A Destiny Beyond The Stars

They say When you love someone you should love like there’s no tomorrow. And honestly I wish that I did. I never got to say goodbye. I didn’t get to tell you how much I loved you. I never got the chance to say that I’ll miss you Nobody told me you were going to die. And if you were here with me right now I wouldn’t have it any other way. ******************************************************************************************************************* I remember like it was yesterday. They called me up and said I had to make an important decision. “Your wife or your child”. Of course I chose my wife. Selfish of me? No, but hear me out I can always have another child, I can’t have another Verity. It felt like ages. I just sat in the waiting room, waiting on the worst news of my life. “Mr. Reed?” The doctor called me with sympathy in her voice. I said “yes that’s me.” “We’re sorry to inform you that your wife passed away due to severe internal bleeding” I couldn’t even register what she said after that. Everything was in slow motion. I told her to give me a moment as I walked to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror, tears streaming down my face. “It can’t be…..IT CAN’T BE!” And before I knew it my hand met the mirror shattering into pieces… just like my broken heart. I was so pumped with adrenaline I didn’t even notice that my hand was bleeding. I walk out the bathroom, the doctor calls to me. “Sir, Sir would you like to see your daughter” “ Would I like to see my daughter?” “Come with me I’ll show you.” Just like that my life was changed, I lost my best friend. There she was, she looked just like her mother. I felt a love like no other. I never knew you could hate someone just as much as you love them. She has big light brown eyes and a head full of hair.. She was perfect just like her mother. But if you were to ask me, if she was here with me, I mean us I wouldn’t have it any other way. Wouldn’t have it any other way. “I got it” I thought to myself. “Your name is going to be Legacy” “Legacy Arielle Reed.” I sighed in frustration. I can’t say all of that.That's too much to say at a funeral it’s going to seem like a lecture. I had less than two hours to prepare a speech and I didn’t even know what to say. I couldn’t tell the whole truth. I know that much. It feels like a bad dream that I couldn’t wake up from,it haunts me day and night. Those we love never leave us. There are things death cannot touch. It has almost been 3 years since Verity had died.We were supposed to do this together. It should’ve been me ! I can’t do this, I don’t even know how to do this. I’m so mad at her for leaving me here. Legacy was about to turn three.Here I was trying to plan a birthday party on the best and worst day of my life. Honestly I don’t know how I kept going. Verity was all I had and now she’s gone. I haven’t dated, let alone had any time to myself. Having a kid is a full time job. I didn’t want to corrupt her, how was I supposed to raise a child I had so much hate for. It was her fault that her mother had died. Her mom should be here. But yet so innocent , yet so sweet I couldn’t hold it against her.At least not yet, I mean have you seen her an exact replica of her mom. June 15th I got Legacy dressed. She looked too cute. “Are you ready to see mommy” I asked. She looked at me strangely. “What don’t give me that face” I said. Her little laugh was so adorable. “Cmon let’s go” I said picking her up. She was getting bigger by the minute. As she grew so did the hole in my heart. The car ride there felt so long but it was only 30 minutes. I use to visit her grave everyday after she died but it broke my heart seeing her with the dead instead of the living where she should be. I just wish she was here. God, I miss her so much. I picked up Legacy and she immediately began to cry. I sighed “I don’t have time to deal with this.” I sat down with Legacy in my arms. “Look it’s mommy” I said. I felt a hot tear run down my face. “She would’ve loved to be here with you.” The picture on her grave stone couldn’t even capture her whole essence she was so much more. Here she left me with a baby I barley liked but had the responsibility of taking care of. I hated seeing Verity Noelle Reed August 26th—June 15th. It reminds me of the day my world crumbled, it literally fell apart in my hands. I love you forever and always Verity don’t forget me.