ZENA - LIFE AFTER DESTRUCTION

CHAPTER 1     RUDE AWAKENING   RUN ZENA RUN! GET THE f**k AWAY!!!!! RUN ZENA RUN. I WAS AWOKEN BY SOMEONE SHOUTING. GET UP BREA ITS 6 AM, IT’S YOUR FIRST DAY. SLOWLY OPENING MY EYES TRYING TO FIND MYSELF LIKE SO MANY MORNINGS. YOU UP BREA? f**k I JUST WISH THEY WILL STOP CALLING ME THAT MY NAME IS ZENA, I WAS THINKING OUT LOAD! WHATS THAT I HEARD SARAHS VOICE? NOTHING! I AM UP I QUICKLLY REPLIED KNOWING SHE HEARD ME HER EARS MISSES NOTHING. GET DRESSED BREAKFAST IN HALF AN HOUR AND ITS YOUR TURN TO CLEAN UP AFTERWARDS, SHE SAID WITH AN ATTITUDE IN HER VOICE, WHAT EVER I THOUGHT TO MYSELF SAME OLD s**t DUTIES AS EVER, THINKING TO MYSELF THROWING THE BLANKET OFF MYSELF, DRESSED IN ONLY A PANTY AND SPORTS BRA LAUGHING AT MYSELF IF ONLY THESE WIERDO’S KNEW OFF MY SLEEPING ATIRE I SLEEP IN HEADING TO THE BATHROOM. A TEXT SO EARLY IN THE MORNING QUICKLLY TURNING AROUND REALIZING I FORGOT TO PUT MY PHONE ON SILENT, GIRL YOUR LOOKING FOR TROUBLE HOWEVER GLAD TO SEE MESSAGE WAS FROM MY BEST FRIEND SANDY BACK HOME. SANDY: MORNING GIRL! JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I M THINKING OFF YOU TODAY YOUR FIRST DAY AT NEW SCHOOL, YOU BE STRONG, LOVE YOU LOTS. SUDDEN ANGER AND SADNESS ALL THESE MIXED EMOTIONS FILLING MY WHOLE BODY. HOW THE f**k AM I GOING TO DO THIS TODAY? ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR, THE SCHOOL NEW PEOPLE AND ONTOP ALL THE WIERDOS I HAVE HAD TO MEET THUS FAR, I ONLY MANANGED TO REPLY WITH A THANK YOU AND SWITCHING PHONE OFF ITS SAFER IF THEY KNEW I HAD ONE THAT WOULD ALSO BE TAKEN AWAY, AFTER FINISHING OFF IN THE BATHROOM, HAIR IN A MESSY BUNN PALE FACE BLACK EYES AND BLACK LIPS I WALKED OVER TO WARDROPE OPENING IT AND LAUGHING AT MYSELF, THEY WANT ME WEARING THAT, NO, NO IT WILL SPOIL MY LOOK I SAID TO MYSELF WITH A SMILE ON MY LIPS. GETTING OUT MY ATIRE MORE MY LOOK, BLACK DOX BOTS BLACK STOCKINGS BLACK DRESS ALL THE WAY DOWN TO THE FLOOR WITH LONG SLEEVES AND A POLO NECK,,,,OOOPS NOT FORGETTING MY BLACK UNDERWARE. THERE YOU GO GIRL LOOKING AT ME MORE YOU’RE LOOK EXSPECIALLY FACING TODAY. CANT DO THIS SOBER MINDED, LUCKLLY FOR BEING HERE I HAVE MANNAGED TO SCORE MY LIMITED FIX BEEN VERY HARD TO BUT A GIRLS GOTA DO WHAT A GILS GOTA DO TO SURVIVE HERE. HEADING DOWN TOWARDS THE BIG COLD OLD KITCHEN, UPON ENTERING NOT BEING SURPRISED WHAT MET ME! THE HEAD OFF THE HOUSE THOMAS AND ON EITHER SIDE OFF HIM A WOMAN AND AT HE HEAD OFF THE TABLE SARAH, STILL AFTER A YEAR I CAN NOT WRAP MY MIND AROUND THIS WEIRD s**t, MORNING BREA! I HEARD MY AUNTS VOICE SOFTLY SPOKEN SAYING LOOKING UP AT ME, I COULD ONCE AGAIN FEELING