Following my parents' steps(SQ:The good girl is changing me)

Chapter eight - I am done with her

Blake's POV:

I managed to be nice to Skyler to see what will happen. It turned out that she can stop being annoying if she wants to. I won't lie that I had a good time with her, but this won't be forever. I can't keep pretending to be someone who I am not. I still don't trust her and I don't think that I ever will. After all, she is a girl and I don't like girls. Mostly, because one already did a lot of damage. I don't need another one like her. I know that Skyler is not guilty of that, but this doesn't mean that she can't hurt me. I don't want the same thing to repeat. She might be a good girl, but even they can be bad if they want to. Maybe I am too cruel to her, but probably she deserves it. No girl is always good and has never done something bad. There is a reason why people in this school don't like her. I bet that she has done something, but didn't want to tell me. Anyways, I won't think about her. I have many other things in my head to worry about. One of them is how to make her stay away from me. Well, I guess that I can't get her out of my mind. Stupid girl. Why did I have to meet her? Like the girl who stole my best friend is not enough. 

I woke up in my usual mood. I wish that I could skip school, but I can't. My parents will never let me do it. Well, I can go out, pretending that I am going to school and later to go somewhere else. It's not a bad idea, but I am sure that my parents will understand. Ok, I will go to school and ignore Skyler just how I did it that day. It's not like she will leave me in peace. I only hope that she didn't think that I will always be nice to her because this won't happen. I did it once, but that's it. This won't happen again. 

I got out of my bed and started getting ready. How I hate this. The good thing is that I don't care how I look so I grabbed the first thing that I saw in my wardrobe. Up to now, girls haven't talked with me so I don't have to dress nicely. Well, except Skyler, but she comes to me for another reason. I walked to the bathroom and later downstairs for breakfast. My parents were at the table, which means that I have to talk with them. Let's hope that they won't notice me or just won't ask questions. I am not in the mood for that. I took my food and started eating. 

- Honey, what is going on between you and the girl who was always after you?

You have to be kidding me. Why do I have parents who care for me? I don't need to answer, but I will. Otherwise, mom won't leave me. 

- I am ignoring her. 

- But why? She only wants to be your friend. 

- No, she doesn't want that. I won't tell her anything and keep ignoring her so please leave me to eat. 

- Blake, you can't keep acting like that with people. You might hurt them. - dad said

- Do I look like I care?

- Ok, why don't you forget about this? Three years passed. What is done, it's done. You can't go back in time to fix it. 

- I can do whatever I want and no one can tell me anything. 

With that, I got up and left. My parents will be the death of me. I walked to the nearest store and bought two beer bottles. It's early, but I don't care. Later, I walked to the back of the school and drank one of them. Of course, Skyler had to come and ruin everything. How I hate this girl. I wish that she could disappear and leave me alone. I see that she is in a good mood so I decide to ruin it. 

- Hey Blake, how are you today?

- Can you leave?

- Why? I thought that you finally stopped hating me. 

- Just because one day I was nice to you, it doesn't mean that I will be like that every day. 

- I don't understand. 

- Let me clear it to you. I pretended to be nice to you only to see what you will do. I will never like you so get up and leave me alone. 

I looked at her and saw tears in the corners of her eyes. She is so easy. I wanted to ruin her mood, but why did I feel bad. I don't care about her. Skyler gave me a look and I knew that she was angry. 

- So you lied to me. Why would you do that? What I have done to you to deserve treatment like yours? I tried to be nice, but you are not letting me. No matter what I do, you will always say that I am guilty. What's wrong with you?

- You were nice to me, only because I was with you. When I am myself, you treat me like everybody else. You don't even care about me. Otherwise, you were going to leave me alone and don't mess up just how I told you in the beginning. The problem is that you never listen. 

- And if I leave you, what? Will something change? No, it won't. You still will be a piece of sh*t who doesn't care about anyone. 

- Maybe I am, but at least I am myself. Not like you, trying to be everyone's favorite. 

- I AM NOT DOING THIS! - she shouted

I guess that I just found her weak spot. To be honest, I wasn't expecting her to get so mad. After all, I am not the first person who is saying this. I looked at her and saw how she was trying to hold her tears. How I see this is hurting her, but I don't know why. She can ignore it. Moreover, these are just words. I can't ignore my problem, because it was personal. Nowadays people talk about many things, but this doesn't mean that we have to believe them. 

- Hey, are you ok?

