AGAPE

Serenity’s POV: Most say that on average it takes 88 days to fall in love while others take 134 days but for me, it only took a glance into his eyes I've never been the type to fall for someone without knowing who they are at first..the real them but this no, he was different I've never been in a relationship so raw, pure, dangerous, faulty, and imperfect and God knows this relationship had a lot of imperfections. My heart needed healing it was bandaged up with some old torn-up clothes with the wounds still visible His heart needed healing so much that he didn't see the right and I mean the perfect person there was to bend his heart to make him believe that someone could love him and cherish him in all the right ways in which he deserved or which he had never received and he was hurting her for worse than she's ever been hurt he could not see that the pain he had, he had carried for years in his heart he was now letting it out on an angel he could not see that she was his cure he could not see that her love was true and real he could not see that her heart only belonged to him no one else he could not see her he could not see me but he would eventually and when he does the damage will already be done. **** The cold breeze brushed against my skin and I shivered and snuggled deeper into my hoodie It was early September but the cool Antarctic temperatures were already rolling in I stared out the window from the back seat of the class my mind preoccupied with thoughts I thought back to when I was truly happy 1 year ago That was the only time I felt real happiness But now depression loneliness suicidal thoughts Are all taking over All because of that incident "Miss James" "Miss James" "MISS JAMES!" I turned my head to face my teacher with a blank expression "Yes, Miss Robinson?" I asked slightly annoyed at her recent shouting "I would like you to answer question 5" she replied with her hands crossed "I don't know," I said and went back to staring out the window I did know the answer but I wasn't in the mood to answer her This was the first week of school and I dreaded every moment of it. Everything went downhill the moment I stepped into this place "Serenity James it's either you answer the question or get out of my class" she stated sternly I stared at her for a couple of seconds and grabbed my bag off the back of the chair I stood up and walked towards the door with an angry Miss Robinson a couple of feet away from me "Young lady you get right back in your seat this moment or I will be forced to send you to the office!!" She hissed harshly her once pale face turning pink I gave her one more glance then pushed the door open and walked outside into the empty hallway I could already hear my mother's response to what had just taken place "Serenity why won't you stop acting out why won't you JUST STOP!" "Serenity this behavior is unacceptable CHANGE!" Serenity Serenity Serenity I sighed heavily as I walked to the bleachers I knew I was my mother's favorite disappointment Rather her only disappointment She wanted a free-willed Smart Caring Funny Sweet Charismatic Child And she had one She had one. The cool breeze brushed against my skin and I folded my hands under the hem of my hoodie This was peaceful I closed my eyes taking in the sounds of my surroundings Birds The wind in the trees The intercom blasting my name "SERENITY JAMES PLEASE REPORT TO THE PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE IMMEDIATELY" And as soon as I was at peace all came crashing down I made a loud groan and rested my head in the palms of my hand She is such a snitch I slowly walked from the bleachers into the hallway I knew I was in for an earful of talking and I was not in the mood for it. I made it to the office doors and reluctantly pulled the door I saw my mother fitted in her work suit sitting at the far end of the office "Miss James take a seat," Mr.Bumlard said I inwardly sighed and took a seat in front of his desk And my mom sat beside me "So Miss Robinson said that you were being disrespectful and walked out of her class is that so?" I asked with a raised eyebrow "She asked me a question I told her I didn't know the answers she said to answer or leave so I left problem solved," I said looking him dead in his eyes He sighed and looked over at my mom "Mrs James-" "It's Miss Smith" she replied with a tight smile "My apologies, Miss Smith I understand how hard it has been for you and your family" "Thank you Mr Bumlard but we are managing well" she replied and I rolled my eyes There is the woman I know always pushing her emotions aside and pretends everything is fine when she knows we are in shambles "Can we leave now I have an important meeting to get to and I assure you Serenity will get the proper punishment she deserves" she said and Mr Bumlard nodded Bullshit We walked out of the school without saying a word to each other and when we got in the same the same thing applied no one said a word I stared out the window Seeing the green streaks of vegetation flash by "Look Serenity-" my mom broke the silence "Don't Mom" but I stopped her and we fell right back into silence She knew I was hurting And I knew she was hurting too But things have never been the same without him And she knows it.