Someday I will learn

Chapter 54: Wandering around

We’re Back In Everfloria city. After the tragedy on the ship. The princess helps us go back to Everfloria city.

Seating together with Yumi and Taki. Wearing eating sweets together in front of Kaoru sweet shop.

Walking with the sweets we ordered on her hand. Kopyome serves us our treats.

“It's good to see everyone again. I thought we’re not seeing each other before. I’m happy to see my savior again.”

After the time we save her in the dark mansion. Koyome started living and working under Kaoru’s sweet shop as a waitress.

It's good to know that she is in a good place.

“Kaoru’s sweet sure is the best.”

Yumi said as she bites down her donut.

“Really? That makes my heart flutter. By the way, what happened after you leave the city before. I saw you three together with the famous State knight Karyll.”

“She decided to accept us as her pupils but she never teaches us anything yet. Instead, we’re taken to the Island called battle frontier and there someone taught us to become stronger. Too bad he died after meeting us in few weeks.”

Taki was still feeling bad top the turn of events. But she’s trying her best to stand strong right now. Taki doesn’t let her emotions occupy her action.

It's something that I don’t have control over myself.

While on the ship, I don’t know if I’m right or wrong. No matter how many times I deny it. The fact that I killed people, will never gonna change.

Those people like me had love ones and I’m sure these people also have people loving them back. No matter how bad a person maybe, I’m sure someone loves them.

For me to take their life easily scared me.

It’s hunting me down. That night, I can’t stop thinking about it. At first, I thought it was right. But after talking to Taki and Princess Iris.

They told me that it's the wrong thing to do.

At that moment, this person is basically about to kill me. I just killed them before they kill me. What’s wrong with that? I wonder.

I don’t know what's right and wrong. I’m just a child knowing nothing in this world. Dreaming of an adventure that I can enjoy.

If my mother was still alive. Her knowing that I became a murder might lead to the conclusion that she raised me the wrong way.

What is this feeling? I’m so confused. Someday… Someday… Someday I will learn.

“Are you feeling well Laura? You’re barely eating you,r sweets.”

Asked Kaoru.

“I’m fine… I just stepped on something that I can’t return on. I feel like I lost something within myself.”

Kaoru gets one of the bavarian donuts and then put it inside Laura’s mouth., She forces it on her mouth. Laura had no choice but to chew it and swallowed it.

“Hey! Are you trying to kill my best friend?!”

Yumi yelled and hand slammed the table.

“Are you feeling alright now? I understand that your having a rough time and the three of you are extraordinary kids. You're still 12 years old. Your way too young for those heavy philosophical bull crap. Stop talking like an adult and enjoy being young. Play around enjoy things you like. Smile and laugh like an i***t. Kids are supposed to be like that… It's not just about Laura… It's also about Taki and Yumi.”

Being a child. Acting like a child. Smiling like I have no problem. Kaoru has appointed on whats she's trying to say. But I’m already beyond saving.

After the tragedy in Rum town. I don’t want to be a child anymore. I wanted to become bigger and, make my dream a reality before I died. Because I in that incident. I found out that no one knows the time limit of life.

Living means I’ll be dying. Maybe it's today or tomorrow.

I’m scared of dying without doing the things I wanted to do. I’m scared that’s why I traveled.

“Three of you are very weird… If it's rough you can run away. It's normal to do mistakes. That’s the beauty of being a child like you. Your action is always justified just because you are just a child and learning the way the world works. As you get older and older. The world started to get darker and darker.”

Upon hearing those words, I find them very compelling.

We then play in the flower garden afterward with Belle. And Koyume.

The sweet shop closed early because the ingredients had run out. Kaoru’s business is booming and at its peak today. For now, Kaoru was enjoying her book and read it.

In the garden, the four of us run around and play tag. It’s quite unfair because Taki, Yumi, and I were physically stronger and trained than Belle and Koyume.