- HOW DO YOU THINK? EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING THAT I AM TRYING TO MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME AND THAT I AM A SPOILED RICH B*TCH. ALSO, I AM DADDY'S FAVORITE. I THOUGHT THAT YOU ARE DIFFERENT, BUT NO. I WAS WRONG. NO MATTER THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ME YOU STILL THINK LIKE THE REST. - she kept shouting

I left my beer bottle on the ground, grabbed both of her hands, and made her look at me. This girl needs to calm down. Moreover, I don't like when people shout at me. She has no right to do it. Skyler kept her mad expression until I pulled her for a hug. I don't know why I did it, but I thought that it's right. I felt how she broke down in my arms. Great. What I am supposed to do now? I never took care of a girl. In the end, I decide to don’t do anything. Maybe, she is not that bad, but I still don't trust her completely. 

- I'm sorry. 

- No, you don't. Otherwise, you were never going to say it. You are just like the rest. 

She was about to walk away, but I stopped her. 

- If I was, I was never going to pretend to be someone else just for you. 

With that, she looked at me but didn't say anything. We kept staring at each other for a while, but she broke the eye contact and left. Well, I wanted her to go away. Then why do I feel like that? It's like now I want her to stay, which is impossible. She is a girl, which means that she is evil. Ok, she never did something bad to me, but I just don't like her. Maybe I do since I did so many things about her. Usually, I don't do anything. Why everything is so complicated? 

On the lunch break, I walked to the back of the school and pulled out my second beer bottle. I thought that Skyler will come, but no. I went to the cafeteria, but she wasn't there either. Why I am even searching for her? Anyways, I kept looking for her and finally, I found her. She was in the gym, sitting at one of the benches. I guess that she won't eat today. I went to take one apple and came back to her. 

- Here, take this. 

- Since it's from you, I won't take it. 

- Are you seriously mad at me?

- No, I am not mad at you. I am disappointed in myself. I let my senses guide me and I left hurt again. 

I wanted to say something, but no words escaped from my mouth. Maybe my parents are right. My behavior will hurt people. Usually, I don't care about this, but now I do and I don't even know why. She is just a girl but somehow managed to get under my skin. I don't know what to do with her. 

- I didn't want to hurt you. 

- But you did it. 

- And I'm sorry. 

- No, you don't. I know that you don't care. You said that you don't need my help or me so finally, your wish will come true. I am done with you. I don't care what has happened to you. I am tired of trying to be nice and you to keep acting like a jacka*s. Do whatever you want. 

Before she could leave, I grabbed her hand and made her look at me. Maybe I can't tell her anything, but I hope that she can see through my eyes and understand that I am sorry. I know that she still believes in this. We kept looking at each other, but she didn't say anything. I saw how the tears were building up in her eyes again. I don't know what I have to do to show her that I am really sorry. This is why I wanted to stay away from girls. They are too complicated and don't know what they want. I let go of her hand and expected her to go, but no. She kept looking at me and finally, I received a smile from her. Does this mean that everything is ok? 

- For what is the smile?

- Do you trust me?

- I... I don't know. 

- Then you don't deserve it. - she said and walked away

Great. I messed up again. I want to trust her, but I can't. She has to understand that for me this is not something easy. Well, she doesn't know the story. I don't think that I should tell her. This won't change anything. 

After my last class, I went to search Skyler. I found her by her locker. I was about to walk up to her, but she just walked away. I won't give up. I ran up to her and made her look at me. There was a pain in her eyes. Don't tell me that it's because of me. I didn't do anything wrong. I prefer to be honest with her instead to make her believe my lies. When she understands the truth, she won't be happy. 

- Skyler, listen to me. I wanted to be honest with you. 

- You wanted something, which has nothing to do with me. 

- That's not true. Please listen to me. I never wanted to hurt you. 

- Just stop talking. I don't want to listen. 

- Why did you get mad at me? Many people tell you the same things, but you ignore them. With what my words were different? 

- Because I thought that you are different. I trusted you. I was feeling bad for you and this is why I wanted to help you. No one deserves whatever has happened to you. It's visible that you lost trust in people and I wanted to show you that you can trust me, but I guess that this will never happen. 

- Look, I...

- Don't say anything. I don't want to hear your lies. - she said and left

I looked up and saw her parents. Great. Now I definitely will be in trouble. What did I do to deserve this? They smiled at me and walked away. Skyler will hate me forever. Maybe that is better. I didn't want to be around her in the first place. I prefer to be alone instead to be with people like her. She gets hurt by the smallest things. No wonder why she is the daughter of the devil. I might not know her parents, but I am sure that they have done something. There is no other reason why people in school will hate her. 

I walked home, straight to my room. I saw my mom, but I ignored her. Now I am not in the mood for conversations. If I talk with her, she will never leave me alone. I know that she only cares about me, but I don't want to talk with her or whoever it is. It's all Skyler's fault. No matter what she does, she always finds a way to f*ck up my day. I hate her. She is exactly like the girl for who my best friend left me. All the girls are the same. I won't talk with her anymore. She can't be done with me, because I am done with her. From now on, Skyler is no one to me. She is just a stranger.