If By Chance

Chapter 6.

Khun Sam POV.

"I told you that you should stay here at the office 24/7,where the hell have you been?!?"

She throw the book binder at me and it hits my face causing me to had a wound at my lips because it hits the sharp part of the binder.

She's always like this everytime she sees my face,like I'm the worst granddaughter she've ever been had in her entire life.She's not against in my s****l orientation but at the same time she didn't even show any supports about it she was just silent.

I pick up the book binder and place it at my desk,deep sigh I take a sit on my swivel chair.

It's just a waste of time if I'll fight with her,there's nothing I can do anyways.

"I just visit Dew,that's all.."

"You visited Dew or visited Dew's sister?.. didn't you tell me to stop messing around women,they're just a waste of time.."

"What do you want me to do then?? mess up with men..?"

I said it in a calm way so that she'll never misunderstand me.

"I'm not against to your sexuality child,I just want you to give your---"

"full attention to my work and focus more to the companies especially the LHR because someday I'll be the one who gonna be the owner of it all...yes grandma I already know what you're talking about because you already said it to me like thrillion times.."

I put a words in her mouth so that our topic won't be extended.

"Well,yeah all of this will be your's someday,that's why I want you to handle it right child..don't get me wrong doesn't mean I argue with you all the time I don't love you anymore,because truth to be told you're the best grandchild for me followed by Isra..you just don't know how blessed I am that you're here and you never get tired of understanding me.."

This is new...I've never heard anything about this before from grandma because she's always mad at me,she hits me,slap me,she even punch me don't get me wrong she's already 75 but she's still so strong she can lift a box full of book,she can walk about half of a mile..

Maybe i'm the one who really misunderstood it all..

I'm only 4 years old and Isra is so younger that time when our parents got to the car accident,they both rush to the hospital but they're dead on arrival,'til that time grandma was the only person who took care of us or should I say took care to Isra because she haven't throw any single attention to me until I grow up,every school meeting no one attending it for me and if I complained she keep saying *you're already old enough to handle yourself* that was also the reason why I bullied Mae when we're on grade school,of course I knew that it was Mae eversince who can I forgot my first love face??

Anyways,about grandma she's always want me to be independent she don't want me to depends on her and I hate it honestly,she give her full support to Isra but nothing for me, she's always hard towards me,she keep telling me *I don't want to see your face,you're such a useless brat,why wouldn't you be more independent so that you'll learn how to stand on your own feet* and it really hurts me honestly,there's no nights I didn't cry and overthink all of the words she said,I keep questioning myself because of her words..

And this...this right here is so new to me..

I didn't expect she'll said those words that I keep longing to hear for such a long time..

"Why are you so quiet all of a sudden child?"

I look at her with my teary eyes but wipe it instantly.

"It makes you ugly when you cry.."

She let out a laugh..

Am I really hearing this..it makes me overwhelmed.

She's just like...

Wait..

"Grandma,why you suddenly being nice to me..?"

She look at me with her straight face..

It feels like war again I shouldn't ask that.

"You're wondering why I became nice to you after all of those things that I've done to you sine you were a kid?"

"Ye-yeah..sort of.."

I bowed my head.

"You misunderstand it all, didn't you..?"

I look at her,I nodded.

"Not all people around you are extroverts, Sam,there's a lot of introverts out there and that includes me..."

"I'm confused,what's extrovert and introvert??"

She shake her head and scoffs.

"You're just really like your dad,handling a tech company but didn't use social medias.."

"They're just a waste of--"

"Time...I know..but you can find anything you want to social media, especially the Google app.."

"Doesn't mean I argue with you everyday,I don't love you anymore...maybe that is just my way of showing my love towards you.."

I remember Mae..

"Hitting me,shouting at me and argued with me all the time is your way of showing your love??how cruel.."

"Not all people has a full confidence like you,who doesn't think what'll happen next once you do your next steps...some of them are afraid of rejections, afraid to get hurt again or maybe just doubting their feelings.."

It makes me more confused..

"Why you ask too much...you still had a work to do..let's talk about it later..you should treat your wound anyways.."

She then stands up and leave me confused.

Aww..

Pfftt I forgot I still had a wound..

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"You're here again to ruin my day??"

She approach me at there living room tilting her head.

"Don't you have class?"

"I had..but I'm still waiting for Irin to pick me up and...wait a sec.."

She grab her phone and answer the call..

"Seriously!!ok ok... don't worry it's fine.."

I heard her saying over the phone,she's like a kid stumping her feet..

So cute.

"Who's that?"

I ask her as she hangs up..

"It's Irin,she said she can't pick me up because her dad just rush to the hospital today.."

She sit at the couch crossing her arms while pouting.

I just shake my head and stand on my knees Infront of her and I tap her lap..

She flinch..

"Tiny woman looks like a child with you act like that..let me drive you there.."

I tap her nose with my index finger.

She pouted again but after a few seconds she's at there straight face again.

