Crazy dangerous love

Chapter seven

Nina’s pov

We were all frozen on the spot, Sammy just called Julian dadda. I was shocked and disappointed, first of all, it is her first word that I know of. However, I was away from her for a week and a lot can happen in a week, like fall for my patient. I mocked myself. That’s beside the point here. The issue is, she called dadda some random stranger. Second of all, that is just not fair. I always thought her first word would be mamma, how can she call dadda someone she has never seen before? Besides we don’t have male friends, how does she know what dadda means? I know it is ridiculous to make a fuss for something so small, when she is only a baby. But for a mother thigs like this are a big deal, her first word, it hurts a little I got to admit. “Why did she call him dadda?” his brother was fast to ask. I saw the confusion in all of their faces, looking from Julian to Sammy them to me. I was just as curious as well. I have no idea who her father is, but she has no resemblance to Julian either, she looks just like Cathy. “Don’t ask me, I don’t know. Don’t think too much she is only a baby. I really don’t know what to say I am as confused as you all are” I reasoned with them to which they just nodded in agreement. “Yeah, because him being her father would be ridiculous, I am sure you didn’t know him from before. Did you?”

“What? Are you crazy? How can you say something like that? She is only a baby, why give it too much thought? I’m hurt to be honest, why didn’t she say mamma? But the most important thing is that she is here and I’m happy to have her with me, I missed her so much, thank you so much you are the best” I gave him a bright smiled and he smiled back. We have become kind of friends in the last six days, he doesn’t sleep in my room anymore, because I think he convinced himself he won’t get anything from me. He also threatened to kill anyone who even had a thought of going to my room and thank God no one has so far. Especially after he put that guy in front of everyone as a warning of what would happen to anyone who dares to do something stupid.

“Go to your room and have fun with your daughter, I know how badly you missed her. You deserve some peace after all your work with my brother and the rest of the guys” he said and I was about to leave, but stopped in my tracks. Warning bells started ringing in my head, why bring my daughter to me? Does that mean he doesn’t want me to leave, like ever? “How long are you trying to keep us here?” I asked, if I knew him better I would say he is on to something, but I can’t tell and if he is, what is it that he wants? No, I must be overacting, he will not force me to stay longer than necessary. The boss hates women, why keep me here knowing that? unless they want me dead. I just hope he is not planning on keeping me here permanently to be their doctor and treat all this people. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t judge them, though. I understand them a little more now that I have spent some time with them, but I’m a little scare for my daughter now that she is here.

Hell, I missed her terribly, but I knew she was safe with Cassy, but now I am not so sure. I shook my head, no, they are not that heartless, I don’t think they can hurt a baby. They are criminals for sure, but lately they had shown some respect for me after I treated some of them when they were shot doing whatever they do at night. They wouldn’t repay me by hurting the person I love the most. Yes, they know that by now, that I am not interested in a relationship because the only person I need in my life is my Sammy, she is all I’ll ever need. Would you be even surprised if I told you all guys living here, had hit on me all this time I have been here? even the brother has. Can you also believe by this time, I still don’t know any of their names except for Julian and only because his brother spilled it after the incident earlier “We will talk about that later doll, now go have fun with your daughter, take her to the pool or a walk to the garden, wherever you want is fine, you will be fine, no one will harm you or her”

“Fine” was all I said and walked away. I know better than to disobey him by now. The consequences are dire, one day I didn’t do what he asked me to and he starved me the whole f*****g day, I was just allowed to drink water. How ruthless of him. Now, that I have Sammy here I don’t want to risk it, what if he only brought her here to keep me on check? To use her against me? Although, I am happy to have her here, this is not a place to have a child, I need to find a way to take my daughter out of this place. f**k, how did they even get her in the first place? Poor Cassy must be devastated and going insane thinking these guys can hurt her, by now she should have reported us missing to the authorities, if she did, good, I think it’s time to go home. Is for the best.

Instead of going outside like the brother said, I went straight to my room. All this time I have had my phone off knowing the police can track me down by using my phone’s location. I know I should have done it long time ago, but I couldn’t just go and leave Julian in that state, deep down I know I care for him more than I should. But, I think it’s time to say goodbye to him for good before it’s too late. I have grown too attached to him and that is not good for me, why do I have to feel this way about him when I know he is not good for me? I wouldn’t mind at all him being a criminal, but I can’t risk him hating me or worst ordering his people to kill me and now my Sammy as well.

Why did I have to take interest in someone like him? What is it so special about him anyway? I know he is drop dead gorgeous, but still, it is not the most important thing in the world to me, this is dangerously crazy and insane. Me a f*****g orphan and virgin, in love with a criminal and murderer. Didn’t I hate bad guys? Didn’t I want to be with someone who doesn’t want s*x only? Worst, I did not only fell for someone who uses women for pleasure, or a criminal, but someone who doesn’t stand the sight of women at all. What chance do I have?

