Crazy dangerous love

Chapter eight

Nina’s pov

I was startled by the brother’s sudden reaction. We were fine a couple of hours ago. So, what happened? And the fact that I was trying to catch my breath and think what was going on had my head spinning. The brother’s hold on my throat was getting tighter each passing second “I’m going to ask you one more time Nina, what the f**k did you do? And don’t you dare lie to me, because none of my guys are stupid enough to do something so reckless” He asked looking at me dead in the eyes. I pointed to my throat trying to tell him I can’t speak with him shocking me, he has been so nice to me, why is he hurting me now? What the f**k did I do? “I think she can’t talk while you are shocking her” one of the guys said “Right” he said letting go of me. “f*****g talk” he barked.

I inhaled and exhaled trying to catch my breath and control my nerves at the same time, is it possible he found out about my phone so soon? It has to be my phone signal, I am so f*****g screwed, but I need to act like nothing happened otherwise I am dead “What are you talking about? don’t you see I am taking care of your bother, as a matter of fact I was on my way to get you, he talked, he didn’t opened his eyes, but he talked and grabbed my hand” I said trying to change his murderous mood, but it didn’t work.

“Don’t you f*****g lie to me Nina and don’t use my brother as an excuse, don’t think of me as a fool. I trusted you, the tech called me a few minutes ago telling me he caught a signal coming from the house and it was one he didn’t recognize. Is it anything you want to tell me? If you did something stupid, I will not hesitate to f*****g kill you and keep your precious daughter as mine” He threatened me. I was scared, but I didn’t give a f**k about his threats towards me if he wants to kill me, fine, but the one to my Sammy, her being raised like one of them, never, over my f*****g dead body. I did this to save her, not to make matters worse. What was I thinking? Still I acted like nothing happened.

“I have nothing to say and nothing to hide and about your brother, I am not lying see for yourself” I said trying to change the subject as soon as I saw Julian from the corner of my eye squirming in the bed. I moved to the side giving him space to see his brother. “Brother” he said rushing to his side forgetting about the reason he came in searching for me in the first place. One of the guys came into the room and it seems he was running because he was panting and taking deep breaths “What happened?” the brother asked when he saw the guy “The tech called again, the signal died but for sure it came from the house” he said looking at me. f**k, I cursed inwardly, but the signal died? How? Did my phone die so soon? But thank God it did before they found it. I need to get rid of it as soon as possible.

“Kathy” Julian said making all of us turn to him. “Please guys, maybe you want to give the brothers some space to talk” I said and all the rest left “Talk to him, maybe you are the only one who can bring him back” I said ready to leave as well, but he grabbed my hand “Nope, no so fast doll, you are staying, the guys will go check your room and find where the signal came from, until then you are not leaving my sight” He demanded. Damn him, he saw right through me. He knew I was going to get rid of the phone, why it had to be this way? Now my daughter will end up all alone again, with no mother to love her and take care of her and raise by a bunch of criminals, will she become one of them in the future? “What about my daughter? She will get scared” I said trying to reason with him.

“She is fine, the old lady will be taking care of her while I decide what to do with you” he said with a serious expression. Like if he found something, he will have no choice but to kill me even if he doesn’t want to. The safety of his people comes first and I get that, but he can’t do that, at least not now, I need to spend some time with my daughter before he kills me. Not that she will remember me anyway, she is so little “She is going to be scared, she is not used to this place, please let me go to them if you want the old lady can stay there, but please let me go with her” I begged him, but nothing I said seemed to melt his stone heart. With no other choice, I sat in the couch on the room and wait for him to decide what to do next.

While I sat there doing nothing, I decided to ask God for mercy, I am not the religious type that goes to church every Sunday, or someone who preaches to do good because Jesus is coming soon. But I still believe in God and his benevolence and a miracle is the only thing that can save me now. I know asking for god’s mercy only when I need it is not right, we have to talk to God in the good and the bad situation of life, when all is good, we at least should say thanks and be grateful for being blessed, and in a satiation like mine. Well, ask for mercy, because only God knows that even when I am a cold hearted person, I have never hurt anyone before and I have done my fair share of good deeds. That counts, right?

When I was done talking to God and asking to take mercy on my soul if the brother decides to kill me. I couldn’t help to hear what he was telling his brother, how he tried to soothe his pain, the way he talked to him, how he comforted him, he really cares for his brother. If I only had a brother or sister, I would love and take care of him or her too. Hell, I loved Kathy like a sister and it hurts like hell knowing she is never coming back. A few minutes passed, but I felt it was hours and no one came to tell the brother anything about my phone. Why is it taking so long? the phone was hidden in plain sight, sometimes the most obvious place is where people don’t look for.