"What happened to this?"

She touch my lips..

Pounding..my heart is pounding again and it gives me butterflies in my stomach.

"Grandma just throw a book binder at me and it hitted my face.."

"Your grandma always hits you?"

"Yeah,just like you always did everytime you were pissed off with me..."

Wait..

She always hits me just like grandma did..

I remember what grandma said just this morning.

No..she doesn't,this is just a coincidence..

Please convinced me I don't want to build my hopes up..

No self she doesn't loves you the way your grandma just explain, she's just--

"That's how I treat people who I felt comfortable with and whom I like.."

She said and I stunned..

Loading..my mind is loading now,how to process this??

"But you never hit Dew and Irin the way you do towards me."

She scoffs.

"Try to stay here 24/7 so that you'll know..."

Kinds of inviting again..

"You want me to spend the night with you?"

"P'Dew was right you're such a person who doesn't use common sense and misunderstand most of the things.."

I tilted my head.

"By the way,I just gonna get the first aid,I can't let you drive me without treating that wound first.."

She press her index finger over the wound..

"What the--it hurts Mae!!"

She just laugh and run over the kitchen..

After a few seconds she's back with a white box on her hand,I take a sit to the couch and so does she.

She open the box and start to pour some alcohol at the cotton buds..

She gently hold my chin and lifted it to let me show my lips more and she started to touch the buds on my lips..

It makes me flinch and avoid it sometimes because it was so damn hurt.

"Can you atleast stay still!?"

"It hurts..can you be gentle.."

"I'm trying but you keep moving.."

I just response her nothing and she continue what she's doing..

We're just an inch now,I even feel her hot scented breath,it smells like candy maybe because of lipstick as well,she sometimes lick her lips and I don't know why but I find it hot

such a tease..

Wait no...is she seducing me?

She look at my eyes directly while she's holding my chin..

"Don't look at my lips,it's uncomforting.."

I avoid her eyes..

I can feel my face get warm god does she notice it?

"I'm good thank you.."

I stands up and fix my shirt to avoid the panic.

Gay panic again..great just great!!!

"I'll drive you to your school now..let's go.."

I headed first and just let her follow me..

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After 20 minutes of driving we had already arrived at Shrewsbury's. I stopped the car in front of the gate and turned off the engine and waited for her to take off her belt..

"Urghh!...it's stuckkk you had an expensive car but the belt stucks.."

"I'm sorry...I forgot to replace it because I'm busy hitting on you.."

I,then help her to get rid of it.

My heart beats fast again..

"Don't try to hit on me then..."

She close the only inch that has between us,she leans her face closer to me and we look at each other's eyes for a second..

I found myself slowly leaning more closing and find a right angle,she didn't do anything but she just close her eyes like she's waiting for me to kiss her..

I can't help myself because the tension is getting more higher,I lick my lips and slowly lean closer to give her a kiss..She didn't even try to move or either push me away.

I gently suck her lower lips and give her passionate kiss..I suck it twice and then suck the upper one,I bite her lower lips and that is the time when she slowly response to my kiss..

We're kissing now and I feel that she slowly put her hands over my chest and rub my chest gently and it is full of love..

Why does it's full of love??

I can feel it..the intimacy..

Her lips are the most warming thing I've ever tasted,her touch makes me feel complete..why does I feel this thing..

I travel m kiss to her chin and soon start to apply small kisses to her neck as she slowly tilts her head..

Having a tented car is such a good thing,I'm not regretting of buying it..

After licking and kissing her neck at the same I kiss her lips again..

"Khun---khun Sam..."

We both catching our breath as we parted our lips.

I just look at her in the eyes..

I've never seen this kind of look before especially from her..

The way she look at me is something I am afraid of..

The way she look at me is something I am scared to know,can't bare to lose,and can't ever attempt to let go..

Why does Mae looking at me this way right now?

It's full of doubts,and confusion..

"I..I still had a class to catch up,thank you for driving me here.."

She slowly said and open the car's door and leave me in stunned.

I watch her entering the School,waiting for her to turn her head at me once before I leave but she just continue walking..deep sigh.

She didn't even get mad at me..

What's happening?

Why she let me do all that to her just easy like that?

I thought she hates me?

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Dew's POV.

"You like who??!?!"

My cousin just said it in a loud way, enough for the other people here at the café look on us.

"Can you atleast lower your voice.."

I hissed her.

"You got to be kidding me,you like her?"

"Well,yeah since college.."

"Khun Sam is not into guys Dew you know that."

I take a deep sigh knowing that she's right,I don't want to build my hope up to Khun Sam..yeah I like her eversince we first meet but knowing that she's not really into guys put a needle in my heart..

She really believe that all guys are the same,red flag..

"Can I atleast confess?I mean I don't want this feeling to be extended I want to tell it to her right away because it's killing me.."

I drink my wine.

"You should atleast ready yourself because I'm pretty sure she'll be mad.."