Dear Crush

Crush 8

Dear Adrian,

Last day of school. Well technically it was my last exam today

Fate played with me again.

Out of all places and out of all days, why did I see you today??!

WHY

And you just haaaaaaaaad to walk past our table.

Great!

Thank you for making me go back to square one!

THANK YOU

But you know what was sad?

I didn't even get to see your face.

I don't know if you heard my not-so-obvious friends calling some name while you were passing by.....

But they were calling me to look at you.

I had a feeling it was you but I didn't want to look because......

I just couldn't.

But I told myself that this is the last time I'll ever get to see you so might as well.

I looked back.

I didn't see your face.....

I saw your back.

You were wearing a white long sleeved shirt.

You were walking away.

Didn't even look back.

I took that as a sign.

A sign that you'll never look back at me the same way I am looking at you.

Yet somehow you made me smile today so thank you.

Thank you for making my day one last time.

Thank you for being that motivation to study for my last exam.

Thank you Adrian.

It's funny isn't it?

Doing your every day routine and not knowing there's someone who's day you have completed

Or going to bed at night not knowing that someone is going crazy thinking about you or missing you

Or not knowing that someone has fallen secretly in love with you and you have no idea at all.

It's funny.

It'll take time to unlearn all the things I know about you.

To forget all the feelings you give me whenever I see you.

It will take time.

And I will move on one day.