There was a knock on the door and I held my breath waiting for the worst to come “All clear sir, we didn’t find anything in her room” one of the guys announced and left. I breathed in relief, but I was confused as hell, how come they didn’t find my phone? Did someone else take it? But who? There is only one person who came to my mind, the old lady. There is no one else here who would risk his life to save me, only her. She took it to protect me and saved my life, she knew they would kill me if they found it “You can go, but I’ll keep an eye on you” He dismissed me and hell if I wasn’t glad he did, I have never been this relieved and happy by someone dismissing me. “You know what, forget about that. You will be going home tonight. My brother will be fine and we won’t be needing you any longer. Its best this way, he will not see you. I’ll deal with him when he gets better. I will reward you for your services and we won’t be bothering you in the future like I said before”

I gasped feeling relieved, hurt, shocked and excited at the same time, you must think I am crazy, but it hurts to know I won’t see Julian again and the way he said they don’t need me anymore, it hurts. He has his doubts about me and I understand, safety comes first. All this time I was getting used to them, they are like a big family who look out for one another. But again, I think this is for the best, my Sammy will be safe away from them and I don’t have to suffer from heartache for being rejected by Julian when he wakes up. I know it is stupid of me falling for a guy like him and in so short period of time, especially when he gave me no reasons to fall for him, but still my heart doesn’t understand that “Thank you, but I don’t want your money like I told you before, you well know I was forced to come here, but to be honest it was fun while it lasted. Thank you very much it was a nice experience, except for the part when you threatened to kill me and my daughter” I said giving him a kiss on his check. “I really will miss you” I smiled, but he didn’t smile back. Yes, I will miss them, especially Julian, but I don’t belong here, neither does Sammy, no matter who her father is.

I sighed and went to my room wallowing in the sight in front of me one last time, the house is beautiful indeed, but it lacks the feminine touch and warmth everywhere you go. I opened the door of my room only to almost get a heart attack when I saw all my stuff scattered all over the floor. Those f*****g bastards, how can they be so rude and throw all my things like that? They are not expensive, but I got them by working my ass off at the hospital, I am not rich like them. I looked around and saw Sammy playing with the old lady in a corner that was not so messed up. “How is my baby doing?” I asked her, but she ignored me. I guess she has the right to be mad at me, I deserve it. “I know you are mad at me and I am grateful for what you did for me, you save my life and I will always be in your debt, but please understand me, I need to take my daughter away from this place, it is not safe for her here. Forgive me for putting all of you in danger. I know it was selfish of me, but I was only thinking about my daughter’s safety” I said giving her an apologetic smile, which she returned, at least she is not that mad.

She sighed “I understand you more than you think, um… I did the same for my daughter once, but the boss at that time caught me and as a punishment for what I did, he killed my daughter in front of me” She hiccupped “It was the most painful scene for a mother to see, but I learned from my mistake. I like you and I love your daughter, she is innocent, I did it for her. You are right, this is not a place for her or for you. I think you are a good person and a good mother. I didn’t want you to go through the pain of losing your daughter, why do you think they brought her here? To use her against you” she said with tears in her eyes and this time I hugged her tight, she’s suffered enough the least I can do is return a little for all he did for me and Sammy “I’m so sorry, I didn’t know” I apologized. She lost her daughter, she didn’t do it to protect me, she did it to save my Sammy.

“I’m so sorry, now I know it was reckless of me, to put my daughter at risk, but I was desperate, thank you so much for everything. The brother said he would send me home tonight, I don’t understand, do you think he is going to kill me?” I asked tears rolling down my face now. “I don’t know dear, only god knows what is in his mind. He is a good man, they both are, they are nothing like their father, if he said he is letting you go, then he is” She said and I know she is right. The little time I spent with him I could see that, but what is he capable of doing if I do something I shouldn’t have. like turning on my damn phone? I’ll do as he says and leave before he changes his mind. I know I would miss his brother, but it’s a price I am willing to pay to keep my daughter safe. I am such a fool for falling for someone I just met. What’s more someone who hasn’t said or done anything to make me fall for him?

Love is so stupid, well, I guess I am the stupid one, falling in love with not motives for me to do so. What a f*****g joke my life is. Wasn’t I the one who refused to have s*x before? waiting for Mr. Right to come and sweep me off my feet? Now, here I am falling in love with someone who doesn’t even know I exist and that is far from being Mr. Right. So f****d up, but who knows if what I feel for him is love? Maybe I was just concerned for him or maybe I sympathized with him for being hurt before? I just don’t know what I feel at the moment. I just need to leave all the memories of the past week behind with this place and have some time alone with my daughter. I know everything will be just as fine as before I met Julian. I know I just must be confused about what I feel for him, there is no way in hell I am in love with him. Do I like him? Yes, I do like him a lot, he is so hot and sexy, an aura that radiates power and I bet he can do wonders in bed, but love? I don’t think so. I’ve never been in love in my life how can I know for sure? Only time will tell, but I’m glad I got to leave before is too late for me and before I end up giving my heart to him completely.

“Thank you for taking care of Sammy, can you give us some time alone please?” I asked her and she nodded “I will get rid of the phone for you dear, don’t worry” She assured me, I nodded and thanked her aging. I know she is risking her life to save mine and I will always remember that. Unlike them I am always grateful with the people who help me and I know one day I will return her the favor. I just hope I don’t die before that day comes.