ALL EYES LOCKED ON ME AGAIN AS EVERY DAY, LOOKING UP I COULD ONCE AGIN SEE THE DESGUST THEY HAVE IN THERE EYES LOOKING AT ME BEING DRESSED THE WAY I AM, SARAH STANDING UPYOU WEARING THAT LOOKING LIKE THAT GOING TO OUR NEW SCHOOL DAY YOUR FIRST DAY IT’S A DISGRACE TO THIS HOUSE! LOOKING LIKE THAT AROUND THE HOUSE WAS BAD ENOUGH BUT GOING OUT IN PUBLIC, THOMAS!!! SPEAK UP IT’S A DISGRACE TO THIS HOUSE AND YOUR ALLOWING IT, SHE WAS SPEAKING WITH SUCH A DOMANINCE IN HER VOICE, MY AUNT BRENDA STANDING UP AGAIN SPEAKING WITH HER SOFT GENTLE VOICE THAT I AM USED TO, LET HER BE THOMAS PLEASE I BEGG YOU, ZENA SORRY I MENT BREA WILL COME AROUND IN HER OWN TIME AND WHEN SHE IS READY FORING HER TO DO THINGS SHES NOT USED TO WILL NOT HELP THIS HOUSE IN ANYWAY, SIT SARAH A HEARD THIMAS VOICE DISMISSINGS SARAHS WORDS, WHERES THE REST OFF THE KIDS , SOON HEARING THE FOOT STEPS OF TOM, SAMANTHA AND RIA.SOFTLY ALL GREETING AND TAKING THERE PLACES AT THE TABLE AFTER SAYING THANKS. EVERYONE EATING IN SILENCE. HURRY UP BREA FINISH CLEANING UP THE DISHES EVERYONES ALLREADY WAITING AT THE CARRAIGE, RETA SAYING THE OTHER WOMAN ON THE SIDE OFF THOMAS WITH A HASTE IN HER VOICE, ITS ONLY 20MIN WALK I SAID I WILL BE WALKNG TO SCHOOL I SAID IN A VOICE SHE COULD HERE I WAS ANNOYED, AT THE SAME TIME A VOICE IN MY HEAD SCREAMING! I DO NOT WANA f*****g GO. AS THE CARRAIGE WAS LEAVING, I GREETED MY AUNT BEING RELEAVED I AM WALKING. AS THE CARRAIGE DISSAPEARED OVER THE HILL I PULLED OUT A JOINT WHICH I WAS GRAVING FOR FIRST FOR THE DAY BUT DEEP IN MYSELF I KNEW I WOULD BE NEEDING A FEW TODAY GETTING ME THROUGH THIS DAY. TAKING A DEEP PULL BLOWING OUT THE SMOKE THAT’S ITS ZENA. WITH EACH PULL I FELT A FIMMILIAR FEELING OFF f**k THAT FEELING. GETTING CLOSSER TO SHOOL I NOTICED A FE CARRAIGES LEAVING, AND TO MY SURPRISE A FEW CARS ASWELL, YIPPPPPEEEE I THOUGHT SOME NORMALS HERE TO. GOD THERES NORMAL PEOPLE HERE TO WITHOUT NOTICING I SAID IT ALOUD RELIZING I AM STONED AS A ROCK, WELL HERE YOU GO GIRL FEELING MY BODY SHACKING TENSING UP HEADING UP THE STAIRSTO THE SCHOOLS ENTRANCE, EVERYONE LOOKING AT ME WHAT THE f**k HAVENT THESE PEOPLE NOT SEEN A HUMAN YET, I NOTICED THE TWO GROUPS OFF PEOPLE GATHERING TOGHTER ON THE ONE SIDE THE GROUP I WAS FORCED TO GET USED TO THE WIERDOS AND THE OTHER SIDE THE NORMALL ONES AND THEN THERE WAS ME THE FREAK IN THE CENTRE, ME THE FREAK SMILLING AT THEM AS I AM SO HIGH I COULD NOT CARE A f**k WHAT THEY WERE SAYING NOR THINKING. I COULD FEEL THERE EYES BURNING RIGHT THROUGH ME, AS IF I CARED! I HEARD TOMS VOICE, BREA!!STOP LET ME SHOW YOU WHERE TO GO. TOM I SAID MY NAME IS ZENA, BREA YOU KNOW THE