The lost smile

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It's been a three days that I am avoiding her not because she pushed me again but everytime she made me feel that I am forcing her to be with me.

She said that night she wanted more.Her words and lips were not enough for me, but yet I wanted to be slow. Not to push her for anything, but she blamed me again with her eyes. I have always learnt to be polite with every lady. And she is not a simply lady but me feelings for her more stronger. Though, I don't know what to name this. Is it love or infatuation. My heart and spine didn't want to let her go alone.So, I asked aur family bodyguard mr.River to keep an eye on her. It's not that she cannot take care of herself. Instead she will kick off them, but my heart will be at ease. She safely reached her home." Xavier, you are mixing salt in the cookies batter, " mom's voice pulled me out into reality. I glanced at my batter and the salt bottle in my hand." Sorry, mom." I signed in frustration" It's ok."Hmm" You should support her not to be angry with her. It's not easy son to get out from the dark past. She has many fears which she does not show an her poker face. She is heart less because she had gone something very

Bad. She will pushed you again and again but don't get affected by her words. Stand like your father did to me and support her son," she said with saddens. Mom was right but I won't take any step. Until she takes a step this time. I am not bad boy who will force her to talk to me." Mom I understand everything

But I will wait for first response. Please," I signed heavily . She gave me reassured smile and walked out of the kitchen. I was wearing my boxing gloves and preparing for the practice in the boxing club. Though I was not in the mood of practising, but caoch had called me to came." Xavier," a familiar voice called me from behind. I turned my Gaze to Sophia. She was wearing her blue gym jacket with a grey trouser, which hugged her body perfectly. Her face looked pale and had a small bandage on her. Head." What happened to your head." I asked worriedly. I forgot my anger and was exchanged my worried and concern for her." Coach has asked me to practise with you,"she said in a cold voice. She ignored my question and acted coldly with me. She is again playing with me the same game. I sauntered towards The boxing ring in rage and she followed me there. She took off her jacket and was in her sports. My Gaze stopped on her naval, my mouth went dry. I felt to touch her waist and rubber my thumb on her naval.

Then my sensval imagination got interrupted by a clearing of throat." Can we start now?" She furrowed her eyebrows, taking her position with her boxing gloves." Yes", I also took my position and jogged on my place for her moves. She threw a punch towards me which I dodge her each punches. She got frustra-

Ted and made a move to punch me with her night hand as I was about to dodge. She threw an another punch with her left hand which caught me off guard and It landed on my nose. I

groaned as pain felt on my nose. It started bleeding and her face turned pale with shock. "Xavier," she murmured. She hurriedly took off her gloves and panicked kept her hand on my nose."I am sorry," she said sympathetically." Don't be sorry till you feel it." I jerked.

Hand and walked out of the ring. her eyes were sorry for punching me. But I am not hurt by her punches, but her earlier behaviour. I took out my vest and threw it in the locker. Why can't she behave like a normal girl. i***t ! Xavier, she is different that's why. I Love her. I was shocked after I realised my feelings for her . I love her. The door got opened with a bang as Sophia entered in the locker room with a first aid . It was a sign that my feelings for her are true." I know what I did was wrong . I am a dumb ass girl." She says in a low tone. Like a 5 year old girl was giving her apologize speech. She strolled towards me and putting the cotton pad near my nostrils to stop bleeding." I have no one to care and be with me," she signed heavily her words had so much pain and heaviness. Although I don't want to go through her heart to flow with her words. Then the burden will be decreased. I was listening her patiently and staring at her she put a ice pack on my nose and her arm touched on my bare chest. I felt tingles and sparks in my body.

But I have to stop these feelings. I stretched my hand and made a distance between us." I will stay away from you. As you have asked me," I said sternly.her eyes flashes with hurt and she kept her hand on mine." Don't stay away from me, please. No one had broke the walls of my life. But you did and made a place in my heart too," she mumbled while pinning in her eyes. I want to be with her but I want to listen more from her." I have seen how much you want to stay with you. Each time pushing me and put the blame of forcing the tough girl," I said in a sour tone.

I turned off to leave the room. But she caught my wrist " I am injurious to your life," she and swirped me around mumbled in a cracking voice.while hugging me.He was the light which shines.