Even still the two girls enjoy running around the garden. We laugh and smile. Jest and play pranks to each other. We tease each other and after few moments we laugh about it.

Kaoru is correct. Even I did murder someone. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m still a child growing and learning from my mistakes.

For now, I smile and decided to not think about it.

…

Unfortunately, the train was under maintenance because of a  monster attack. Because of that, we’re all unable to ride the train heading to Central city.

Money is not a  problem. Meaning we can stay here as much as we want for now until the train is repaired.

In the meantime, we should something to do something.

Normally a classic adventure would be considered. An adventure of adventurers. Like getting quest in the quest bulletin board and doing it for fun.

But we are still underage. Only age 15 and above are considered and allowed to get adventuring quest. Because of that the three of us were kicked out in the adventurers guild.

“They should judge the book by its cover.”

“Well, the clerk told us that some kids before is taking adventuring quest as a game. That's why the only adults are allowed to do it.”

I said.

While wandering in the streets of Everfloria. Yumi noticed a shop. It's a weaponry shop. She runs to it and looks around for weapons.

But just like in adventuring guild. We are kicked out because we are underage. Children can buy weapons. I can’t argue with them.

With us all exhausted we sit down together on the bench and look at the beautiful flower garden. Looking at Kaoru’s sweet shop. The shop is busy as ever. That means we cant play with Koyome and Belle.

“What should we do now?”

“Want to sleep…”

“Nothing in particular.”

We look blankly and made a huge sigh.

Just what are we supposed to do now? Right now, I feel like boredom can literally kill me according to the station. The train will be repairing a week from now. Still, it's too long. I wanted to visit Central city and find out the happening in Mayu.

Yumi stood up.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m going to the library. I wanted to read books and learn something. I wanted to learn about human organs and body weakness. Maybe, if I learned that I will be able to defeat my big sister Yuri.”

Yumi replied.

Taki followed her and stood up.

“I’m really feeling exhausted. I can’t take it anymore. My eyelids are about to fall. I’m going back to our room and have some sleep.”

I don’t feel like reading and I’m not sleepy. Kauru’s shop is busy.

That means I’ll be alone.

It made me sad but that was the truth. I was left alone in the flower garden park all alone.

The sun is still up in the sky. I guess I’ll go get something to do like them. After a long time of deep thinking. I find a solution to my boredom.

…

I walked to the city gate and asked the knight if I can go outside. But like I expected the knight didn’t let me pass.

“Sorry young lady, but it was dangerous outside. We can’t let you go out alone without a guardian. The outside was full of scary monsters. You should just go back and play with other kids.”

He's treating me like a child but he's kind of nice. So I didn’t get angry with him.

But still, I find a way to go outside.

I run toward the dark alley. In the part of the city where all most no one can see me. With the sword in my hand. I activated my ability lightning-swift and made myself dash upward the wall. Upon reaching the top of the wall. I find the horizon looks beautiful.

“I can see the river and mountains. The sky is so blue and the forest was so green. I didn’t know there's such a huge lake west of the city. It's so wide it looks like an ocean.”

Instead of training, I enjoy myself looking at the scenery I can from the top of the wall.

“You're so selfish Laura.”

“Yep, Laura is selfish.”

Taki and Yumi appeared behind me.

“I thought the two of you are doing your stuff.”

“I got worried when I leave you so I search for you.”

Taki said and averted her eyes.

“I became bored of reading books alone. I want to share it with everyone.”

I see, I smiled and then hugs both of them.

“Wh-What are you doing Laura?”

“My best friend is finally being wholesome.”

“I’m always wholesome.”

After saying that we all giggle and laugh. We run to the top of the wall enjoy the scenery and read the interesting book in Yumi’s hands.

Mother, I really feel bless meeting this person. Kaoru makes me feel like I have a big sister. Belle and Koyume are like my little sisters. Taki and Yumi is my closest friend just like Mayu. They all make me feel relief when I was feeling down. With them, I feel secured.

With them, I feel like I can be happy.