it is, I am sure you are the best at it, so please wake up” I whispered holding his hand with one hand and caressing his face with the other. “please” I kept caressing his face. “Wake up”

I kept caressing his face despite the fact that I knew what I am doing is wrong. I am doctor and any kind of physical contact with patients it’s not allowed and can be misunderstood. I don’t know what came over me to do it, perhaps some affection would help him. Who knows? Sometimes people just need a little affection and for what I’ve heard he only has his brother and he is not the kind to show any emotions, let alone affection. All this time I have cleaned him and touched him, but never this way, this feels more intimate, I know I am attracted to him, but I also know this is wrong. He is a monster and hates women, I have zero chances with him whatsoever. I can’t get attach to him either because if by any chance I make it out of here, I’m sure he will not want to see me again, which is for the best, but why I feel weird thinking about it? I know I will miss him. In a week I have grown attached to him.

“Please wake up, you are the only one who can help me, I need to go back to my daughter. She is all I have and I am all she has. Please, I don’t want to leave her like Kathy did, please wake up” I broke in a sob and to my utter shock he started to shake uncontrollably. What just happened? He was fine just now, I wasted no time and started to treat him and do my best to stabilize him. Was something I said to him what caused his reaction? In no time his brother and a few of his men ran inside the room. “Julian? What happened? what did you do to him?” his brother asked rushing toward him with the other guys on his tail. “What did you do? I swear if you did something to him, I will f*****g kill you myself” He threatened and started to hover over me like a deadly predator. “Get out of the way, I’m doing what I can to stabilize him” I pushed him away, but he didn’t budge. “This is all your f*****g fault, you are not supposed to be here now. What were you doing here? Were you trying to kill him?” He asked while looking at his brother almost at the verge of tears. Him being like this doesn’t help at all because his brother was getting worse every second. “Get him out of here, this is making his brother more anxious” I yelled, but they just stood his ground.

“Get him out here, NOW” I yelled after they gave me no choice, I needed a clear mind and the brother accusing me didn’t help “f**k” I cursed as soon as they were out. How can I be so stupid? everything was fine, what did I do? I should have stayed in my room until his brother ask me to check on him. So f*****g stupid, now his brother might think I did this on purpose. “Wake up you asshole, you are fine, stop pretending to be weak when you are not, you are better than this, wake up” I hit him on his chest not meaning it and soon regretting it. He is injured for god’s sake, what is wrong with me? staying here for too long is clouding my judgement, this is not who I am. “aahhhggg” I screamed in frustration, while I felt tears running down my cheeks. This is so wrong. I’m emotionally involved here and its not good, especially not for Julian.

“I’m so sorry Julian, please calm down, I didn’t mean to hurt or upset you, shhh, you will be fine I promise” saying his name for the first time sounds nice, sure it’s also a beautiful name for him, strong as his personality. I kept caressing his face with my fingertips. Something I said triggered this reaction in him, and by the looks of it, it was a painful memory, something buried deep in his head “You seem like a lost child now, even when you are a dangerous mam, you look so fragile just like a child. You know it’s ok to let your guard down sometimes. You are just human, we are supposed to be vulnerable at some point in life, there is nothing to be ashamed of. I sometimes break down and I swore never to break down after my parents died, but you know, I am just a human being and sometimes I feel lonely too, there is no shame in accepting it” I whispered still my hand on his face. A crazy idea came to my mind, but it might work, there is this song my mom used to sing to me when I was upset and it helped me relax and it also helps when I sing it to Sammy, she always falls sleep listening to it. What would I lose if a give it a try?

“You are the reason my morning shines bright

You are the sparkle under the sky

You are the center of my universe

The day you came, my life became blessed

my precious gem in my collection

Although I am not rich, I have no objection

Without you in my life it would be unkind

You are my sunshine under the sky

If you are not here how can I be strong?

Although you are so tiny, you make me whole

You are all I need to get through it all

If you are not here how can I be strong?