With that thought in my mind I went to my room and turned on my phone setting it on mute and hiding it back where I had it. I spent some time playing with my Sammy singing to her and putting her for her afternoon nap. After making sure she was fine and wouldn’t fall from the bed, I went to the kitchen like I always do for lunch time trying not to raise any suspicion about my doings, nothing goes by this guys. I can’t have them noticing me up to something. It kind of hurts to betray them like this, because this can be very dangerous for them and for me if the police come looking for us and also because I have grown attached to some of them, but I need to do this. For Sammy. She can’t be here any longer and like I said before, I don’t give a damn about the rest I just care about her and her safety and if I go down trying to save her, I will gladly give my life for her.

“Thank you for the food it was delicious as always” I complemented the old lady after I ate, I don’t even know her name and it’s a shame to do this to her because she has been nothing but good to me. “I’m glad you liked it dear, but why are taking some more when you can comeback for dinner” she said raising a brow. “Oh, didn’t you know the brother brought my daughter? She is taking a nap now, but for sure will be starving when she wakes up” I said, giving her my bright smile as always, she reminds me of my mother. Although my mother was younger than her, well, she could be my grandmother if I had one.

“That’s wonderful dear, I saw how sad you were by not having your daughter, now I can see why the bright smile” she said shaking her head. “Yes, I am very happy to have her with me, do you have children?” I asked and her body went rigid by my question “Never mind, you don’t have to answer that, thank you for everything you are the best and I know if you have children, you must be the best mom ever” I said, but I saw tears in her eye, I wanted to go and hug her, but I couldn’t show any weakness towards her and I didn’t want to make her break any more. She must have a painful past and sure a sad story to tell, who wouldn’t in this kind of life, it always ends bad for people like them or people like us who get on their way.

I left the kitchen and went to check on Julian. I always check on him in the morning, afternoon and before I go to sleep, but he has been like this all the time, not showing any sign of waking up anytime soon, except this morning. “Hi Julian, I’m glad you are doing better now, I got so worried earlier. You know today is a special day…It might be the last day I see you and…. When you wake up, it would be like nothing happened, you won’t even remember me at all” I whispered the last part not wanting anyone else to hear that. I don’t know what I am hopping for to happen, but I need to be ready for anything. What if what I did doesn’t work and they are not able to find us? Will Sammy and I spend the rest of our lives here? Will Sammy end up in a life her mom fought hard to keep her away from? Is it fate bringing her to the same kind of place she was conceived? What if one of these guys is Sammy’s father? Oh no, no, no, no. why did I never think of that?

That is a possibility I can’t deny to be possible, because even if it’s hard to believe, it can be true. The orphanage is not that far away from here, what if one of these guys was the one who hurt and killed Kathy? What if it is Julian? It can’t be a total coincidence Sammy calling him dadda, blood bond is a strange and powerful thing, some people find long lost relatives just by instinct, I’ve heard of it, why would Sammy do that not knowing him? And what about Julian’s break down when I mentioned Kathy’s name, it was the last thing I said when he started to shake uncontrollably. Is really Julian, Sammy’s father? No, that’s impossible the boy in the kitchen said, that woman did something to him to make him hate all women, but Kathy was a good woman, she couldn’t be that person for sure, she was a victim.

I sighed and caressed Julian’s face as I did before “What did that woman did to you Julian? You know, not all women are the same. Well, some are worst, but that doesn’t mean we all have to pay for the sins of others. I wish you the best and I hope you get well soon” I said pecking his lips. I don’t know what possessed me to do it, but I felt the need to do that thinking it would be the last time I see him.

“Good bye, Julian” I whispered taking a deep breath. I caressed his face one last time before I turned to leave, but a weak hand grabbed my wrist “Don’t leave me Kathy” I heard him say and I looked at him, but he was still asleep. This is his first reaction in a week and he is calling her in his sleep, does he still love that woman? Is it the same Kathy I knew, Sammy’s mom?

“I love you Kathy, don’t leave me for that man who just want to hurt you” he said and my breath got stuck in my chest. If he is talking about the same Kathy, he might be one of the guys Kathy was with. So yeah, it’s a big probability him being Sammy’s dad, but… no buts Nina, that is impossible, it has to be another Kathy. Stop thinking nonsenses “Shhh, it’s fine, you will be fine, I’ll go get your brother” I tried to calm him, his brother will know what to do with him. I’m glad he is fine, it means Sammy and I will go home soon.

Just before I went outside, his brother came in looking as the devil himself “What the f**k did you do, you slut?” he said grabbing a hold of my throat squeezing it hard.