Following my parents' steps(SQ:The good girl is changing me)

Chapter nine - This person

Skyler's POV:

I can't believe that he lied to me. How can I be so stupid? I thought that he can be nice, but no. He will never change. I wanted to help him, but now I won't do it. I'm done with him. I am done with Blake. He doesn't deserve anything. No matter what I do, he will always be ungrateful. I don't want to be around people like him. He better go somewhere else and leaves me alone. I don't want to have anything with him. For me, he is dead. Blake was ignoring me and now, I will do the same. Let's see will he like it. If he thinks that hurting people is no big deal, I will show him what it is like to be from the other side. Why there isn't one normal boy? All of them are jerks. I wanted a boy like that, but more and more I realize that this is mission impossible. My dad is ready to give his life for mom while Blake can't even take care of himself. I don't want to be rude, but he really hurt me and the fact that there was no emotion from his side made it worse. I can't be with someone who is so coldhearted. I don't want to be with this type of person. How did mom manage to change dad? It looks so easy, but I know that it wasn't. Why can't I do the same with Blake? All I wanted was to show him that friends are better, but he clearly doesn't want this. In that case, I will leave him alone. I am done with this person. He doesn't care about me so I don't have to care about him either.

I woke up in the morning in a weird mood. It's the weekend so I don't have to see his face for two days. I don't know why I still think about this. Part of me wants to forget it, but the other one wants me to go back to him. I don't like Blake like a potential boyfriend, but he definitely made me change in some type of way. Before, I have never cared so much for someone who is not part of my family. Mostly I mean my brother. Blake is not that bad, but the way he treats me is hurting me. I don't know what I did to deserve this. We didn't even know each other before school. I don't understand what I did wrong.

There was a knock on the door and soon my mom came in. She smiled at me and sat on the bed. I assume that she wants something. Usually, they don't wake me up, because I do it by myself, but there are some times in which they do. Mostly when I will be late.

- Hey mom, do you want something?

- Good morning to you too. I am here to take you for breakfast. Mike and your dad want us to eat outside. You will come with us, right?

- Yes, of course. Give me ten minutes to get ready.

- Ok, we'll wait for you downstairs.

Mom left and I started to get ready. The weather is nice today so I put not that on spring clothes. I dressed in a black cropped t-shirt, black ripped jeans, and sneakers in the same color. I put my hair into a ponytail and looked at myself in the mirror. Once I spent one hour looking at myself and wondering what I should change in myself. When I was done, I walked downstairs. All of us went to the nearest diner. I am not very hungry, but I will eat something. While we were waiting for the food, I went to the toilet. I was about to go back to my table when someone grabbed my hand. I was about to scream when I saw who it was. I will kill him.

- Let me go!

- Not until we talk.

- I have nothing to tell you. Moreover, you already did enough.

- That's why. I want to apologize.

- It's too late. Let me go. I want to eat.

- You will eat later. Now listen to me.

- I don't want to hear anything that comes from your mouth.

- Look, I know that you are mad at me, but...

Before he could finish, I slapped him, which made him look at me with angriness in his eyes. I'm sure that this has caught some attention, but I won't mind it.

- Why did you do that?

- I told you to leave me. I don't want to talk with you. Never!

- Skyler, you have to listen to me.

- No! Blake, you already did enough. I am tired of your lies, fake apologies, and whatever is it. Leave me alone and never talk with me. After all, this is what you wanted since the beginning. - I said and left

I won't lie that I feel bad for him, but he deserves it. I can't forgive him just like that. Moreover, all the time he was saying that it's my fault. This time, it's his. I got tired of him. He doesn't even care about me. Why should I believe anything of what he says? How I am supposed to know that he is not lying to me? Lately, this is what he does. I walked to my place and pretended that nothing happened. Luckily, my parents believed me.

- Skyler, is everything ok? - dad asked me

- Yes, everything is fine. Don't worry. I just still feel sleepy.

- If you want, we can do something in the afternoon.

- Thanks, but I am good.

Until the rest of the breakfast, I didn't say anything. The fact that Blake was watching me was not helping at all. I want to kill him, but I don't know how. I looked at him and saw something unknown in his eyes. Is there regret? No, I don't believe him. Dad went to pay for the food and all of us walked out. Guess what? This i***t had to follow me. Please tell me that he will walk away.

- Skylar, wait!

- Do you know this boy? - mom asked me

- Give me five minutes. - I said and walked up to him

- You need to listen to me. I'm sorry.

- I told you that I don't want to hear anything.

- Why you are so stubborn?

- Why did you treat me like crap? I didn't do anything to you.

- I know and I'm sorry.

- Do you trust me?

- Not that again.

- If you want me to accept your apology, you have to answer this question and you have to be honest.

- I don't know. It's hard for me to trust people.

- And for me to accept your apology.

- No wonder why people hate you. They were right. You are a b*tch.

I won't lie that his words hurt me. How he could say that? Just because I didn't accept his stupid apology. Then he asks why I act like that. I can't believe what type of person I had to mess with.

- But at least I don't lie people.

- I didn't want to say it like that. I just...