You give me strength to overcome my fears

I would have not made if you were not here

If you are not here how can I survive?

You are the reason to keep me alive

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,”

“Wake up, please”

I didn’t realize I was crying by the end of the song. I always pour my heart, soul, and emotions when I sing it. First, because it is all I have left from my mom. Second, because I love my Sammy and all the words in that song reflect my feelings for her. Those words were meant to be for me once, when my mother sang it for me. That is the reason I always sing it for Sammy, no matter if I cry every time I sing it. It reminds me of what I had and lost, it brings me pain, but also hope now that I have Sammy. Cassy always makes fun of me when I sing it, saying not even Adele can compare with me when I sing it and I find that impossible, Adele is the best at what she does, how can Cassy even consider comparing me with her?

Coming back to realty and wiping my tears, I notice I managed to calm Julian down, what a beautiful name for a handsome man like him, his name suits him perfectly. “Wow! That was so touching and beautiful, you even made me and my guys cry” his brother came in with glazy eyes, meaning he indeed was crying with my song. How is that possible for someone like him to cry at something so small and simple? Aren’t they ruthless criminals? “Don’t exaggerate, that’s a song I sing to my daughter when she is restless or upset. I thought it would help him calm down” I said waving my hand. “I can see it worked just fine” his brother rolled his eyes.

“I am curious though, what where you doing here? And what did you say to cause him a break down?” he asked raising a brow at me. “I just wanted to check on him and see his progress. You can’t blame me for wanting to go home as soon as possible and he not waking up is the only reason I am still here. And don’t you dare to think I would harm him just to get away from here, that is not who I am. I am a doctor for god’s sake”

“Well doll, if he dies you will die with him for not doing a good job” his brother threatened again. How is his brother dying my fault? Was I the one who pulled the trigger and shot him? Not, it wasn’t me, so why blame me? “Don’t threaten me you jerk, him being like this it’s not my fault, you should be grateful I saved him. Hey, I even sang for him, what doctor does that?” I asked crossing my arms over my chest and raising my head for effect. He only chuckle, I can only imagine how I look just now, just like a spoiled kid, I guess.

“Relax doll, I am just kidding, I know he won’t die now that you are here taking care of him, in fact I want to reward you for taking care of him” he said signaling one of his guys for something, “Hey, I don’t need anything from you, the only thing I need is to go home and see my daughter” I said almost pleading him.

“I can’t let you go just yet doll, but….. I can allow you to see you daughter” he said and my heart was about to jump from my chest. What does he mean by allow me to see Sammy?

“Don’t you dare to play around with my feelings, you jerk. You know she is everything I have and need to fill this void I feel in my chest. This time away from her has been hell and it’s your fault” I said with tears in my eyes “Aww! Sweetheart, if all mothers were like you, we wouldn’t be the monsters we are now, would we?” he asked, most like a rhetorical question but I saw hurt in his eyes. Were their parents not good to them? Them being criminals has to do with their parents? I haven’t seen pictures of them in the house and I have seen lots of art work and pictures of him and his brother, but not pictures of their parents or other relatives.

The door opened revealing the guy just left carrying my Sammy in his arms, I couldn’t contain my tears and run towards my daughter and engulfed her in a tight embrace. Well, not that tight since she is only a baby. “Hey my love, mommy missed you so much baby” I said kissing her forehead, she giggled and smiled sweetly at me like she always does when I arrive home after a long day at the hospital, for some reason all my tiredness evaporates at the sight of her near me. “I’m glad you liked your reward, now you won’t feel so lonely while you stay here” I nodded my head I walked towards him giving him a kiss in his cheeks “Thank you” I said, but he was frozen in place after my kiss. I chuckled at his reaction, such a baby. I turned around to see at Julian, he seems better now, hope he wakes up soon. “Dadda” we all turned to see Sammy looking at Julian and pointing at him.