RULES STOP MAKING THINGS WORSE FOR YOURSELF. TOM BEINGS SARAHS SON. THOMAS IS A SENIOR 18 YEARS OLD ONLY A FEW MONTHS OLDER THAN ME, OK I SAID FOLLOWING HIM SLOWLLY AS I KNEW WHERE WE SHOULD BE HEADING AND IT’S THE COMPLETE OPPISITE DIRECTION MY BODY WANTED TO MOVE IN, MOVE IT HE SAID WITH SAME DOMANANCE IN HIS VOICE AS THOMAS HIS DAD, SCHOOLS ABOUT TO START MOVE IT! I HATED THE WAY THE WIERDOS TREATED THERE WOMAN. WHATEVER I SAID YET AGAIN ANNOYED AT HIM, THE WOMAN BEHIND THE RECEPTION DESK LOOKING AT ME AS IF I WERE THE WEIRD ONE, LOOKING VERY CONFUSSED. TOM GREETED AND WITH LEAVING HE SAID THERE YOU GO ON YOUR OWN FROM HERE, SO YOU’RE THE NEW GIRL NOT WHAT WE EXPECTED SHE SAID WITH SARCASIM IN HER VOICE, HERE IS YOUR ROSTER AND LOCKER NUMBER AND KEY. VERN! WILL BE SHOWING YOU AROUND TODAY POINTING AT A GIRL A FAMILIAR SIGHT I WAS GETTING USED TO AND FORCED TO FACE EVERYDAY. NO I SHOUTED AT MYSELF IN MY HEAD NOT HERE TO CAN I NOT JUST HAVE NORMAL HERE. HI! I AM VERN THE PALE GIRL WITH HAIR UP IN A BUN AND THE CLOTHING I AM EXPECTED TO WEAR SAYING TO ME HESITATING FOR A WHILE BEFORE I COULD REACTING BACK, I NEED TO GET HIGHER SOON I WAS THINKING TO MYSELF, IM ZENA I MEAN BREA , SHOULD WE NOT BE GETTING GOING BEING VERY ANNOYED AT THE WHOLE SET UP, FOLLOW ME SHE REPLIED IN A VOICE I AM USED TO SOFT SPOKEN, BUT I M NOT INTRESTED ONLY THING I WANNTED TO DO WAS TO SNEAK OFF THE THE WOODED AREA ACROSS FROM SCHOOL AND HAVE A JOINT, AFTER SCHOOL SOME RELIEVE CAME OVER ME THANK GOD THIS DAY IS OVER I THOUGHT TO MSELF LEAVING SCHOOL, BUT AT THE SAME TIME A SADNESS CREEPED UP IN MY SOUL KNOWING WHAT I M HEADING TOWARDS, BEST I HEAD INTO THE WOODED AREA FIRST FOR SOME ACTION BEFORE HEADING HOME, FINDING A ROCK TO SIT ON LIGHTING A SMOKE PULLING VERY HARD ON IT FILLING MY LUNGS WITH SMOKE THAT IT BURNS, MY SLEEVES PULLED UP SLIGHTLLY WITHOUT NOTICING ME RUBBING THE SCARS ON MY WRIST. SNAPPING OUT OFF MY DAY DREAM I THOUGHT TO MYSELF A SMOKE AINT GONNA WORK I WOULD RAHTER PREPEAR MYSELF BY SMOKING A JOINT, LIGHTNING UP AGAIN YET ANOTHER FOR THE DAY, STRANGE THE WIERDOS DON’T PICK UP THAT I M AS HIGH AS A KITE SOMEDAYS. THAT’S BETTER I SIGHED WITH RELIEVE ENJOYING EVERY DRAW, SLOWLLY FINDING  MY WAY BACK HOME AS HIGH AS IT GETS. IN THE DISTANCE I HEARD THE VOICE OFF SARAH WTF I SAID, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN SHE ASKED IN THAT BOSSY VOICE OFF HERS WICH SHE RULES THE HOUSE WITH. SORRY I LOST TRACK OFF TIME I REPLIED, AS USSUAL SHE SAYING IN HER ANNOYING VOICE, I JUST ROLLED MY EYES WALKING PAST HER. THERE IS DUTIES TO BE DONE IT’S YOUR TURN TO CLEAN UP WE HAD LUCH ALL READY.