- That's enough. I get tired of you. Every time I think to forgive what you have done, you say something else to hurt me. I'm sorry, but no. I can't continue like that. I am done with you. - I said and left

I felt the tears in my eyes but blinked a couple of times to make them go away. I can't believe that someone can be so cruel. When we walked home, I went to my room and laid on the bed. I wrapped my hands around the teddy bear and pressed it against me. I let my tears fall. In that moment, someone entered my room. It was my dad.

- Hey, are you ok? You can share with me.

- I'm fine.

- And a terrible liar. Skyler, who is this boy, and why did you get upset? Is he this person?

I looked at him confused, but then I clicked it. The last time I talked with dad, I didn't mention that he is a boy or a girl and named him this person. I only nodded my head. Dad pulled me for a hug and I slightly broke in his arms. He didn't say anything and only rubbed my back. Why do I even waste my tears for this i***t? He doesn't deserve this.

- Skyler, you have to tell me what is going on. Did he do something to you?

- He hurt me and said horrible things about me. - I said and pulled away

- Maybe he had a reason for that. Did you do something?

- No. All I wanted was to understand why he is treating me so badly. He doesn't like girls for something that has happened in the past, but I have nothing to do with that.

- Don't you think that you have pressured him?

- Of course not. I just don't understand what I did to him.

- I think that you have to talk with this boy and hear what he has to tell you.

- I don't want to listen to him. He already did enough.

- Why are you so cruel with him?

- Me cruel. Have you seen him? You have no idea what he said about me.

- Yes, but maybe he was hurt and that's why he did it. This doesn't mean that it's your fault. All I am trying to say is that you shouldn't judge him only because he has said something to you. Maybe it's hard for him to talk and he doesn't know how to express himself in front of you.

- He doesn't trust me. Do you know what this means?

- Skyler, I understand you, but you have to try to understand him. Otherwise, you will be upset and angry with him for a long time and I am sure that you don't want this.

- I wanted to help him. To understand why he doesn't like girls and to have people around himself, but he never let me. All the time he was telling me to go away and leave him alone. Blake never lets people get close to him and I wanted to know why.

- One day, he will tell you. I think that something bad has happed and he is just not ready to tell you.

- I don't know and I don't care. He is history.

- Don't say it, because we both know that it's not true.

- It is.

- No, it's not. Otherwise, you weren't going to cry over him and let him get you so bad. No matter how much you deny it, you care about him more than you will admit. All you want is Blake to understand how you felt when he said those things to you.

I didn't say anything and nodded my head. I know that dad is right, but I wish that he wasn't. Why do I have to meet him? Blake is horrible, but he already got stuck in my head. Is it possible that I like him? No, I didn't go that far. There is something that I can't describe, but it's getting stronger. It's like a feeling, but not a normal one. I don't know why I decide to mess with him, but I won't lie that I still want to help him. Maybe I won't have my dream relationship. I know that he can take care of me, but for some reason, he doesn't want to do it.

- Will you tell me what to do?

- I can only give you advice, but after all, the final decision is yours.

- Ok, I am listening.

- Talk with him and made him understand that he can trust you. No matter how much he denies, don't give up. Be there. I have told your mom many times to go away because I didn't want her to get hurt, but she never did it. You may not realize it yet, but you look a lot like her. No matter do you like it or not, he is your boy. I know that you care about him and you can't forget him.

- Why can't you be like the normal fathers who check the boy before letting him date their daughter?

- Because I am not normal. - dad chuckled

- Sometimes I hate you, sometimes I love you. Now, it's the first one.

- Only if you believe yourself.

- Very funny. Thanks, dad. You always know what to say. No wonder why mom chose you.

- To be honest, I am still not sure why she did it, but I am happy with her choice.

- Otherwise, I wasn't going to be here.

- True.

- Can I ask you something? It's a little bit personal.

- If it's like the last time. - he chuckled

- Not exactly.

- Ok, I'm listening.

- Why can't you stay away from mom? I mean that it's ok for couples to spend time together, but from the outside, it looks like you can't live without her. Did something happen for which I don't know?

- The answer is simple. I don't want to lose her.

- But she won't go anywhere.

- You never know. Well, since you have already read the book, you know how complicated were the relations between the boy and his parents were.

- Yes, I do. They didn't understand each other very well. Same as you and my grandparents, right?

- Exactly. They left me at a very young age.

- And when mom came, you were afraid that she would leave you too. - I said and he nodded his head in agreement

- Now, you answered your question.

- I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn't ask.

- No, it's ok. You are old enough to pay attention to these things and ask questions about them.

- Do you think that I will find someone like you?

- I think that you already did.

- What? Who?

- Wait and see. Now, let's go and watch something. If you are a good girl, I will let you snuggle.

- Yay! Thank you, daddy.

- For you always.

I have the best dad in the world. I don't care what he has done in the past. Now, he is a completely different person who will do everything for his family. I know why mom chose him and I have to say that this was the best decision in her life. Seeing them so close makes me want to find someone like dad. I want to feel the same amount of love, which mom does. It's not a lie that I always have been jealous of her because of that. I want that too and to be by someone who will love me for real. Maybe one day this will happen as well. I know that whoever he is, he will be parent-approved. Well, according to dad, I already have found the boy, but I don't think like that. No matter who is the boy, all I want from him is to make me happy. Everything else will come with time.