FALLING APART

Characters; Female lead; Jezz (under pin name of the writer) Male Lead ; Zeruel Sampiano or “Zero” Kent and Issabelle: Zero’s friend Clara and Smile ; Jezz’s friend Mr. Roderick; Devine's husband Devine; Jezz real mother Sarah ; Jezz twin Sister and there are many other names included in this story. ---------------------------------- Jezz reach her age at 19 years old when she got her second year college. She used to watch drama series on her cellphone. That’s her way of entertaining herself, especially during the night. So when shes watching, she is just thrilled, feeling in love and feeling hurt, like the character on the show. she also laughed and cried, embracing the run of the story while watching it. One night, Jezz accidentally opened a new Filipino drama series. It is about boys love or BL drama series. At first, she was not interested in it, but in her mind, it says “why should I try to watch and understand first? so she did. The characters of the drama that she watches are so confident and strong in a gentle way, they have a cool personality. They are smart, dashing and handsome-looking buddies, until she finishes all fifteen episodes. she realizes that even if you are straight, gay or lesbian, everything is just the same for what we call love. she thinks that “it depends on how we can show and act for it”. Since then, her taste in the drama series has changed and made her open-minded with a lot of questions that come to her mind. Because of that, she did some little research so that she can get some information about the evolution of' Boys love series nowadays'. From what she understands, “there is a growing interest in Boys Love culture in some other countries. The existence of this boy's love started along a unique path through the social circumstances in which LGBT people find themselves”. She is now thinking about, “how do you know yourself that you are part of LGBT? Jezz is a girl. she does like girls and boys, but she’s the type who chooses to be her close friend. she actually doesn’t like women. She prefers to be with men because they are good companions in many different ways. That’s why one of her classmates named Clara thinks that she’s a lesbian, because she acts like a man. Clara is a lesbian; she has a girlfriend who is currently studying from other schools. Jezz once met her girlfriend and Jezz was amazed because they looked like cool lover. In a simple way, Jezz realized “the relationship of a couple, is not about love, but it is about respect, understanding, and acceptance. One afternoon in the classroom, “Jezz, I have a cousin named Gail. She is not a lesbian but she likes to try be in relationships with the same gender. She had a bad relationship from her past, maybe that’s the reason that made her change her mind.” Clara said, while they are waiting for a professor to come in the classroom. Clara is the best buddy of Jezz in the class. She is always true to herself when it comes to her personal love life. Clara trusts Jezz in everything, as she tells to Jezz about her few personal things, and even nonsense topics of her doings. “How was she? Jezz asked Clara . “She’s doing well; I will help you to contact her if you want to meet her?’ Clara say as she thought that maybe Jezz's type is also a girl. “Maybe next time! But as a friend, I really don't have time for that" Jezz answered. “Really? Or maybe you have another special someone right here” Clara said and she raised her right hand, using her index finger, she pointed at Jezz chest. But Jezz can’t tell her who is the person who makes her happy. Because that person was important to her, she was just afraid that if he found out, he was going to avoid her if not, their friendship will be forgotten. Jezz was dumbfounded for a moment as she’s thinking of him. Then suddenly her cellphone vibrated and she took it out of her pocket. The notification appeared on the screen of her cellphone. A text message from Zero. She was about to open the inbox to read the content of the text message, but she couldn’t because a professor came and started the class immediately. “Hey! Who’s texting you? Clara’s posthumous question. Then Jezz answer with her with a smile but no words at all. So that the professor who was talking in front would not notice them, out of respect. One night; For bed time, Jezz had watched another episode of the drama. It is a Thai drama series about a boy’s love. Her unmeasurable imagination was reopened by ambient light, there was a man turned around. She was stunned by his angelic smile. He is one of the main characters. He has a sticky look which is attractive, brown lips that make her hungry, like an apple that she wants to take one bite on, a large arm that can carry her going to bed and his sweaty chest that she wants to wipe using my hands to the bottom. The act that she wants to run, just to hug him and claim what she wants to claim. Then let the coldest water pour into their hot bodies while sticking together, to reduce the heat they feel. It makes her feel hot while fantasizing about the male actor being watched. Her moment of fantasizing about the fiction series that she watched was cut. Suddenly, there’s a water dripped and her left finger got wet while holding her cellphone. Her floating green-minded thoughts suddenly came to life when she saw that the drip of water came from the ceiling of her bedroom. She quickly got up to push her bed on the other side, and she put an empty bottle on the floor so that it could catch the dripping water. That was what she always did every time there was rain. Then she lay down on her bed again and said to herself. “Someday I will get a job with a high salary and the first thing that I will do is to save money and renovate our house” She takes a deep breath after she say it to herself, then she tries to consolidate her thoughts about her future plans until she fall asleep.